BPOV:

It was the longest ride home of my existence.

I curled up in the passenger seat of my car, and I let the anger, remorse, and sadness take me. The tearless sobs quaked through my body. I wanted so much for just one tear to escape my eyes. It would have been such a release. I knew however that it would never happen.

How did he think he could just call me…love? He has no right to call me…love let alone touch me. He lost those privileges when he left me alone in the woods that day. I doubt he even knows what love is.

"Bella…"I heard someone say faintly almost a whisper. I looked up and saw Lynn staring at me with her eyes full of sympathy. "We're home. Do you want me to help you inside?"

I had not even realized that the car had stopped. We were now sitting in the drive way of our home.

"No I think I can manage." I said blankly.

I got out of the car and made my way into the house. Our house was quite modest, nothing compared to the Cullen's home. It was two stories and painted a muted blue color with white shutters. All the windows had flower boxes under them, and they were over flowing with flowers. It also had a wrap-around porch. I was exactly the type of place I had pictured I would live in. I loved this house very much.

The inside of our house was very eclectic and brightly colored. My sisters had designed the inside. I wanted no part in that except for my room. I crossed the living room and made my way up the stairs and down the hall to my room. It was big as mostly rooms go. It was my sanctuary, my oasis in the desert.

I had painted my walls with a landscape. It was a field surrounded on all sides by trees. The field was covered in wildflowers of all kinds. My ceiling was painted like a blue sky with white puffy clouds. It looked like a beautiful summer day. Every time I stepped into this room it was like going back in time and being in my meadow on the first day when Edward showed me his sparkles. In the middle of the room was my bed. It was huge and was covered with a rose colored comforter set and lilac pillows. They were the exact color of my wildflowers.

There was a set of double doors on my three remaining walls. One led to my bathroom. One led to my closet that even Alice would be proud of. The last one led to my drawing room.

This room was my most prized possession. It housed all of my paintings and drawings. I never let anyone go in there. Not even Lynn and Leeann.

I went over and lay on my bed and closed my eyes. I did this whenever I wanted to calm my nerves. I took a deep breath and sighed, "How could I have punched him?"

I know I was angry. I know I was hurt, but that was not me. I did not do things like that especially to someone that I loved.

I turned over on my side and stared at the wall. It had only one picture. It was my one possession that had kept me going all of these years.

My Lullaby.

It was wrinkled and worn from being folded and unfolded so many times. From my months living in the woods, it had acquired quite a few rips and tears, but somehow it had survived. I had it restored and framed a few months after I found Lynn and Lee Ann, but you could still tell its age.

I flicked my finger and the picture flew off the wall into my hand. I rubbed my finger over the glass reverently while I looked at the perfect notes written in his perfect script. Oh how I loved this song. Looking at the notes I could hear the exquisite melody just like it was sweetly floating out of the paper.

Knock…Knock…Knock…

"Come in…" I sighed assuming it was Lee Ann coming to check up on me.

"Bella…do you mind…if we talk to you for a bit." I voice caught me completely off guard. I looked up to see Rosalie walk through the door. Emmett followed closely behind her.

"Sure guys." I half- smiled while I slid My Lullaby under my pillow. No need for them to know I still covet this so much. "Come on in."

"Wow Bells…this room is awesome." Emmett roars his eyes wide with excitement.

"Did you do this yourself, Bella?" Rosalie asked.

"Yeah…" I shrugged.

"I guess vampire coordination works miracles," Emmett chuckled as he sat down beside me on the bed.

"Yeah….well I HAVE had a lot of time on my hands." I elbowed him in the side and smiled.

"It is good to see you smile Bells."

"It really is Bella." Rosalie said warmly. I smiled back at her and nodded it was so nice to have her smile at me.

"Guys I really want to apologize for my behavior back at the house. I should not have reacted like that. Please tell Esme and Carlisle I am sorry." I said as I looked down at my hands in my lap. I was so ashamed that I had let my anger control my actions like that.

"He came back you know." Rosalie said taking my hand.

"What???? What did you say?"

"He came back for you Bella about six months after we left. He couldn't take it anymore. He had realized he had made the biggest mistake of his life leaving you."

I looked up at her in disbelief, "He came back?" She nodded. "But why would he do that? He….He said he didn't want me….He said that….that…he didn't lo…love me…" I almost couldn't finish the sentence. Rosalie looked at me and her big butterscotch eyes were swirling with remorse and guilt. Both were emotions that I never thought I would see in her eyes. "He said I was just a distraction, Rosalie. Why would he say that to me if he loved me?" I felt two arms wrap around me, and then I was pulled into Emmett's big shoulder. He rubbed my hair trying to soothe me as the tremors of the tearless sobs ran through my body.

"Well… I guess now we know why you punched him." Emmett whispered almost to low for me to hear.

"Well I would have done much worse….if you would have done that to me Emmett McCarty Cullen…Nothing would have been left of you but the ashes." Rosalie sneered.

