Hi! Here is chapter 10 I've been working on it for a few days but I had other things to do before writing this like for example boring school assignments! But here it is and I hope you enjoy it!

No I don't own orange...

Piper's POV:

Maybe I should tell her…she deserves to know. She deserves to fucking know and as much as it kills me I have to tell her. But after my talk with Nicky I feel more confident and it also made me realize that she deserves to know everything single thought that goes through my mind. No matter if it's good or bad, she should always know. Nicky told me she loves me more than I would ever know, I know she loves me but I've never realized how much until Nicky told me. I've made my mind up, I'm gonna tell her. Even if this ruins our relationship, I have to be honest. I can't keep this to myself since it's hurting me and even keeping this to myself might ruin our relationship so the only thing I can do is tell her.

Alex came up behind me and kissed me on my neck.

"Hi beautiful."

"Hi." I say back smiling.

"How's your day been so far?"

"Sad, haven't spent so much time with my special lady."

"Oh, you don't say." She smirks.

"Mmm."

"What's her name? Is it someone I know?"

"Yeah, her name is Nichols."

She hits me playfully and I turn around so I'm facing her and I look into her eyes.

"Nah, but you do know her."

"Oh, I do?"

"Yeah her name is Alex Vause and she's like the hottest woman I've ever known."

"You don't say…" She leans in and connects our lips in a passionate kiss. We break apart when we both realize we need air.

She looks into my eyes that smirk she always wears on her face when she is planning something special.

"Alex we need to talk." I look seriously into her eyes and I can feel the tears forming.

"No Piper no, please no." Alex tears started forming too.

"No, Alex it's not like that but it's still important for our relationship."

Alex still looks at me with worry in her eyes. I know this might break us apart, but it can also make our relationship better if we're honest. I can see that she looks down trying to keep her tears at bay which isn't the easiest and I know that myself as a tear fall down my cheek and then a tear fall down from hers.

"Alex please look at me." I say calmly giving her a weak smile, the best I could do at this time.

She looks up and tears were falling down. I took my thumb and brushed some of the tears away.

"Whatever happens here, now you should know that I'll always love you, I've always loved you even though I've hated you. You should also know that I'm here, and if you want to be apart I'll do that and if you want to leave I'll let you go but I'll always love you no matter what."

I took a deep breath before I continued.

"Okay, so you know when you walked in when I was with Nicky? You thought that she was hitting on me? Yeah anyways she wasn't, we were actually having a serious conversation on just this that I'm gonna tell you know. She made me realize that I am confident enough to tell you what I've been keeping inside for a while. She made me realize how much you actually love me and also how much I love you, and I really need to be honest with you Alex because that's what you deserve. And if you decided to leave I'll have to let you go even though it will be really hard for me because I do not know if I could handle you leaving me again. It killed me the first time and I don't know what it will make me do if it happens again. But here's the thing I really wanted to tell you. I am afraid that we're trying to deny that there is nothing wrong when it clearly is. We broke up, you left me and I called on you for leaving and now where here together, again. We had that talk, not that it wasn't good because it was but I still feel that we got some things that are unresolved that we need to deal with so this relationship can work. Right now I'm going insane trying to pretend that everything is okay when it isn't. You have all the right to be mad at me, I get it but I want to work on that. Work so you do not have to be mad at me anymore. I've realized what I did was stupid and selfish. I want to be honest with you Alex, and I want you to be honest with me. I want this to work and I want you!" Wow did I just say all that without taking a breath? I kept breathing to regain my calmness.

Alex looked at me still tears flowing down her cheeks and I couldn't really read her, what she was thinking, what was going on in her mind and what she was going to do next. She looked at me for another five seconds before she opened her mouth.

"OMG Piper, is that really what you feel? You should have told me! I was mad at you, but I realized that my love for you is stronger than my hate for you so I let that go. You should know that you can always tell me no matter what it is, and you should especially come to me if you're feeling something like this so we can talk it out. You know I'll never leave you, Nichols told you how much I love you and that it's more than you'll ever know. I want this to work too, and I want you for the rest of my life. I don't want anyone else than you Piper! You're the one I love and the one I want to spend the rest of my life with." Alex moved closer to me and gave me a kiss.

"And don't ever forget that." She continued before giving me a kiss again, this one more passionate than the first.

Alex's POV: (After her talk with Piper)

My talk with Piper was amazing, I'm happy she said she wanted to be honest with me, and I will definitely be honest with her.

I was brought out of my own little thoughts as I passed Nicky on my way to the restroom. I gave her a wink and she got exactly what it was I was "talking" about. She smiled and headed to her bunk.

God that girl might be crazy but damn she's amazing.