Starfire's POV

(I decided to switch things up a little. I think that people would enjoy seeing her perspective on things that are going on right now, and maybe it'd give everyone some insight on why she's so calm and set on being nice to Raven, regardless of the situation or what she knows about Raven's PTSD.)

Raven looks simply stunning with the moonlight shining on her. Her skin looks so smooth, and has this radiance that I can easily describe as magnificent. Her hair is the most beautiful shade of purple, and it brings out her eyes in the most astonishing way. She's so shapely and petite, also, and it makes me want to just scoop her up and hold her forever. I hope she knows how beautiful she is.

Sometimes I think she feels like she's not worth my time, and she doesn't deserve to feel like that. Komand'r took all of my self-worth away from me. I can't let Raven feel the same.

She sits on her hotel bed, reading a book with her legs crossed, and I sit next to her, idly swinging my legs off of the edge to pass time. I do not want to bother her with my questions any longer. Although, I do love to hear her voice. She sounds so calm, and it makes me calm.

"Starfire?" She breaks me out of my daydream, still looking down at the pages in her lap.

"Yes, Girlfriend Raven?" She seems upset. Oh, no. She cannot be upset. I will not allow that. I have to stay calm for her.

"Um.." She clears her throat nervously. "Do you really love me, Star?" I know without a doubt that I do, with all of my heart. I love her more than I've ever loved anybody. But still, why would she feel the need to ask these things? Do I not make her feel loved?

"Of course I do, Raven! Why?" She folds her book, but still stares at her lap, deep in contemplation.

"I just… I don't know. I'm not used to being in such a relationship. I just don't… Nevermind." She is clearly upset. What happened? Is there not something I can do to help?

"No, it is fine. Keep going." I set my hand on her shoulder. Maybe this will help her understand that I am listening.

"Well, I haven't exactly always been treated nicely by people. I just… I didn't know if you wanted to… to use me." She is trying to tell me something. As much as I would like to hear, my main priority is making sure that she is not sad. I need to distract her somehow.

"I don't know how everyone does not love you." I squeeze her shoulder, and she finally turns her head to look me in the eyes.

"...Why?" Her voice is contaminated with a childlike softness; fear. Her words sound choked.

"Because you are just… You have always helped me. I was confused with myself, and you promised to be with me every step of the way. You were. Now, I could not be happier. And, you've always been a great friend, even before all of this mess. Even if you were a bit sarcastic."

She chuckles softly. "You were the one person that I could always rely on for everything. If I needed someone to trust during a difficult time, you would always be the first person I'd go to. You still are, and hopefully always will be."

Raven simply turns around, sitting with her legs crossed in front of me, and grabs my cheeks, looking me straight in the eyes.

"I will always be there."

She leans in, catching my lips, and kisses me gently. She breaks away, looking me in the eyes again; those eyes that I love. "Always."

"...Always." A single tear rolls down her cheek.

Why is it that we're always so emotional? I wish that she would tell me the root cause of her upset so that I could help. I fear that I can't. But regardless, wouldn't it make her feel better to know that her girlfriend is aware of her past and can help her in times when she's reminded? I really hope that I don't upset her.

Right. I will not. She will tell me when the time comes.

I do not want to trouble her with my problems, either, although I do wish that I could tell her about what my captors did to me. They really did toy with you. Emotionally, physically, sexually... But I will not let Raven feel uncomfortable around me. I just want her to be happy, as I was not. Happy, happy, happy. I love happy Raven.

Even Blackfire was abusive. She wants me dead, I'm sure. I have no family left to rely on, so I will make Raven my family. I will love her more than anyone else ever loved me. She is precious. She should never have to feel worthless again.

She clutches my shoulders weakly, her head resting on me. I love it how she holds onto me like this. I feel like a protective mother. She plays with a lock of my hair in one of her hands, and I blush, but she can't see. I wonder if she ever notices how flustered I get when I'm around her.

Is it time?

Yes.

I take the barrette out of my pocket, opening the thing between my finger of my free hand, and I slip it in her hair. She turns around, looking at the large mirror in front of our beds, inspecting it.

"This is f-for me?" I smile broadly.

"It's a Raven."

"With an amethyst stone!" She actually smiles.

"Yes!"

She throws herself at me again, hugging me tighter than she ever has before. She starts sniffing. What did I do wrong? Why is she upset? Did I offend her? Is this another one of her visions?

"Girlfriend Raven, are you okay?" She presses a chaste kiss to my neck.

"...Thank you."

I love her, but I will never understand her emotions.

~AUTHOR'S NOTE~

Short, obviously, but still sweet. More chapters to come. ^_^