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The battle had already started when I regrouped with Commander LaFlaga. He was fighting off another mobile suit belonging to ZAFT. I had just learned by the man that it wasn't a wave that crashed into the Archangel earlier: it was a submarine mobile suit sending explosive under my mother ship.
"I have to go look around, Commander! Their mother ship shouldn't be far away! It's probably in a ten kilometers range! Are you going to be okay if I leave you here with Kira?" Though I would watch out for behind-your-back punches, Commander... "Yes, who are you taking me for? I'm the best around!" he said, trying to reassure himself. He managed to push around the purple mobile suit attacking him and I leaped further into the sky, passing by the Archangel, making sure it was safe. I contacted the Captain immediately.
"Captain! I'm going to look for the mother ship of those four mobile suits! I won't be long; I'm just going to pinpoint their location! I'll be back before the fight is over!" I said to her.
"Alright but don't trespass the ten kilometers range. It could be dangerous and you're alone...without mobile suit..." I frowned. "Hey, I'm cool with that! Don't worry!" As soon as I passed the Archangel, my navigation system was shot by the underwater mobile suit the Archangel dreaded. "Fuck!" I could see clear smoke behind the Skygrasper, though it wasn't very important. I can handle a little pressure here...It's not like I haven't been in this situation before... Oh well, we'll have to do without radars and navigation system... No worry...! While flying blindly, I noticed that not even ZAFT ships, except the ones attacking the Archangel, were up to this point. I went higher and passed the strange lining of the clouds: I was high in the atmosphere now and I could feel the pressure on the small Skygrasper.
It was nothing like the Valliant, mind you: the cabin was small, no speed levers, just a small pedal to push for power. The handle stick was not a good thing when flying an airship, but that's just my opinion. I had a habit of typing my options in the Valliant but in the Skygrasper, I had to do everything manually. I was blind since I had no radar and I couldn't find back the Archangel without establishing communication with them. The clouds were thick and white and kept acting like a fog. I looked behind to see if nothing would say "surprise!" and jump on my back to destroy me: there wasn't even a single plane in the horizon. I looked back in the front and gasped: I almost hit an airplane. I went down and examined the flying piece of metal: it belonged to ZAFT! What should I do? Shoot it down? Could this be...the mother ship I'm looking for? In that case...I have no other choice... I took out the cannon gun of the Skygrasper and aimed it at the right wing of the ZAFT aircraft. I pressed on the trigger and shot the right side of the ship. It immediately reacted and replied with heavy gunshots: I tried to evade, but with the restricted mobility of the Skygrasper, I was shot on the back of the engine. "Shit!" I knew what I had to do now: find some place to land and very quickly.
The Skygrasper tilted to the right side during the free fall: I had lost my right engine and if I wasn't careful, I could end up in the Red sea like a fish. I tried to spot an island close with the damaged navigation system but no can do: the thing is broken to the last extent. The only way I could spot something up was the old way, meaning with my eyes. I wasn't lucky so far: I could only see water and... Dolphins. As they would help the Skygrasper swim to a miracle island... Stop dreaming, Kim, you're distressed right now.
Finally, when I thought nothing was possible and that I was bound to swim back to the Archangel, I saw what looked like a small island in the distance. Thing is I didn't know if I would make it there. The Skygrasper was now gliding its way through the thin air and it would definitely crash onto the waves. I managed to find the cheap, last resort engine in the back of my cockpit and pressed on the red button that started it. God's way, even though I didn't believe, reached to me and I could at least control the direction I was falling to because of that cheap motor engine. I would give anything in the whole wide world right now to have the Valliant... The small island was now getting bigger and the distance between the Skygrasper and the deadly sea was getting thinner. I had no more options now: I had to eject myself out. I looked for the button, but couldn't find it. What the hell is this? No ejection button! Oh my God! This is so stupid!I could see the deadly waves crashing on the island now and I braced myself for impact. Ouch!
When I woke up from my unconscious state, I noticed the Skygrasper had inevitably crashed but in a comfortable way: in between rocks, about three meters from the island. I manually opened the hatch of the cockpit and took a large amount of fresh air. At least I'm not dead...yet. I got out of the aircraft and jumped in the chilly waters. I gasped at its coldness and swam to the island. I looked at the wreck and smiled nervously. Murrue is going to kill me...! When I reached the soft sand, I kneeled down and relaxed for two minutes. I checked my belt: I had replaced my gun in its case before leaving the Archangel, so I wasn't totally defenseless. My knife was in my right boot and I had packed hand grenades in my pocket bag...which probably floated away while I was swimming... Great, this is fantastic.
