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A/n: this is 'Save Me' by Remy Zero

Chapter 10: Save Me

Jack

Everyone knows. Everyone knows I'm unreal. I can tell by the way they look at me. What's so good about Spot? I'm not Racetrack, I can't tear myself away from his wonder. Young boys are obsessed with heroic icons. Spot is that for me, except I'm not young, I'm not growing.

I'm going to be old and still not know how to fly because I've catapulted into pathetic obsession. That's what it is, utterly pathetic.

I feel my wings have broken in your hands

I feel the words unspoken inside,

What can I do to get you to see me? Spot, come rescue me from uncertainty and unknowing. I'll give you all of me, you can have the bunk by the window, you can have whatever you please. Please.

And they'll pull you under

And I will give you anything you want, ohhh

You were all I wanted

All my dreams are fallin' down.

There's something sad about the way the new kid looks at me. Like I don't know what I'm doing. I try to make good with him, he knew Spot. He was Spot's right hand man. I want to be that man. What will it take? I grasping to hold on as long as I can, but Spot is mocking me from where he watches. I'm not worth this.

Crawling around, round, round

What can I do to change this? Life won't continue after this. It will cease. It will shrivel up and remind me of the days of my obsession. Of my addiction.

I don't have or even know love. All I know is my own life and all I have is the urge to quit and run. Run from my boys.

Somebody save me

Let your warm hands break right through me

Somebody save me

I don't care how you do it,

Spot calls to me in my dreams. He wouldn't run away, would he? He'd stick it out. Maybe he'll come here, maybe he'll make everything better. I'll hold on. And he nods and embraces me, but only not in reality.

"Just stay Jack," he says, smiling softly and gazing at me with loving. Yes sir, for you I'd do anything. And I curl up and hope he never leaves my mind. Cursed is the day I forget Spot Conlon.

Just stay, stay,

C'mon, I've been waiting for you.

Boots

Jack, you've changed me. You've pulled me into the mystery that is you and I don't know how to surface again, I don't know how to return to the real world. You are alluring and repulsing. When I'm away I want to be close to you, but when you linger I pray that you leave me alone with my misery. I wish I never left Brooklyn and that I never came to Manhattan.

I see the world has folded in your heart

I feel the waves crash down inside

And you've pulled me under

Spot, please, take me back. I'll give you whatever you want. I just want you by my side, watching me and being there for me. I'd be there for you. I always was, until I left.

Spot didn't have any, but he made my dreams seem more real, more vivid. Jack's dreams are killing mine, making me forget all about who I am.

And I will give you anything you want, ohhh

You were all I wanted

All my dreams have fallin' down.

I'm scrambling for a reason for you to accept me, Spot. I don't care what it is, I just wish I never let you go.

Crawlin' around, round, round

I want to feel your hand on my shoulder. I want to shake your hand, become bonded with you for a second of delight. For a while I will think about this, but when I come to I'm assured that you've forgotten all about me. You have better things to do.

Goodbye sweet future.

Somebody save me

Let your warm hands break right through me

Somebody save me

I don't care how you do it,

Spot

Come back! The bastard. You bastard. Boots. Why would you leave me here like this? You know what it's like for me to be alone, helpless and fooling the world. I can fool them, but I haven't figured out how to fool myself. I don't know how to make things better again.

Just stay, stay,

C'mon, I've been waiting for you.

As soon as you left the clever display of my ambitions was shattered. Something about you made these things possible and without you I can't glue everything back together. I'm scrambling to pick them back up, but they've become clear and invisible. They're drifting away like wisps of smoke, twirling to the ceiling and disappearing. I may never see or remember them again.

All my dreams are on the ground

Crawlin' round, round, round

Tear me apart Boots! You're the reason for my dreams being alive again and you're the reason for them leaving again. Like a sad, twisted story. My life. Rip away at my chest, please, ruin me physically, I want to look on the outside how I feel on the inside. Full of hatred and longing. Longing for life that you tore away.

What does it matter what you do to me now I doubt I will notice. Or, if you came back you wouldn't have to. We could just ignore my pain and live like before, when everything was alright and everything had a reason. A good reason.

Somebody save me

Let your warm hands break right through me

Somebody save me

I don't care how you do it,

Just stay with me,

I'm the one who introduced you to this. I gave birth to the life you know. Without me…without me you'd be…better off. I'm ruining you and myself. Without you I'd be sinking into the darkest and deepest hole of depression anywhere. Without you I'd be gone.

You don't need me. It's the opposite.

I made this whole world shine for you

Just stay, stay,

C'mon, I'm still waitin' for you.

And still you're not back. What's the point in waiting for something you'll never have? That's right, there isn't one.

End

There you have it faithful readers! I know it leaves you hanging, but it kinda leaves you wanting more. Lets' say…the next morning David turns up at the distribution post and the strike is underway. Spot and Boots put on happy faces when they see each other later, but what do they feel under? My God, I have to watch the movie. I'm going insane!

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