Adam's POV

The moment I heard the door slam, I knew I had been so stupid. How could I say that to Sauli? He didn't deserve my anger. It shouldn't have been taken out on him. I shouldn't have ever been angry for Christ's sake! He was only trying to protect our friendship! And I understand that… Now. If only I had understood before. How could I be so stubborn and selfish? So… So rude. I'm a terrible person. Poor Sauli. I need him. I can't tear our friendship apart when all he was trying to do was keep it together.

I felt a wet liquid fall from my eyes and I let out a loud whimper, throwing my head into my hands. I cried because I didn't know what else to do. Sauli could hate me now. He could never want me back and tell me to get out of his life. He could tell me that he never wants to see my face again and regrets ever meeting him. And I made this mess myself. I'm a fucking asshole!

And the second I heard the first crack of thunder, I was suddenly on my feet and out the door, flashlight in hand. I don't know what came over me, but all I could remember was the first night Sauli and I met. He was so afraid of thunder. I will never forget that night, the night I got to hold him and care for him. And comfort him. I wondered if I would ever get to have another night like that with him. Probably not.

Making my way towards the woods, I turned on the flashlight because I could already see, from where I was that it was dark in there. But the flashlight did its job, and I easily got to the edge of the woods. There was really only one trail, so I decided to follow this one. This should lead to Sauli, unless he had gone off trail. Which I doubt he would. But then again, why would he even be in the woods? Why was I checking for him in here? I honestly didn't know the answer to my question, but it was like my feet were moving, just leading me to Sauli because they knew where he was. I had no say in which direction my feet wanted me to go, they were just leading me to him.

So my feet just decided to keep me on trail, letting my leather boots get covered in mud. But I didn't really care right now, because all I wanted to do was see Sauli and make everything better. Fix my mistake. Make it be forgotten.

Even when the heavy rain started to fall, I didn't turn around and walk back to my house. I kept walking, even picking up the pace a bit. I just needed to get to him. I pushed leaves and branches aside, the rain kept falling, making me drenched. And I didn't care. I had never felt like this before. It was a feeling of need, a feeling of want… a feeling of love.

I love Sauli. I need him in my life. He is the one person that keeps me alive. He is my heart and soul. I can't live without him. I need to get to him. To find him. Dammit! How long is this fucking trail? I sighed in anger, letting out a small groan at the same time. The tears came back to my eyes. Suddenly, I felt a tug on my foot and I fell, tripping over the root that had caught my foot. I lay flat on my stomach, face covered in tears, rain, sweat and mud. And I didn't know what to do. So I just laid there. Laid in the roots and bugs. Lay in the dirt, in the mud. And I did it for Sauli.

I don't know how long I stayed there, but it must've been a while. Maybe an hour or so, I don't really have a clue. The only thing running through my mind the whole time was Sauli, my love for Sauli, where Sauli was. It was amazing how I could never get bored of thinking of his adorable laugh or not-able-to-be-resisted smile. But eventually something motivated me to get back up off the ground and keep running. The flashlight was lost now, so I had no source of light but the moon, which was barely visible due to the massive amount of trees that surrounded me.

I came to a stop in the trail, where there was a small opening and a giant tree in the middle. This was where I had found Sauli. It was sort of a circle shape, and I saw a shivering figure leaning against the big tree. A small smile pulled at the corner of my lips, but then faded when I saw how cold he was and how alone he looked. I walked over to him, cupping his face in my hands.

"Sauli, I'm so sorry," I said, leaning my forehead against his. I was sort of crouched above him.

"No, Adumb, I shouldn't have run away. I'm sorry," and when he said that, I didn't argue with him, even though he had no reason to be sorry. I had had too much arguing today, and arguing AGAIN about who's right and who's wrong would just about kill me. So, keeping my hands on his cheeks, I leaned in and kissed him, our lips mashing. The rain was pouring on us, and our lips were moving so fluently together. We had never kissed like this before. So much passion was put into this kiss. It wasn't sexy or hot, it was love filled. His arms wrapped around my neck and I pulled away, just to whisper something in his ear.

"I love you."