Somewhere I Belong Chapter 10, a buffy: the vampire slayer fanfic

Chapter Nine

I am still alive!!!! I plan on finishing this story and I will. Here's chapter nine, I know it's shorter than the others but I will update sometime this week. I hope you enjoy and continue to read and review.

"I can't tell you how sorry I am." Buffy said to the woman in front of her. The woman shook her head and pulled Buffy into a loving embrace.

"None of this is your fault, you have just as much to deal with as I do. I don't blame you." Buffy cried on her shoulder as the words she needed to here the most escaped her lips. She pulled back and looked into the woman's blue eyes, they reminded her so much of Spike.

"William will wake up; you have to have faith in that." Buffy nodded and Anne took her hands in hers. "I'll give you some time alone with him, ok?" She let go and walked away without hearing Buffy's response.

Buffy walked slowly into the room and stared at the boy she had known as long as she could remember. They grew up together, they got in trouble together, and they were always there when the other needed them.

"Spike…," she said softly as she kneeled by his bed side. She took his hand in hers and tried to avoid the IV that was sticking out of it. "I know your mother said it wasn't my fault and I know that if you could speak right know you would say the same thing." Tears ran down her cheeks and fell to there joined hands. "This is all my fault and I will do every thing in my power to make sure you wake up, you mean the world to me and I just want you to know that I lo-"

"Buffy!"

She turned around, Spike's hand still in hers, and saw a tired looking Angel standing in the threshold of the door. She gave him a questioning look and he tried to catch his breath before he spoke.

"Your mother is awake and she's asking for you, Dawn is already with her but the doctors say she doesn't have long to live."

"Mommy!" Abby yelled as she jumped out of Willow's lap and ran to her mother as she came thought the hospital doors. Faith ran over to her daughter and she jumped into her mothers awaiting arms.

"Hi baby, are you ok?" Abby nodded but pointed in Cordy's direction. "That lady was mean to me and she called me a brat." Faith glared at her and Cordelia just looked away. Before Faith could give Cordy an ear full Chris walked in.

"Hi daddy." Abby reached out for him and Faith handed her over to her father.

"So where's Buffy?" They all looked at her like she had grown two heads and Faith took a step back so she was next to Chris.

"It looks like Buffy's doesn't talk about her life in L.A that much." Fait h nodded n agreement.

Dawn walked out of her mother's hospital room and she threw herself into her sister's arms as soon as her eyes caught sight of her. Buffy hugged her back and pulled apart as she heard her mothers soft voice call for her.

"Go." Dawn said simply. Angel, Conner and Dawn watched her go in and close the door behind her, shutting them off from what was to come.

"Mom?" Joyce smiled slightly and Buffy thought it looked odd on her face. It wasn't forced or fake like the ones she'd seen before, it was real and she hadn't seen one like that since she was a child.

"Buffy, I'm dieing and there is nothing anyone can to make it better. You are going to have to take car of Dawn and be the mother you always were to her. She's gonna look up to you even more than she does now so you will have to make the right choices so she can learn from you even more."

Buffy shook her head and remained halfway across the room. "Mom, don't talk like this. You're gonna get thought this, I know we've had some hard times and we didn't always get along but I always loved you. You're my mother, how can I not?"

Joyce looked touched at her daughter's words and she really wanted to believe that they were true. The truth was that even if she made it she would probably spend most of the rest of her life in jail, she was driving under the influence and she endangered her daughter and someone else's child in the process.

"You and Dawn will be well taken car of, you have plenty of money and you will have full access of it once you're eighteen." She coughed harshly and Buffy ran over to her.

"Are you ok?" Joyce nodded even though she was still coughing and Buffy put her hand on her mothers head. She took it away quickly as her cool skin met her mothers burning head.

"You're burning up." Joyce knocked away her hand and Buffy looked at her shocked.

"It's ok, I'm ready for this." Buffy felt pain as those words let her mother's mouth but she could bring herself to cry. She took a step back and looked around the room in confusion. Her mother was dieing, Spike was in a comma, and he could suffer the same faith as her. She was feeling so much she felt like she would explode. And she did.

"How can you tell me something like that!!? How can you just lay there and not want to fight to live, if you try you can, I know you can. You're the strongest person I know and I know you don't give up, how can you give up now when it counts more than ever?"

"Dawn come back and talk to me." Dawn walked down the hall in her newly changed cloths and said nothing as Connor called after her to stop.

"You need to sit down and rest. If you keep walking around like this then your wounds will open up again."

That brought her to a stop and she looked down at her bare legs and her one bare arm. They were covered in cuts, some were big and others were small, the doctors said that they weren't deep enough to leave any scars but that she should take it easy so they would bleed. She had on a tank top and short so they could breathe and she was freezing as a result.

Connor put a hand on her shoulder and she flinched at his touch. Connor remover his hand, a little hurt by the gustier, and took a step back. Dawn turned around and he gave her a week smile.

"I'll give you some time to sort out your problems on your own, I just thought you would want me there to help you through this but I guess I was wrong. I'll be in the waiting room with the others if you need me."

"Connor, wait."

Connor was already half way down the hall and Dawn knew he couldn't hear her. Even if he could she didn't think he would turn around.

She sank to the floor and put her back up against the nearest wall. Her legs were no the cold floor as she buried her face in her hands and cried her eyes out. "How come this had to happen?"

"Who is this?" Angel asked as his eyes locked with Chris's.

"That is Abby's father, Buffy friend, and Faith husband." Anya said. Angel look at her even more confused than when he asked her the question.

"That's Chris." Oz said simply. Angel stalked over to the older man and punched him in the face. Gasps and yells were heard from various people but Angel paid no mind to them. He took a couple of stepped closer to the fallen mans body and Chris glared up at him

"You caused all of this. If you hadn't of take Buffy away then none of this would have happened." Chris jumped to his feet, hell in his eyes and a dangerous glare set on his face.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Chris yelled.

"You know damn well what I'm talking about. I'm talking about you waltzing into Buffy's life and making her think you have all the answers then whisking her off to L.A You took her away from her friends and family and we could have helped her" Angel was about to take another swing at Chris but a tap on his shoulder stopped him.

He tuned around a cam face to face with a pissed off Fait. She slapped him, hard, across the face and the sound echoed off the walls.

"How dare you hit him, you don't even know what happened and your making accusations."

She raised her hand to slap him again but Angel caught her hand before it made contact with his already throbbing cheek.

"Angel!" Cordy yelled as she found her voice. She had never seen him that angry before and she didn't a lot of crazy stuff that could make him that way.

Angel let go of Faith's hand and walked out the door. Cordy ran after him and the other people that were in the waiting room were left in shocked.

"Well this sure has been a crazy day." Xander said. Willow and Any nodded in agreement and Oz just gave them a knowing smile.

"Angel what the hell is wrong with you." Cordy throws herself into his arms and Angel rubs her back for comfort. She looks up at him and he gives her a small smile.

"I don't quite know the answer to that yet." He chuckles and Cordy hits his chest lightly.

"How the fuck could you do that? Buffy and he are friends, and that little girl is his daughter. On top of all that you u don't even know him!!! What the hell were you thinking?"

To say Angle was shocked would be the understatement of the year. He had never head Cordelia talk like this before and it made him fell really bad about what he did. He gently grabbed her hand and she jerked way and placed it on his cheek.

He filched and Cordy quickly pulled her hand away. "Does it sting?' He nodded. "Good."

Ok, I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in a while but I have to get stuff together around here before I go back to school. I'll try to put up another chapter sometime this week and feel free to review and yell at me. There will probably be either one or two more chapters for this story and then it will be finished!!!

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