I walked through the thick tropical forest with difficulty and could feel the calming sunset on my face. The temperature was getting chilly by the instant and I took out my lighter and put in my pocket. My long sleeved shirt was soaked, along with my black jeans under my Earth Forces suit. My helmet was gone and the sleeves on my suit were torn and burned. I ripped the form-fitting suit and left it in the forest, keeping my jeans and shirt. I left my boots there, knowing soaked shoes or boots would keep me swearing like crazy because of the irritation they would cause. I finally reached a cliff where the other side of the island was perceptible. This is one small island... I wonder if it's inhabited...?
I looked around and my reflexes took the best of me: I fell on my front side, face down. I saw a mobile suit standing tall beside me, hiding in the branches of the forest tropical trees. What's it doing here? That's a ZAFT mobile suit... Just great! Exactly what I needed right now! They probably retraced the Skygrasper and discovered this island. I know they're looking for me! Of course, I destroyed one of their aircraft...! I looked below once again and saw a figure getting out of the mobile suit. It was a ZAFT Elite pilot: I could recognize it from their red suits. The person was still wearing its helmet so it was impossible for me to see this person's face. I knew it was a man because... well, I had learned early on that a woman's anatomy is way different from a man's. The silhouette moved and took off the helmet, revealing the beautiful silver hair and blue eyes of none other than Yzak Joule. Fuck, fuck, fuck! No! Why? God, I am asking why you're doing this to me! This is so unfair! I was so dumbfounded I forgot to stay low. He turned his head around to look behind him and our eyes met for the slightest moment. His navy blue eyes also demonstrated a state of surprise and shock while my green ones were still locked on his perfect silhouette.
I snapped and quickly took my gun, pointing it at him. My aim was directed at his scared face. He seemed angry and also took out his gun, aiming my face. My breathing was becoming fast and uncertain as I faced death directly. This is dangerous... Maybe if I drop my gun he'll stop glaring at me like I'm the worse asshole in the universe... I slowly kneeled down to drop my gun and elevated my hands high in the air, in a sign of defeat. I had no intention of shooting him because, well, I never intended to hurt him ever. He walked into my direction and I stepped back. I was on a cliff so I had the advantage. I kicked away my weapon deep into the harsh vegetation and hoped he wouldn't find it. He took a step, I took a step back. I had no intention of hurting but I had no intention of getting hurt myself, that is.
"Get down!" he screamed. I shook my head and stayed where I was. He also kept the gun high, never leaving its aim, which was my head. I had no choice. I knew that when I kicked away my only legitimate defense, which was my beloved gun, I would eventually face fear. This was the moment. I slowly got down the cliff, very slowly I said. He waited where he was. Rain started pouring down slightly, making the rock slippery. My barefoot slipped under the slimy surface and I fell my way down on the soft sand again. I winced in pain but kept a cool attitude. I slowly got up and looked at my bleeding leg: it was hurting like a bitch. I looked back at Yzak, who had taken the advantage of walking in my direction without me noticing. "Don't you come any closer!" I managed to say to him, but her wouldn't listen. I knew if I moved to unexpectedly, I would end up with a bullet in my skull, so I stayed there, still.
"You shot down my cargo ship, bitch!" he said, still angry. I thought back and closed my eyes.
"Listen: the Archangel was attacked by ZAFT and my aircraft was blind, what do you want me to say? I thought your cargo ship was the source of the attackers!" I said, trying to defend myself from his accusations.
"You killed the crew and almost destroyed my mobile suit... Do you think I should just let you live? After what you've done to me? You deserve to die!" he spat out, still seeing red. "Then kill me, if it's what you want. I have nothing I could attack you with. I am injured and you have a gun aiming at my head. What more do you need to pull the trigger?" I asked him. He grunted and was almost two feet away now. I could see the black hole of the gun now but I managed to stay cool. I had no other choice: it was now raining heavily and the temperature had severely dropped. I didn't want my teeth to chatter but I couldn't escape it now. I could feel my lower lip tremble from the cold and my body shivering.
"Turn around." He ordered. I executed myself and turned around.
"If you move, I'll shoot you down." He said. I could still sense the edge of rage in his voice. If I knew his transport wasn't the mother ship of my attackers, I wouldn't have shot it down. This is war, what is he expecting? I felt the cold feel of the handcuffs on my wrist and the hard handling of Yzak. I could feel the heat of his body against my back while he adjusted them. He then grabbed my arm and dragged me near the sea. "What are you doing?" I asked him, nervous. He stayed silent, his grip violent and harsh on my arm. When we had water at our ankles, he pushed me down on my knees and I screamed: the salt on my wound was excruciating. I clenched my teeth and endured. He grabbed my arm again and "helped" me up again. I looked at his face and into his blue eyes for a moment but all I received was a slap from him. It's not like I was expecting something kinder, but not this. I thought he was going to drown me in the salty water, but he took my arm again and we walked on the beach.
