Hey guys, update again..:) Thanks for still reading this story.., neweiz, there will be a lot of angst in this chapter so that I could get on with the good stuff..LOL
Maybe I'll just have one or two chapters for this story..:D
"Best friends understand when you say forget it.
Wait forever when you say just a minute.
Stay when you say leave me alone."
- Anonymous
QUINN's POV
Reading Santana's email made my heart smile. She wants to be my friend again, even though that's not what I only wanted us to be, but it's a good start. We could be friends then everything will be back the way it was before.
"Tell me I'm not gonna meet your new lover today too." My confused eye meets the statue of a beautiful blonde walking towards my office with a very huge grin on her face.
Upon hearing Liz's voice, I close my laptop too quickly to jump off my chair to give her a welcome hug.
"What do you mean?" I finally asked her once we pulled off from each other's embrace.
She rolled her eyes at me while grinning. "Oh, no. Don't give me that shit. I saw your huge smile a while ago." Liz said while her finger points at my laptop.
"Oh, that. It was nothing." I said a little embarrassed and try to avoid eye contact while I sit on the reclining chair across her.
I haven't told Liz about Santana and my other friends because just talking about her before was too much for me to handle.
"Whatever. You know I'm cool with that right? My brother is surprisingly happy and I want you to be happy as well." She smiles at me encouragingly; her face says she's hoping it will make me open up to her. "So, who's the lucky guy?" she said teasing me.
I shook my head but can't stop the smile starting to crawl on my lips. My smile grew bigger when I heard her squeal. "Look! There's that smile again!" she exclaimed like a five year old on a Christmas Eve waiting to open her presents.
"Stop it." I could feel my face turning red which made her laughs. I ignored her and pretend to focus on my laptop.
"Fine. If you won't tell me who he is, I'll find out about it." she said pouting.
And now it was my turn to laugh at her silliness. Liz doesn't know I am gay, all she knew was my marriage with Charlie was just because of Nathan. As time passed by we got used to it and didn't bother to correct her assumption.
"So if you're not dating then I could set you up on a blind date?" definitely not. My mind immediately answered.
I just shrug hoping she will stop if I ignore her.
"Oh, come on Quinnie. You are one hot momma! A lot of guys would kill for those." She said while she wiggles her eyebrows and points at my body.
"I'm not..um..interested Liz." I said on the verge of outing myself to her. "Besides I'll be busy next week. I'll be going back to NY to take care of some business."
Liz pretends to doze off while I explain. "Perfect! So I'll set up everything then." She said ignoring my protest.
"Again, I'm not interested." I'm starting to be a bit annoyed at her determination in setting me on a blind date.
I looked at her; she seems like thinking very hard. And then when she looked back at me grinning, I have a feeling I wouldn't like what she's about to say.
"I'll make you a deal. You go out on just one 'dinner' with a friend, and then I will never, 'ever', force you again." She said with her most pleading eyes. I let out a sigh. I have to tell her or else she won't stop.
"Come on Quinnie, It'll be just one date with my friend. He saw your picture last week and he won't stop bugging me about you, I just wa-"
I breath in a out to gather courage on what I am about to confess to Liz. "I..I'm g..gay." I finally said it. It made her stop talking. Now she's looking at me with her wide eyes, shock definitely evident on her face. I let out another deep sigh. "That's the reason Charles and I divorced."
"Oh." She looks very confused now. I know she has a lot of questions in her mind. So I close my laptop and walk around my table to sit across her.
"You can ask me anything you want to know." I smile at her shyly. "I'm sorry for keeping this. I just didn't want to talk about her. It hurts too much." I let my gaze fall on the floor.
She reaches for my hands and stops it from fidgeting. "Hey, it's okay. I admit I was a little upset but I respect why you did that. It was not easy for me as well before." She said to me encouragingly. I felt relieved, she is one of my close friends and I don't want to lose her. "Now I have someone better that I would love for you to meet." She said grinning.
"Seriously? I just came out to you like five seconds ago and now you are setting me up already on a date?" I shook my head at her with disbelief but still smiling. I went back on my office chair and concentrate on my laptop.
Her laughter filled my office. "Awesome, right? I've always wanted to hook you up on a date, I was just afraid Charlie would cut my head." She said giggling.
"If I agree will you stop pestering me forever with your matchmaking?" I asked her seriously.
I know Liz, she won't stop bothering me with this every day until I finally agree. And right now I need to focus my attention to work and getting Santana back. It won't hurt if I'll go on one dinner with her friend and pretend to enjoy the company.
