Title: Could make me love you less

Disclaimer: sniff Still saving up…I promise I'll let you know when I buy Eric and the crew and you can came and party with me.

Dedication: For everyone who's stuck by me until chapter 10 (even with the drastically long wait you've had).

Fic of the Post: So Much For Vacation by Lizzy Sidle Fic ID: 2418326

A/N: Well here it is….Chapter 10! Woooo. We are now officially half way though the main storyline. 11 chapters to go with the Epilogue and my prediction date for the end of this fic is Christmas Day. Anywayz…Ill let you get on to the fic now :)

Sara wasn't surprised to find Greg at the door the next night, just after Nick had left. She knew he'd turn up eventually. Everything she knew had changed forever and the hope she had clinged to that things might stay the same with Greg died at the look in his eyes.

"You had better come in," Sara sighed as she pulled open the door to let Greg though. "I'm making coffee, it's not up to your blue Hawaiian, but it is drinkable if you want one." Sara knew Greg well enough to know that he would be hurt by her off hand tone, but it was the only tone that didn't betray her own raw emotions.

"Sure," Greg said softly as he followed her further into the house, eventually ending in the kitchen. Nick's kitchen was just like him, clean, tidy and organised. Pale cream walls but the room darkened with deep oak cabinets. Greg continued to scan the room, or at least pretend to, as he watched Sara make the coffee. She looked amazing to him, as she always had done, but pregnant she had never looked better in his eyes. If only she would believe him if he told her. "Thanks," Greg said taking the cup from Sara's hands trying not to brush against them.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the baby." Sara rushed wanting the conversation t be over as soon as possible. Greg didn't say anything. Sara rambled on not knowing what to say to him. "I wanted to tell you when I found out but I wants sure if I was going to keep it, and didn't know what you'd say about that, or about me being pregnant in the first place, then everything else just sorta happened, I know I should have told you and…and I'm sorry." Sara looked at Greg, her eyes pleading with him to say something.

"Are you keeping the baby?" Greg asked, surprised that Sara would have considered not keeping it, then realising how stupid he was for thinking that, of course she would have considered it. Sara smiled at him, her hand unconsciously drifting to her abdomen.

"As long as she doesn't have me craving for hot dogs and burgers, I guess being a mom would be kinda cool." Sara's smile fell slightly as she continued to talk. "This isn't how I'd thought it would happen, me being pregnant, and it's not the way I'd want to bring up a child. No kid should be without a father." Greg knew Sara was thinking about her own childhood and how her child's' was likely to be.

"She'll have me," Greg said solemnly, "and Nicky, Warrick, and if she's really unlucky, Grissom looking out for her. I take it you think you'll have a girl."

"Yeah," Sara said smiling at the mental image Greg had created, of the male CSI's and a baby. As she smiled at him, Greg crossed the kitchen so that he stood in front of her.

"You don't have to stay here, you should be back home with me." Greg reached for her hand entwining their fingers. "I can look after you." Greg breathed softly, praying his actions spoke loud enough that he wouldn't have to say the words. So he wouldn't have to tell her how much he missed her sleeping beside him, watching films with her and just having the woman he loved around to talk to, even though he knew she'd never feel the same way.

"It'll be better if I stay here. I can't stay at your place forever." Sara said. 'I can't risk falling for you even more and then having to leave,' she thought silently to herself the real reason for not wanting to return to Greg's, the one place she really wanted to be.

"You could stay forever if you wanted to." Greg decided to give up with the hints and go for telling her straight.

"Greg…" Sara started but was cut off by the younger CSI.

"Don't you realise how amazing you are? How smart, how beautiful and how strong, I think you are? I want to be with you. I've always wanted to be with you Sar." Sara looked at Greg surprise by what he'd confessed. "I know the timing right now sucks, but I needed you to know. I want to be with you, whatever that means right now. Just as friends or…I just…" Greg sighed turning his face away from Sara, then looked back, everything he wanted to say was clear in his face. At last he broke the silence whispering, "Please don't leave me."

Sara could feel the tears trying to flow but refused to let them. Greg had been the one who had stood by her though everything, she didn't want to lose him and she was absolutely terrified now she knew he felt the same way she did about him.

"Greg, I can'. I…" Greg's face blanked as she pushed him away with her words.

"Fine."