"This is actually pretty romantic, don't you think?" I said, trying to ease up his angry attitude, though I expected nothing less from an angry man. He gave me such a harsh glare that it was enough to shut me up for the next hour. He walked me to his mobile suit. The Duel was grey and dull: his protective color armor was off and the cockpit was open. I started to squirm against his grip and he silently made it clear that if I moved once more, he'd hit me hard. I frowned and thought about my options, which were pretty much dead right now. I looked at the handcuffs attaching my hands.
My body was now shivering and my teeth were chattering more than ever, making him twitchy and annoyed. "Stop this!" he asked. "I can't!" I replied. He swiftly took my face violently into his grip, pressing against my jaw. My mouth stopped moving. "There, I knew you could do it." He said, his voice deep and cold. "You're...hurting...me!" I managed to scream at him. I've had enough of the roughness he was putting me through.
"What do you expect, wench? You're my prisoner!" he screamed back, angrier than ever. "I have a name, Yzak!" I said back to him, kicking his leg. He took a bundle of my hair and pointed the gun at my temple. "Do you want to die, Kim?" He asked. I kicked him again and simply said: "Go ahead, it's wide open for you." He seemed surprised by my answer and I let myself fall on the ground, on my butt. I turned around, my back facing him. I looked at my sore leg and swore under my breath. "Could this get any funnier?" I asked myself, talking out loud.
"Don't wish for something you truly don't want." Replied Yzak, unstopping his wet upper body. I looked back and blushed. I quickly turned my head back, facing the sea, beating red. Is he...undressing? When I'm right here?
"I suggest you stay like that. I wouldn't want you to have a heart attack from seeing me naked." He added: the bitchiness in his voice had replaced the anger now. "What do you mean by that, Yzak Joule? I have seen many men naked already. It's not like you're anything special."
"Really...? Why did you blush like when you turned around then?"
"Would you stop assuming?" I asked him. I shyly turned back around to see if he was listening to me. Never should've done that. His lean, muscular back was showered by the pouring rain and his long, silver hair was wet. "Drop dead sexy...!" said my hormones. "Totally unnecessary!" screamed my brain. "Are you still looking down there? I thought I was just assuming, but you really are looking." He said, laughing at his cockiness.
Time passed as the moon got up high in the evening sky. I was still sitting outside while he went back in his cockpit, enjoying dry clothes and probably food. I on the other hand was still soaked even though it had stopped raining hours ago. I was sticky and tasted like salt because I swam earlier. I was really in deep shit now: under the enemy's gun and fucking disgusting. I laid my head on the sand and waited. I wonder when the Archangel will send help... Maybe I'm too much trouble and will decide to let me live with Rambo over here.
I suddenly felt something touch the tip of my head. I looked up and saw a giant crab. I screamed at the top of my lungs and shook my head like crazy. Yzak, alarmed by the sudden screaming, got down from his mobile suit and ran towards me. "What is your problem now?" he asked. "There's a fucking crab in my hair! Get it off! Get it off!"
He was trying not to laugh at me but I swear I saw a smirk on his face. "Are you fucking deaf? Get the fucking crab off of me before I send it in your hair!" I screamed, my cool vanishing to be replaced by anger. His hand reached towards my hair and he swiftly caught the crab in time and threw it far into the sea. I was breathing heavily and put my head on my knees. I knew he was still behind me, waiting for something. "What do you want? I already feel stupid enough: I got captured by you, handcuffed by you and now saved from a near death from crab attack by you! What more can I give you to make your satisfaction and ego grow bigger?" I asked him. He stayed silent and stood there.
"Of course, I can't get up either. Just tower over me in victory and claim your prize, Yzak! You can shoot me now before I kill myself out of embarrassment!" I screamed, my voice cracking and my eyes blinded my shameful tears. He sat next to me and looked directly at my face.
"This is satisfying enough, I mean, seeing you cry like a baby, not a warrior. You know how I felt when you almost crushed me with your mobile suit, last time we saw each other." I glared at him, tears falling down my face. "I lost control." I simply said. "You always have control." He replied. "If you wouldn't have been such an asshole with me, I wouldn't even have considered your death." I said back, more tears falling down my cheeks. He growled and got up, walking around, deeply lost in thoughts. "I'd give anything to have you with me, Seth..." I said, mumbling to myself. "What did you say?" he asked. "Nothing."
