DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

A/N: When I first sat down to write this chapter, I had such a total writers block (it was yesterday night), and then tonight, I turn on my music, and BAM! I'm back lol! I actually like this chapter. Oh and by the way, I was supposed to update last night. I guess that I never actually posted the chapter to the story, so this morning I wake and I've gotten no response. So I go on fanfiction and realize I never actually update, lol.

Thank you to jojobear33, crazybeautifuldisaster, twilight-vamp-sis, sarahlouise80, BerryEbilBunny, and for reviewing last chapter!

Chapter Playlist: Paparazzi- Lady GaGa The Twist- Metric Push- Avril Lavigne Raw Sugar- Metric Faithfully- Glee Brick by Boring Brick- Paramore Where is My Head- Hey Monday Breathe Me- Sia For Me This Is Heaven- Jimmy Eat World Chop and Change- The Black Keys Slow Life- Grizzly Bear with Victoria Legend Hello Good- No Doubt But It's Better If You Do- Panic! At the Disco Hardwire- Metric Hallelujah- Paramore Welcome to the Black Parade- My Chemical Romance

My phones buzzes and I look at the screen. "Time's up." I say shakily.

Rosalie breathes in deeply. She walks over to my dresser where the test is laying on a towel. She whimpers a little bit and then, "Pregnant." She whispers.

Within minutes we are walking down the stairs, our elbows locked, the pee stick still in Rose's hands. Emmett turns and looks at us and immediately knows the answer to his question he left unspoken. He buries his head in his hands for a second and then runs up to us and wraps his arms around Rose. I stand there alone, watching as Rosalie cries silently and Emmett tells her everything will be okay.

"I feel like everything is falling apart." I mumble at my cheerios the next morning. I glance over at Rosalie and Emmett. Rose is clutching her cell phone while Emmett is watching Spongebob.

"Do you ever stop rotting your brain by sitting in front of the television all day?" I asked, annoyed.

He glared at me. "What do you mean?"

I stood up, bumping into the table. My glass of milk spills and I watch the white liquid running down the table onto the floor.

"I mean, that your girlfriend just found out she's pregnant. While she is sitting there freaking out, you're sitting on the couch watching a re-run of Spongebob. You've probably seen this episode a thousand times." Rosalie watched me with curiosity.

"I've seen it five times." Emmett remarked. I walked up the stairs without another word. Thank god Charlie left early to go fishing. The tension here is very noticeable.

By the time my body finally reaches my room, I grabbed winter boots even though it was almost June. I didn't have time to look for anything else. I slipped them on (no way was I putting socks on). I made sure I had my cell phone and then stormed down the stairs.

"Have fun wasting you life with him." I snarl when I'm standing near Rosalie. "He'll make a great fucking dad. You know he could teach it how to drop out of school. And how to knock up a girl still in high school. Oh," I laughed dryly, then looked at him. "You'll be fucking awesome. Have a nice life you two." I stomped out of the house. My truck still sat in the driveway. I didn't want to take it. I continued to walk through Forks with tears in my eyes.

I reached a small little park. It looked a little familiar so I walked in. Kids gliding through the air on swings. It looked inviting, so I walked towards them.

I sat down on the rubber seat and saw a little girl standing in front of me, after only a few minutes of me swinging. She had an ice cream in her hands, and she continued to stare at me as she licked it. I slowed to a stop and stared back at her. She huffed and ran away. I smiled and started swinging again.

"Hey lady!" A small voice came to my side. I was about 10 feet in the air and I looked down at a seven year old swinging a lot lower than me. "The swings are for kids."

"Who said I wasn't a kid?" I asked as I went backward.

He furrowed his eyebrows together. "But you're a big kid. It doesn't count."

I rolled my eyes. "I don't see a sign that says I can't swing." I jumped off when I was at about three feet and walked away. The kid was annoying.

I passed a see-saw and smiled. Now I remember this park. My mom and dad used to take me and Emmett here when we were younger and they were still together. I hated this park. It held one of my most painful memories (literally!)…. Well until recently at least….

"Mommy?" I questioned. She looked down and smiled at me. "Yes, hun?"

"This park looks boorrriiiinnnnngggggg!" I complained.

Emmett and Charlie were kicking a soccer ball around while my mom and I ate our cookies we made the night before. At the time I didn't realize that Charlie was letting him win. I guess that's where Em got his ego from.

"Do you want to walk around?" She asked.

I nodded while chewing a mouthful of cookie. She giggled and wiped the chocolate smeared on my lips. She put the cookies back in her bag and held my hand as we walked around.

I don't remember what we saw, but one thing stuck out to me. A see-saw.

The one I saw staring at right now in particular.

Anyways I asked my mom to stay right at the spot and save it for me. I ran as fast as my five year old body could run back towards Emmett.

"Emmy! Emmy! There's a sea-saw!" Charlie followed us back towards Renee.

They left us there to have our fun while they sat down in a pavilion not to far from there. Emmett and I stared at the contraption. He sat down first so I had to try to get on top.

"Emmy! Not fair!" I complained. Emmett just turned 7, and he was really tall. Whereas I was tiny. I tried to jump up, but fell. I broke the fall with my hands.

"Ow!" I yelled. My mom looked over at us.

"Okay Bells?" She asked. I nodded with a pout. She turned back to my father. I noticed they were starting to argue. This was about six months before they separated for the first time. Through out their marriage, they were "separated" multiple times before finally ending ties with each other with their divorce four years ago.

Emmett begged me to get back on and I did. Except this time he let me go on first so I didn't have to jump up.

"Thank you." I said as I glared at him.

I sat down and then he hopped on. I clutched onto the bar as I rushed up into the air. We went on for 10 minutes. One up in the air, the other on the ground. I glanced over at my parents. My mom was sitting there with tears streaming down her face. Emmett followed my gaze.

"They're fighting." He stated. All of a sudden he got off, while I was in the air. I landed in the mulch and my hands didn't break my fall this time. I remember the scream that tangled out of my mouth as I looked down at the piece of mulch stick out of the side of my chin. I also had little splinters on my knees.

I shook with my sobs as my parents ran over. Charlie lifted me up in his arms and then bolted for the car. Renee sat in the back, holding my hand, as I cried.

Now looking back on it, I remember Carlisle working on my stitches. I smiled. I wondered if he remembered.

All of a sudden I looked up at the pavilion that sat acroos from the see-saw. I walked over to it and sat down. It's changed a little bit. Now a small tree grows through the middle of it, and stops at the ceiling. I sat down and felt a tear roll down my cheek.

I never told Jacob that story.

I buried my face in my hands.

"Jacob." I murmured. I curled up into a ball and laid on the table. I was breaking down in public, but I didn't care. Then I felt someone lightly touch my calf. I sat upright and turned to see who sat on the other side of the tree.

A/N: So now you could say Bella's kind of lost. She needs to find herself again... So who do you think is on the other side of the tree?

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