Sara hadn't even finished calling his name before Greg was out of the house. The door had only just slammed shut as Sara dissolved into tears.

"Sara?" Nick called as she walked into the house. Finding the younger woman sobbing on the kitchen floor Nick rushed forward to hug her. "Oh Sara, what happened?" Nick could tell by the state Sara was in it had something to do with Greg Sanders.

"I told him I couldn't be with him Nick," Sara stopped speaking as more tears took over.

"You really like him don't you?" Nick said with a smile, half surprised that Las Vegas' most workaholic peoplephoibic CSI was falling for a quirk ex-lab rat.

Sara nodded finally, then showed the extent of her feelings by saying, "I can't like him. If I like him, he can hurt me. I don't want him to hurt me Nick, and now with a baby involved, he wouldn't just be hurting me." Nick rolled his eyes at the typical Sara Sidle logic as he hugged his friend again.

"Do you really think Greg would do that to you Sara? He worships the ground you walk on. He'd do anything for you. He'd do anything for your baby. Greg's so excited about it." Nick laughed thinking back to the fuss in the break room after Grisson had told the lab. "He's said he's gonna be an unofficial uncle and if the baby's a girl, he'll be sizing up the boys at kindergarden to make sure they wont break her heart." Sara managed to laugh though her tears.

"No matter if it's boy or a girl anything that can be mixed to go bang is so outta the house." Sara smiled wiping her eyes, then she though back to what she had just said. Sara realised that she had always placed Greg there with her.

"I need to talk to him," Nick smiled knowing Sara hadn't even realised she had spoken out loud. He knew he was right when Sara asked why he was smiling.

"Because I know things are going to be alright with you two." Nick replied before asking, "Do you know where he is?" Sara started to shrug, stopped, then smiled.

"I'll be back later…Maybe." Sara called as she grabbed her keys and rushing though the rain to her car.

Twenty long minutes later she pulled up next to Greg's car. Even though it was relatively early, the park was empty due to the rain that had started to fall only minutes before. Sara stood for a while just watching Greg who was sitting on one of the two swings. She knew telling Greg the truth was going to be hard but now she was here she didn't know what to say to him. Sara made her way over to talk to him.

"Hey," Sara said not knowing where to start. Greg wouldn't even look at her. Sara sat on the swing next to him, then decided that an apology would be the best way to start. "I'm sorry," Sara said softly, hoping it would ease things slightly.

"You said what you feel. You shouldn't be sorry for that." Greg's voice was quite and emotionless as he spoke. It broke Sara's heart for him to act like that with her, Sara reached over and took hold of his hands.

"No, I didn't. I said I couldn't do…this. I never said how I feel about you." Sara knew Greg wasn't trying to make this difficult for her, she was doing it herself playing word games instead of just telling him straight put. Greg shook off her grip.

"You need to go home. You'll get ill out here in all this rain." Greg said still not looking at Sara.

"If I'm with you I am home." Sara blushed as she realised she'd said what she had been thinking out loud, a trait she'd lately picked up from Greg. Greg looked at her, his eyes showing his disbelief, and his hope that she might be telling the truth. Taking a steadying breath and praying that she'd stopped blushing Sara continued. "If I love someone, I can get hurt. After everything that has happened, I don't think I could deal with that, but if I lost you now, if I ever lost you, I know I couldn't deal with that. I think about the baby all the time, what its first birthday will be like, holidays, school, and every time I look into our future I see you there with us. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I need you. I want you and. From the night you told me to move in with you, I've fallen for you more each day. I love you, and I'm so scared that something could go wrong and I'd lose you." Sara finished at a whisper. Greg moved from the swing he was sat on and gripped Sara's hand tighter forcing her to follow him.

"We'll get your car tomorrow." Greg said opening the passenger door f his car and pushing Sara in. "I'm not letting you out of my sight form now on." Greg smiled at Sara as he closed the door and made his way around to the driver's side.

"Where are we going?" Sara asked Greg before he started up the car. Greg turned to her and with another smile as he pushed several wet strands of hair from Sara's face.

"Home." Greg said before capturing Sara's lips with his.

Now all tgether...Awwwwww...Well there you have it. Pt10 done and dusted. The timeline changes after this chapter and its going to be set six months after this chapter. Next part will hopefully be up next Sunday.

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