Liz nods her head fast which made me smile. "Fine, just one and then no more dates, okay?" she nods again, this time she's grinning and it's making me crazy nervous. I know she's up to something. I just have to prepare myself and expect the worse.
"Sometimes other HEARTS
had to BREAK to keep
YOURS intact."
- J. Sterling
SANTANA's POV
Something was definitely wrong with Berry. She was okay when we came back from Lima three days ago, but now she's acting really weird. She's not annoyingly singing this morning, her boyfriend Troy was calling on our phone (which Berry left a note beside it: IF TROY CALLS, I'M NOT HOME.) every other minute asking if she's home and Kurt is obviously worried about her.
When Berry went inside her room, I quickly ambushed Kurt in his room. "What's up with Manhands?"
Kurt just shrugs which makes me more irritated. I know they are hiding something from me, and not knowing about it is annoying, besides she's my best friend. "Seriously Kurt, tell me or I'm gonna fucking ends you. So tell me what's making our annoying broadway princess socially acceptable today?"
He let out a heavy sigh. "She broke up with Troy."
"I figured that out already hummelita, what I want to know is why the sudden drama queen?" he won't look at me straight in the eyes. "Fine, I'll figure it out by myself, and you know how I do that." I told him as I slowly walk away from him, I am waiting for him to finally stop me and confess.
"Wait San!" Gotcha! I removed my grin before I turn around to face him. I fold my arms over my chest and lean on the door while waiting for him to speak again.
"San, it's not in my position to tell you about this but I can't let you make things worse for her." She let out a deep sigh. My eyes are squinted, trying to absorb what he was trying to say. "She's having some 'unsolicited' feelings for someone. And it's inappropriate 'cause they're in a relationship."
Now he got me confused. So Berry breaks up with Troyan abs because she likes someone else who is in a relationship. "Whoa, who would have thought our diva is a hard core cheater." I said amused which earned a growl from Kurt.
"Please keep your inner voice to yourself. She's too confused right now and your snarky comments won't help her." He commented very annoyed at me.
I rolled my eyes at him then went to outside of the room. I think I have something to get me busy while I wait for my rehearsal which is next week. I am about to barge in Rachel's room when I heard her talking to someone on her phone. I move my ear close to the door to listen.
"I thought I was over it but I wasn't. I don't know what to do anymore." Then I hear sobbing.
"I need to move out. I can't.. I can't even look at them..It hurts." I'm even confused now. What the hell is she talking about? Move out? Is she talking about me or Kurt?
"She's happy with her." Okay, she's definite talking about me. Oh shit!
I quickly stepped away from the door until I can't hear her voice anymore. I don't think I am ready to know whatever Berry is going through right now. I was just joking every time I tease her, I didn't know she would really fall for me. Shit!
This is beyond fucked up. I don't need this now, especially not from Berry. I already have Quinn and Elle to think of; please don't let it be what I think it is.
I'm still standing near her door when she goes out, for the first time today she looked straight in my eyes. Her eyes widened when she realized the possibility that I heard her. She's about to say something when I stormed out of the apartment.
"Santana, wait!" I could hear her calling my name. I ignored her, instead of stopping; I walk as fast as I can to get away from her and the apartment. I need to think.
"True love
has a habit of coming back,
usually in the most unexpected ways."
- Anonymous
QUINN's POV
"Wow, you look great!" I look up to a grinning Liz who's not checking me out. "If only I don't have a girl friend, I'll definitely ask you out." She said joking while sitting across me.
Tonight is my second night back in NY. I was too tired yesterday that's why I decided to do the blind date tonight to get it over with. And tomorrow I'll go and talk to Santana, try to fix our 'friendship' and spend some time with her.
I chose the resto-bar near the central park so that it'll be closer to my pent house. So that my date won't have to drive me home, it's just three minutes walk from here.
"I'm sorry she'll be running a little late, but she just texted me she would come." Liz said while typing something on her phone. "And um, Quinnie?"
I looked at her to indicate that I am listening. "She didn't know this is a blind date."
And like a blink of an eye, my eyebrows furrow and my gritted my teeth. "What the hell Liz! You didn't tell her about this? Why?!" I asked angrily for her explanation. Not caring about the people looking at us on the other table near us.
"Sorry?" she said apologetically. "But I told her to dress nice. And you will like her, I promise. She's gorgeous, smart and very entertaining."
"Then you should be the one dating her!"I said sarcastically while I rolled my eyes on her then gather my purse to leave when I heard someone speak.