"You know, it's your entire fault if you're in your situation right now. You shouldn't have dropped your gun, earlier." He continued, justifying himself. "I dropped it because I thought you would've understood that I didn't want to attack you, not to surrender, you jerk." I shivered as the cold wind hit my back like snow. He approached me and took my wrists. "What are you doing?" I asked, incredulous. He didn't answer, simply took out the key and undid the handcuffs.
"You have to change. You're freezing." He stated. He quickly ran back into the Duel's cockpit and brought some fresh clothes for me to put on. My body was shivering so much it was impossible not to tremble like a leaf. "Move your arms up." He ordered. He wants to watch me change! What the hell? "No thank you... I ca-can d-do it al-lone...!" I said, my teeth chattering again. He pulled the shirt from my body and pulled it over my head, leaving me topless, in my pink bra. "Don't look at me!" I screamed, turning my back. "Come on, you'll catch a cold!" He said, his voice turning as the chilly wind. "Who are you! Who are you to have the rights to do this to me?" I said to him, still not turning my back. "I'm the one who's going to hurt you if you don't shut the fuck up and obey!" he said, turning around by force and pulling a white, long sleeved shirt on my now freezing body.
I tried to push him away but my hands were trembling so. "Get the rest of your clothes off." He barked. "There's no way in hell I'll do that, rest assured!" I said, snapping the jogging pants from his hands. "Turn around! Your mother never taught you manners, Yzak Joule?" I said to him while he turned around.
"I had no bad intentions! Who are you taking me for? Do you honestly think I'd be attracted to a Natural? You're out of your mind!" he said. I got my jeans off, pulled the panties off as well and quickly put on the spare pants he gave me. "Well that's just fine, you fucking Coordinator. I'll just go and make myself a nice fire in that stupid cave and if I see you near my fucking place, let's just say that I will hurt you." And with that, I walked away.
"Wait a minute, you're my prisoner!" he said, remembering. "Too late now." I replied. Near the mobile suit, I had noticed there was a beach cave. I ran to the hiding spot and dropped my wet clothes on the ground. I started looking for some wood, but all of the wood on the sandy beach was damp and nothing would burn out of it. I took some branches in the forest and I knew Yzak was still following me. After an hour of wood gathering, I placed the logs pyramid-like in the cavern and rolled the wheel of my tiny lighter. I was finally getting lucky: smoke appeared and soon, I had built a nice fire to warm my body a little. I placed the wet clothes on the sandy ground and let the fire dry them up.
My body was dry now but my stomach still cried loudly for some food. I could see Yzak getting inside the Duel to fetch for something and he came back down with snacks. He has food! I can't believe it! He quickly found my spot and waited outside. "What do you want, Yzak? Are you cold?" I asked him, obviously aware that he was freezing. "Tell you what, bitch: you let me in and I give you food. How does that sound?" he said with his bitchy voice. I couldn't resist the fact that I could finally shut my stomach's trap. "Fine but you stay on your side of the fire." I said back to him. He threw on my head an energy bar and a bottle of water. "Ouch! What was that for?" I called to him. "I gave you food so now you shut up and let me warm up." He said, concluding the conversation. After a snack and a drink, I laid my body on the ground and tried to sleep off the pain of the wound. Yzak, on the other hand, was trying to reach his mother ship, but it looked like he couldn't get a signal anywhere. I let my long hair loose and tried to relax, but his mere presence was stressful enough. I looked at him and he looked like he was sound asleep. I looked at his belt and noticed his gun. There's my chance!
I slowly and silently got up and kneeled close to the young man's body. I could feel the heat of his skin as my hand approached his belt. I silently unclipped the case and took the gun in my hand. Without any warning, Yzak, whom I thought was sleeping, woke up and looked at me, directly in my eyes. I aimed at him but he kicked my wound so hard I pressed the trigger and shot. The bullet did not touch Yzak but I could feel my body lose balance: I was about to fall in the burning fire right behind me. Swiftly Yzak took me by the waist, pulled me on his and grunted. "What the fuck are you doing?" he screamed, obviously not liking that I was on top of him. I pointed the gun at him and screamed.
"Don't move! I might not shoot if you stop squirming." I said to him. Slowly, my other hand grabbed the bottom of the gun and I got off the ammo inside it. I got off Yzak and went to the entrance of the cave and threw far away this precious ammo that would no longer threat my life in Yzak's hands. I also threw the gun away and behind me, Yzak swore.
"Are you fucking crazy? We're defenseless now!" I smirked. "You're a pussy, Yzak. Are you scared of poor little Kim?" I mocked him. He quickly got up and without any warning, jumped on me, tumbled on the ground on top of me and grabbed my wrist. He was now sitting on my body and holding out my arms: I was at his mercy again.
