Hey all, just wanted to thank everyone for the great reviews, they mean a lot! I went from calling Blaine's friend from Jimmy, to James to Jimmy in this chapter, opps! They are all the same person haha!
Chapter 10: Rachel Comes a Knocking
Rachel pounded on the door to Tom and Blaine's apartment for the 6th time, taping her foot impatiently but not giving up. She puts her ear up to the door to see if she can hear anything at the same moment Blaine decides to answer, opening the door and sending Rachel toppling into him. She steadies herself staring up at him, a determined look on her face.
"Thanks for answering Blaine Warbler", pushing past him leaning against the counter in his kitchen. Blaine turns around a bewildered look on his face.
"Tom isn't home" Blaine said, his voice deep and emotionless.
"I'm here to see you" Rachel says, noticing how terrible Blaine looks, Tom hadn't been kidding.
"Well I have a paper due in two days worth like everything and I really need to get on that", he frowned.
"Answer my questions, and I'll be out of your hair", Blaine raises his eyebrows.
"And what are these questions".
"What happened when you and Kurt went home for Thanksgiving", her voice sounding slightly annoyed.
"Yeah, I have a paper to write" Blaine tried to turn away from her, but she grabbed him by the arms and threw him on the couch.
"Look you have been avoiding me since you got back, Tom said you've been moping around. Kurt is extremely jumpy and won't say more than three words about going home".
"So I called Finn-", Blaine groaned.
"And he informed me that you two seemed pretty chummy when you got off the plane, and that you even came over for Thanksgiving dinner. He said everything was fine till you two went to Kurt's room, and then you left in a hurry before dessert, all pale and frantic". Blaine avoided eye contact with Rachel.
"So what the hell happened in Kurt's room", her eyes wide.
"Rachel I'm not in the mood to get into it", Blaine still refusing to look at her.
"Come on, it couldn't have been that bad, seriously you two are the biggest drama queens I have ever met". Blaine looked up at Rachel, and she could see the hurt in his eyes.
"Blaine, I was just kidding, are you ok"? Rachel starts getting slightly concerned. Blaine took a deep breath.
"As you know, I had no intentions of going home for Thanksgiving until Kurt spoke up", Blaine said slowly.
"Yeah, you have no clue how hard it was for me not to scream when you asked him", her eyes twinkling.
"Right, well the flight was fine, we were getting along great, Finn drove me home. Then I got home and realized my family wasn't actually home, they went off to visit my aunt or something. So I was really lonely on Thanksgiving and I called Kurt and he invited me over, hence Finn saying I was over for dinner" Blaine took a deep breath before continuing.
"Dinner was great, and then Carole told us to go upstairs and relax. So we did, and we were reminiscing and I was really starting to feel like I did back in the day, so I decided to tell Kurt the truth, on why I came back for the holiday". Rachel's breath hitched.
"And then he kissed me", Blaine's voice falters at that last line, Rachel shrieks.
"And then what", her voice very excited.
"And then I kissed him back", Rachel's grin growing bigger.
"And then he played it off as nostalgia, and laughed", Rachel's smile fades.
"Oh Blaine, I'm so sorry", she squeezes his hand that is currently resting on his knee.
"I just feel so stupid, I remember the Kurt I knew, a kiss was such a big deal to him, now, he could care less", Blaine sighs.
"That kiss meant more to him then you realize Blaine, he's been waiting for it since the day he kicked you out of his dorm", Blaine shook his head.
"I don't think so Rachel", his voice sad.
"Blaine, why did you go to London", she's looking at Blaine's whose face twitches from her question.
" I was ashamed", he answered simply.
"There has to be more then that", Rachel encouraged sweetly.
"When Kurt and you went home for the summer, I got really depressed. I couldn't believe what I did to Kurt, and I convinced myself that I was a horrible person, so I decided to act like one. I started drinking a lot, hooking up with randoms I met in bars, I was pushing all my friends away. And then school was starting in two weeks, and I was going to have to face you and Kurt, and see how happy you guys were, and I knew I couldn't do it. So I went as far away as I could think of", Blaine seems relieved after admitting it to Rachel.
"I can understand that. But Kurt was nowhere near happy, he hasn't been since. He came back hoping he would see you, and you guys could work it out, and when he found out you were gone, he was even more depressed. We both weren't the same Blaine. We sort of clinged to each other to remember the old days when we were happy. As dramatic as it sounds, you leaving drastically changed our lives", Rachel's voice cracked.
"And when I saw you again, and saw a glimpse of us all being happy again, I pushed you and Kurt together", Blaine laughed.
"No really", he smirks at Rachel who smacks him playfully.
"I'm not letting you go anywhere Mr. Anderson, but I've accepted that you and Kurt, maybe you aren't meant to be". Rachel smiled sadly, Blaine just nods his head.
"I told Jimmy I'd go out with him Friday".
Rachel wraps both her arms around Blaine's neck and pulls him in for a tight hug. Blaine smiles into Rachel's shoulder.
"He seems like a really nice guy", Rachel said. They stayed in an embrace for a while, and Blaine couldn't help but let a couple of tears fall, because deep down, he knew he didn't want to move on.