"Well you know Rosie; she did bust his piano into splinters."

I gasped, "I didn't know you guys knew about that…I replaced it years ago."

"Yeah who knew our Bells packed that much of a punch even when you were human." Emmett chided playfully.

"That was a very bad day….In fact that happened the day I was changed..."

"Bella…" Rosalie interrupted. "A lot of things happened right around the time you were changed. Things you don't know, but if you will listen…I think it is something that you need to hear."

"Of course, what is it?"

"Well like I said Edward came back for you. On his way to Forks he stopped by our house to change and look presentable for you. He had been in South America for some time wallowing in his stupidity and despair as he said. Well when he got there he smelled you. Your scent was all over the house. You must have just been there. When he went in he saw his busted piano. He thought there had been a struggle resulting in the piano being busted, but there was no other scent there but yours. So he followed your trail. He said it wound through the woods behind our home like a jigsaw puzzle. He assumed you were lost. Then finally he came to your meadow. The scene he described was horrific. There was blood everywhere and your clothes were torn and ripped to pieces. It looked like you had been slaughtered in the worst kind of way, but yet there was no body."

She looked at me with eyes full of sorrow and sympathy, "I am so sorry this happened to you….If we had been there we could have prevented it. I encouraged him to leave Bella. Please forgive me…I didn't know this would happen…I didn't think you would be in that much pain…I didn't know how deep your love was. You have to forgive me ….please."

I was shocked by her admission, not the part of her encouraging him to leave, no that I would have expected. I was shocked that she was begging for my forgiveness. "Of course I forgive you Rose. You were forgiven before you even asked."

"Thank you." She whispered.

"Bella there is more. Rosie do you want me to tell the rest?" Emmett asked.

"No, I am all right sweetie. I'll finish. She needs to know." She took a deep ragged breath. I smiled at her reassuringly. Then she continued.

"In the meadow he picked up several more scents. One he knew for sure was Victoria; the others were something he hadn't smelled for many years. That scent belonged to werewolves."

"Werewolves…why am I not surprised. Vampires exist why shouldn't werewolves?" I said to myself.

"He followed the scents down to La Push. He figured they would know what happened. Maybe they took you to the hospital. He was met at the border by the Alpha of the pack. I believe you know him his name is Jacob Black."

"I can't believe Jacob is a werewolf."

"He told Edward that a vampire had killed you, and that they had captured her. They were holding her prisoner until they decided what to do with her. Well long story short Edward found out where they were keeping her and killed her."

"So that is why Victoria wasn't there when I woke up. Why did Jake tell him I was dead though? Why did he leave me to endure this alone?"

"I don't know Bella…I am sure he is the only one who can answer that."

"After he killed Victoria…"Emmett interjected. "We all attended your funeral and saw to Charlie and Renee. It was a closed casket funeral we were told you were pretty messed up and that no one should see you. After your burial Edward lost it, he went to Italy and tried to have the Volutri kill him. We barely got there in time to stop him. Of course we dragged him back and he just curled up into a ball and it was kind of like he died but didn't. He wasn't there. He remained like that until we moved here and forced him to go back to school with us. Don't you see we all thought you were dead until that day when we saw you? Edward hadn't spoken a word in almost five years until that day."

"So you all thought I was dead. That Victoria had killed me not turned me."

"Yes" they answered almost in unison.

"Wow this is a lot to take in. I still can't believe Jacob didn't tell you." I was very angry with him for misleading my family. I couldn't believe that he had told them a lie and had let everyone believe I was dead. I could feel the tingling of the rage starting under my skin.

"Well Bella it is time for us to be getting back. You have a lot to think about now that you have all the information." Rosalie hugged me and stood up.

"Yeah we will see you at school Bells."

"Thanks you guys. I really needed to know this. It definitely puts everything into a different perspective." A knew perspective indeed. All of my misery for that last five years was the fault of one person. Someone who I thought was my friend.

They both walked out the door, leaving me alone with my thoughts. My thoughts of that traitorous dog…

Jacob Black.

RPOV:

After our long talk I could see something in Bella change. Any body else would have not notice it. It was just a slight twinge in her brow, and a subtle darkening of her eyes. I knew however that she was repressing some very intense emotions and I didn't need Jasper to tell me that either.

Once we got in the car, I looked at Emmett. He had an amused look on his face. "Well I think that went well don't you?"

"Yeah. What do you think she will do?" I asked.

"I really don't know, Rosie, but I do know one thing I think that dog is in for a beat down." He cracked his knuckles. "I just hope she lets me help."

I chuckled leave it to Emmett to always look for someway to get into a fight. Just as I was about to leave. I saw Bella's car stealthily pull out of her drive way.

"Where you think she is going, Em?"

"I don't know for sure, but I really hope it is where I think it is." Then he looked at me with a pleading look.

I winked at him and gave him a devious smile. "Don't worry Emmy Bear we are going to."

Well what do you know.....Rosalie may actually have a heart after all...lol.....review please it feeds my addiction.