"What did you call me?" he asked, very angry. "You're a fucking prissy pants! Are you scared shitless about everything?" I asked him. He slapped me and gripped my neck. "I'm such a pussy right now I might strangle you." He said.
"You would." I said to him.
"You would because you're scared of this situation." He slapped me again. "I wouldn't be scared if I knew that I could trust you." He stated.
"We can't trust each other, Yzak! We're at war against each other!" He involuntarily rubbed his lower body against mine and, truthfully, I managed not to moan. I looked deep into his eyes and he did the same. I've never felt this way before, not even with Seth. I knew he felt that jolt of pleasure too, he just wouldn't admit it.
"Are we liking this or what?" he asked, taking control over my feelings. "I don't know what you're talking about." He smirked and rubbed himself again, just to see the pleasure and agony in my face. He knew I liked it, he knew I was affected by it and he would enjoy making me feel bad about it.
"Are you missing your boyfriend, Kim? Is that why you're so horny?" he asked. I blushed and turned my eyes away, not speaking. "Don't you play innocent with me, woman! I saw it again in your eyes! You're disgusted by me, there's no denying it!" I managed to roll myself over him forcefully and I grabbed, with all of my courage, his package. His expression turned from anger to shock.
"I am not disgusted by you, Yzak! What is it that you don't understand? You're a beautiful person!" He seemed shocked by the compliment, like no one ever told him what I just told him. I was about to get off of him but he pulled back and sat. Our faces were so close I could smell the sweet scent of his hair. His blue eyes were now staring directly into me and I was totally at his mercy. Gently, like I never would've thought that was possible with him, he pressed his full lips against mine. My body acted on its own accord and I shyly kissed him back. The tip of his tongue touched my lower lip and I let him enter my mouth. My breasts were rubbing against his hard torso and his hands rubbed my back. I felt so warm inside and it felt delicious. The kiss was now very deep, too deep to my taste. My body still wasn't listening and we kept on going. He slowly removed the shirt he lend to me and looked at my bra.
"I didn't know you had such exquisite taste." He stated. "It's not because I pilot a mobile suit that I have to look like a man." I replied. " I've never seen a man with breasts." I blushed and he undid the clip on my back. When he removed the clothing item, I instinctively closed my arms in front of my breasts and looked away. "Don't do that." I frowned and let tears roll down my cheeks. He quickly grabbed my arm and pulled me in a tight embrace, like something inside of him snapped, like he longed for my touch. It was such an intimate moment, such pure bliss that I couldn't resist. For a moment, every worry I had about him was gone and I let myself fall in love with him, like a complete fool. It felt good, being able to be true with myself. As I opened my eyes, I met his deep blue gaze and his eyes were soft and warm.
Yzak snapped and pushed me away. "I shouldn't have let this happen." He simply said, getting dressed up. I turned around to pick my bra up, silent. I'm so ashamed. What the fuck is happening to me? As I put my shirt back on, I noticed the sun rising up slowly in the sky. I couldn't help the tears falling on my cheeks out of shame and I got up. I looked behind to find Yzak standing up, looking at his radar. "Looks like there's a mobile suit coming. It's probably one of your friends coming to find you." He said. I ran to him and without thinking, I hugged him. I couldn't help myself. It was too much for me to resist. I rested my head on his shoulder and for the slightest moment, I felt his arms around my waist. I never understood what happened that night, but it seemed that we understood more than we thought about each other. "Yzak... I feel good. If we ever cross paths on the battlefield... I..." he put his hand on my mouth and simply said: "Me too. Look, there's a green mobile suit in the horizon." He said, pointing outside. We went outside the cave and walked a bit, but he suddenly stopped.
"I guess he shouldn't see me with you. I have to go." He said. I smiled at him and reminded him: "Yzak! ... I... like you better when you're like this." He shrugged it off and walked away, deeply into the forest to go prepare his mobile suit for departure. I guess he returned to his normal state. On the other end of the beach, the Outpacer landed next to the fallen Skygrasper and Seth got out of his mobile suit, apparently looking for me.
"Kim? Kim, where are you?" I shook my arms in the air and screamed: "I'm right here! Took you long enough, Seth!" Minutes later, Seth and I were in the Outpacer's cockpit and he was bringing me back to the Archangel. "I'm glad I found you, Kim! Everyone was worried sick about you!" I smiled and looked at the far right of the Outpacer's cockpit window. I saw Yzak, standing over the cliff I had fallen over, looking at me in the distance. I hope I see him again.