She is Love
Jane woke up and quietly climbed out of bed. Not wanting to wake Maura up she tip toed out of the bedroom in hopes of surprising her with breakfast in bed. Once downstairs she walked into the kitchen and gasped
"Oh Jane, I'm sorry I'll step out" Angela said as she looked down at her phone.
Jane had made it clear to Maura that she was not ready to speak to her Mom. Maura understood and had made it her mission to ensure that the two women would not cross paths. Maura had gotten Angela a new iphone and texted her when Jane would be in the house, out of the house, and everything in between. It was a pain but Angela appreciated it. She wanted to respect Jane's wishes for once, she figured she had caused enough trouble.
"It's Ok Ma. How have….how have you been" Jane said as she walked to the refrigerator
"Me, fine Jane. You were the one hurt" Angela winced as the words came out of her mouth. This was the first conversation with her daughter in a few weeks and she knew talking about her injuries would be a dead end
"I'm ok Ma, Maura is taking good care of me"
Jane was 90 percent better. Her head injury had completely healed; she was now just waiting to be cleared to return back to work. Being so close to the holidays, Cavanaugh insisted she just take her time and Maura agreed. Jane of course complained but she was ok with it when she realized she would get to spend more time with Maura. Plus all the crazies came out during the holidays.
"I know Jane, I didn't mean to imply otherwise"
"Infer
"Excuse me?"
"You infer, I imply" Jane said
"Wow what else has she taught you?"
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Jane looked up at her mother for the first time. She knew she was overacting but she could help it. There were too many things unsaid.
"Nothing Jane really, I…I …I didn't mean anything" Angela said her voice shaking
"You didn't have to. I know how you feel?"
"I am sorry Jane. I am so so sorry. I don't know what got into me. I was just scarred."
"That's bullshit. I am your daughter. If Frankie brought home someone you would just accept it. But when it's me your scarred you won't get something YOU want…you didn't think about me. And what you said to Maura, I don't know how she even speaks to you."
"I …I just didn't understand. I'm sorry"
"What is there to understand? I love Maura. That's it."
"That's not it Jane, you never indicated that you were this way. It was out of nowhere. I just reacted wrong. But I never stopped loving you.'
"THIS WAY….I am a Lesbian Mother."
"OKAY OKAY, I am not the best at this but please listen. I love you and nothing will change that. I just need some help to understand what changed between you and Maura that was it."
"Why should I have to do that, huh?"
"I don't know. But I am here and I am asking that has got to count for something."
Jane sighed defeated. She knew what her mother was trying to say and understood. She was tired of avoiding her and knew she would never be fully recovered without getting this of her chest."
"What do you want me to say Ma"
"How did you know?"
"I don't know Ma, it just happened."
"Okaayyy"
"It just ….just hang on one sec"
Jane walked over to the ipod dock and hit play.
I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around, They call her love, love, love, love, love. Well I had my ways, they were all in vain,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same, all my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.
] And She
Theycallherlove,love,love,love,love.
Theycallherlove,love,love,love,love.
Theycallherlove,love,love,love,love.
Sheislove,andsheisallIneed.
Andwhenthosestarsburnout,here.
Ohshe'llbethere,yesshe'llbethere,
Theycallherlove,love,love,love,love.
Theycallherlove,love,love,love,love.
Theycallherlove,love,love,love.love.
Sheislove,andsheisallIneed,
Sheislove,andsheisallIneed.
As the song played she looked at her daughter. She was clearly thinking about Maura she could see Jane's facial expressions soften. Her body swayed to the music slightly and she had a smile on her face.
"Ok, Jane I understand and I am sorry."
"Thanks"
Angela gathered her things and left the kitchen.
"You can come out now Maura" Jane said with a smirk.
Maura appeared from around the corner with tears in her eyes.
"I love you"
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