"I'm so sorry, I got held up at home." She obviously didn't pay any attention to me. She went straight on hugging Liz.
I seriously don't know how to react, I want to laugh, I want to cry and most of all I want to scream. What the hell is going on here?!
"Quinn?!" she gasp and cover her mouth with her hands. If I am shock, Rachel's expression was worse. Both of our eyes are wide and jaws dropped on the floor. Not believing the person standing in front of each other.
"W..wait, You know each other?" It's the first time I was Rachel speechless. She just looked at Liz confused then right back at me.
"Yes." I finally recovered from the shock. "S..she's my high school..umm..friend?" looking at Rachel for confirmation. She nods.
"How did you know each other?" Rachel and I asked at the same time. The only one who laugh is Liz.
Liz laughter made us look at her confused. "Quinn is my brother's ex-wife and Rachie is my girlfriend's bestfriend. Now we got that out of the way, I'll now leave you two alone to catch up." Liz said then she stood up and guides Rachel to take her place.
"W..wait, what?!" Rachel objects. "I thought we're the one talking?" then she looks at me. "I need to talk to you in private." She said it in a very obvious way that she don't want me to hear her eagerness to talk to Liz.
Liz thinks for a minute. "Hmm, after your date, we'll talk okay?" she run her hands on Rachel's arm. The brunette just sigh heavy then nods. "Perfect, so I'll go now okay? Enjoy yourselves kids." Then she left with a huge grin on her lips.
It was an uncomfortably five minutes of awkward silence after Liz left that I decide to finally speak. "Tell me she's not talking about Santana." It was like a whisper because just thinking about it makes me run out of air.
Rachel let out a deep sigh. "They've been together for almost six months now."
I reached for the glass of wine and drink it straight. I have to drink because my mouth suddenly went dry of what I've heard. It can't be. How can be things so messed up?
"Why are you here Quinn?"
"I have to do something." I simply said. I don't want to reveal any of my plans to her. I don't know how close she is with Liz and I never trust Rachel to keep a secret.
"That's absurd! You're here for San aren't you?! Do you think she will come running back to you after what you did for her in Lima?" she said to me accusingly.
I don't like where this conversation is going, I need to get out of here fast. "I have to go." I said to her coldly as I attempt to stand but she grip my wrist and pulled me to sit back again. "What the hell, Berry?"
I heard her scoff, "So we're back on the last name basis huh? What's next, you're gonna fucking call me Ru Paul again?" Did she had many wines? Cause there's no way a sober Rachel will curse. I looked at the wine bottle, and damn, it's almost empty. I only had one glass.
I forcefully pulled my arm from her tight grip and sit straight. "You're drunk Rachel, let's get you home." But she just fake laugh at me.
"Home? I hate that place! I hate Santana! I so fucking hate her for making me hurt!" she's shouting now, I looked around and see that we're attracting attention now. I shoot them an apologetic smile then face Rachel again.
"Look Rach, I don't know what's your deal with San but I'm not gonna sit here and be embarrassed by a drunk diva." I said to her in a firm voice which made her pout. "I'll take you to my place if you don't want to go home yet."
In an instant, her face light up then nods. I let out a deep sigh then call for the waiter to get our bill. After paying, I asked help from the waiter to assist Rachel and then hail for a cab.
I wanted to call Liz and ask her a thousand questions but I'm sure she's with San right now. After ten minutes we're inside of my apartment, with Annie's help she placed the drunken Rachel on a guest room. I went to check on my son and watch him sleep. I want to be calm and this is the only way I know, by looking at my angel.
"Excuse me, Miss. Ms. Berry is already settled on the guest room." Annie informed me. I nod at her and let her take over my place beside Nathan. I kissed him goodnight then went outside the veranda to get some fresh air.
Not long after, I heard the doorbell rang. Finally, Liz came! I was just about to call her and hope she could come over tonight so we could talk.
While I step closer to the door, my heart becomes heavy. Maybe the thought of Liz being Santana's girlfriend makes me feel like this. I swallowed hard and breathe in and out before turning the door handle.
Once I opened it, I felt like my heart stopped from beating. My face turned white and my palms immediately became moist.
"S..santana?" I manage to say even though I'm running out of air.
I suddenly forget how to properly breathe and my stomach feels like its twitching. I tighten the grip of my left hand on the door frame while the other's grip on the handle serves as my support. Because seeing Santana here on my door makes me feel that I'm gonna lose consciousness.
A cliffhanger? hehe Don't hate me..:)
On Rachel: I have a plan for her.. wait for the next chap..LOL
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