Centering G
That particular night, the night when my best friend died in front of me, I felt so useless. I can't believe I was fighting with him just before he died. And I regret it. It was horrible. I still remember the scene that happened that night.
I was walking towards my room after using the toilet and drank water at the kitchen. And then, I heard a crash near the place that I walked. It was my best friend's quarter. I felt worried and have a bad feeling about it, so I thought that I can check it out for a bit.
And then I saw him. He was coughing harshly and his hand was trying to reach the glass on the table. Quickly, I went towards him and rubbed his back to lessen the pain he was feeling that time. That action somehow remained useless as he started to cough out blood. I was shocked and I tried to call Knuckle, only to be stop by him.
He stopped me, and I tried to call Knuckle again, when he puked blood. It was horrible. His face scrunched up in pain and his blood stained his and my shirt. The warm blood seeped through my shirt and I can feel his life draining from him.
At the same time, little Tsuna came inside the room. He was shocked and I can see his eyes full of fear. I asked him to call Knuckle quickly. My best friend has stopped puking blood but instead he was coughing harshly. He looked very pale and he started to gasp for air as his lungs was short of oxygen. He then said his last will and I tried to make him hang on for a while before Knuckle arrived there. He closed his eyes and he was smiling. That smile would be the last smile I'll ever see from his face.
The time seems to stop for me. At that time, I felt so, regretful. Why didn't I realize that my own best friend has this kind of sickness? I was at his side the whole time and I was captivated by his smile, that I can't see anything else. Why? Somehow I blamed myself for his death.
After that, his funeral was held and he's gone from this world forever. Tsuna was staged to be the next boss, but he is still underage. The Vongola is controlled under Alaude and me for a while before Tsuna became the next boss. Even though the atmosphere has returned to normal, the sadness was still lingering in the air.
All of the guardians somehow changed a bit without the sky. I can see Ugetsu's painful smile time to time. Alaude and Daemon were always outside, doing missions and rarely in the mansion. Knuckle has rarely shouted and yelled Extreme all the time. Lampo also has rarely eaten sweets and all those things. As for me, I have to keep my composure if I want to lead Vongola for a while. Even if he's gone, that doesn't mean Vongola must be ruined. So, I keep my sadness to myself and continued this life.
Deep in my heart, I was hoping that all of these were just nightmares and I would wake up soon and see my best friend's smile once again. We would talk and joke and play together. I would be chasing him for not doing his works again and he would pout and say that he's tired of all this. And then, we would do family outing again.
I remembered the first time we met when we were child. He seems to be lost and I helped him even though that would not be my characteristic. That time, I was not like me now. I looked scary and anyone who approached me somehow be pissed off or scared and ran for their life. But his reaction was different.
He only smiled and thanked me for helping him. I was surprised. And then he says that I looked cool. He asked me to be his friend. I ignored him and left. At that time, I thought that he just wanted me as a bodyguard. I left him.
The next day, I was caught by some people that wanted my money. I pushed my way out, but I can't. They're big and strong. And then, he came. He helped me beat up all those guys. Instead of me having injuries, he's the one bleeding all over his body. He said that friends helped each other. After that I became his friends and followed him wherever he goes.
He introduced me to Tsuna and I introduced him to Hayato. They became friends and years later we made Vongola together. We met Ugetsu and his brother, Knuckle, Lampo, Alaude and Daemon. I said that we're going to have troubles with these members, and he just shrugged it off, saying that it will be interesting.
We met Talbot later and the Vongola rings were given to us. We also met the Arcobaleno and Mare rings owner too. They're different from the others but somehow we get along well. And then, Sun Arcobaleno joined the Vongola, saying that tormenting the boss of the strongest mafia family should be fun or something like that. He just smiled and welcomed him like other people too.
During the years after we made Vongola, somehow he made a few promises. I remembered he said something like protecting his family and friends with his dying will. He did say that he'd rather die than watching his family died in front of him. I respected him and promised that I'll be by his side forever to assist him.
If only I could turn back time, I would find the cure for him and will definitely save him from dying. The pain he felt before dying, I can see that it was so horrible but he just smiled in the end.
I remembered the place we went together. It was a river. The river was beautiful and we can see sparkles in the water. He said something like rumors that whoever put his wish inside a bottle and drift it in the water, the wish will be granted. I thought that it was ridiculous, but he just smiled and said that it's not a waste to try it.
And then, I tried it. I put my wish and drift it in the water. A wish which I hope if he can be reborn, because I wanted to see his smile again.