Chapter ten

I found myself in a grey field surrounded by an eerie grey mist which stretched as far as my eyes could see. How did I even get to this cold bizarre place? All I could see was grey, there was no green grass, no bright no sky with a brilliantly bright sun, there was just grey. There weren't even any large pearly gates. I had no idea where I was but I'm pretty sure it wasn't hell.

"Hello?" I called out, my voice echoed through the mist, it lingered in the mist longer that it should have making me hate this place even more than I already did. There was nothing here, just grey mist. Where was I?

"Sammy?" Someone whispered behind me as if shocked that I was here, but the voice was familiar, I knew it very well but I could not place it. I slowly turned around to face the person who had just spoken only to be stopped in my tracks. It was my father, just standing there as formal and military as he use to be.

"Dad?" I asked a lump building in my throat, tears threatened to spill out of my eyes but thankfully I was very stubborn. "What am I doing here? I can't be dead, Orlen would not allow it." I told him certainty filled my voice clouded by hope that I was right.

"No Sammy, you're not dead Orlen is bringing you back as we speak, I just needed to talk to you." He replied, his voice slightly breaking.

"About?" I asked worried, it must be serious if I have to die for him to tell me.

"You have to trust your team Sam, they know what they're doing and they know you. You may not agree with a lot of things they say or do but they know better and you have to listen and don't get mad with Jack, he may be a pain in the arse sometimes but he's a good man and he cares about you." He told me his words filled with respect for Jack, in some ways Jack was like a son to my Dad, Jack always went to him when there was a problem, he even called him Dad half of the time!

"I do trust them Dad, but why would I get mad with Jack?" I asked, I knew he could get on everyone nerves sometimes but I could never get really mad at him.

"He's not going to respond very well with what happened after you two kissed." He replied a small smirk starting to spread across his face.

"You saw that?" I asked slightly embarrassed that my father saw me kissing someone.

"I see everything Sammy" The grin now spread from ear to ear as he knew that I hated him knowing everything. The smile slowly faded and a sad look came on his face "I just want you to be happy Sam"

"I am happy dad, okay I haven't been happy for the last year but before that I was happy." I joked, but I knew what he meant, he had said it many times before, he wanted me to find a man, get married, have a family and be happy, and he wanted me to do that with Jack.

"You know what I'm talking about Sam, now you have to go back and remember trust your team! I love you sweetie." Before I could reply any response he was gone. Faded away into the mist, the mist also started to fade away, it started to turn into black again, the numbness returned and I started to hear my team's voices.

"I think she's starting to wake up" I could hear Daniel saying, the hope in his voice rising as I was becoming more conscious.

"Her pulse is getting stronger." Janet's voice was closer than Daniels and I could feel her soft, warm fingers pressed to my wrist feeling my pulse and it got faster and stronger as I started to wake up.

"Welcome to the land of the living" Satec whispered in my head as the numbness started to leave my body.

"I miss much?" I whispered back? A whisper was all I could manage at this moment, the numbness was almost completely gone but I still felt very weak.

"Not much, the usual moaning" Satec joked.

"Sam?" Janet called, hoping I would wake up to my name being called, I tried to open my eyes, but the light was too bright I tried to move instead. My body felt heavy and weak but I managed to sit up far enough that the light wasn't directly in my eyes. As I slowly opened my eyes I could see everyone standing around me, worried expressions on their faces. What were they so worried about? I wasn't going to kill them all.

"I think I need a new outfit" I replied seeing my once white revealing dress now red, holey and a bit sticky. To that response everyone laughed, mostly out of relief that I was actually awake and talking. I stood up wobbling on my feet, both Janet and Orlen grabbed my arms to steady me but I shook them off feeling embarrassed needing the help.

"I'm going to go shower" I said walking away in a daze towards the shower room, I could hear foot steps behind me and I could only guess that they were Jacks.

"Carter?" Jack called as we got to the shower room, whatever he wanted to talk about he didn't want anyone else to hear us.

"What?" I snapped, I knew what he was going to say, he wanted us to forget about what happened outside before I collapsed. Jack was slightly taken aback by my tone but carried on none the less.

"About what happened outside?" He looked at the ground while talking as though he felt embarrassed by what happened. This only fuelled my anger as it felt as though he was embarrassed about kissing me. "I think it would be best that no one else knew about it." He whispered the last part, he knew how this looked and he felt guilty about having to say it, but like my dad said I had to be kind to him and not be mad at him, it wasn't his fault it was a moment of weakness and he didn't really mean for it to happen.

"Its fine its forgotten" I replied as quick as he got quiet, his eyes met mine with a small amount of sadness in them as though he wished we didn't have to forget it but I must have been mistaken, he didn't feel that way about me otherwise he wouldn't have said it. "It was a mistake I understand, you didn't mean any of it." I added

"What do you mean I didn't mean any of it?" he asked, he looked hurt that I would say such a thing but wasn't it true?

"I mean, it was a spur of the moment, you didn't actually want to kiss me there was nothing behind it." I told him as I was trying to get the water to run hot which was an impossible task here.

"I take it you still don't remember anything" he replied confusion still etched in his face. "I wouldn't have, kissed you if there wasn't anything behind it Carter, it's just not exactly allowed in our situation." Now confused was etched in my face, what situation?

"Our situation?" I asked.

"The fact that I'm your superior officer?" He answered hoping that it would spark some memory, but it didn't it just annoyed me a bit more.

"I think you should start getting ready, as soon as I'm done we're leaving" I replied

"Carter..." Before he could finish whatever he wanted to say I interrupted him.

"Jack! I need a shower." I answered him back, I was fed up and needed a break from all of this, I just wanted to go home. To that reply he just left and slammed the door behind him.

It didn't take me long before I was showered and dressed and ready to go, I grabbed my bow and knife and headed out too meet the team. They were all ready and waiting, weapons loaded and ready to fire when needed. We were all ready to go home and make sure no one got in our way.

"Let's go" I ordered and they were more than happy to follow, they wanted to leave this planet as soon as they could and I didn't blame them.

And so we headed off.