Chapter 8/9

In Edwards point of view..

"Wow. That was amazing." Erin whispered

"no, this can never happen again. EVER!" I shouted at her, while I was pulling on my kaki pants and my white shirt.

"Why not, I thought it was over between you and kass."

"its not over until SHE says its over." I said in a hushed yell.

"THAT'S NOT FAIR! WHAT YOU DID TO HER! WHAT I DID TO HER! I THOUGHT IT WAS OVER!"

"I'm sorry, I really am. To have tricked you like that, to have violated you like that. But you were the only one I could talk to without being biased. And I didn't think that this would happen." I motioned my hands to her, and her mangled bed.

"well maybe you should have thought about that huh!"

"I'm sorry…""What ever Edward. Please just get out. NOW!"

"okay." I replied and leaned out the window. "goodbye Erin. Best friend."

"Goodbye Edward" she grimaced and thought ex-best friend.

As I ran to Kassity's house, I couldn't help but think how beautiful Erin looked in the moonlight. I know I shouldn't be, but I couldn't stop. Erin was my first, even though I know it was bad, I couldn't regret doing it. It was magical. I wonder what it would have been like with Kassity?

Just as I thought that, I was climbing though Kassity's window. I could hear her crying in the shower. As I started to walk towards the bathroom I could hear her dad walking up the steps. Crap. I guess I cant go calm her down.

I decided to lay down on her bed and wait for her. It was only a couple of minutes before she turned off the water and stepped out. I could still hear her trying to stop crying, most likely for her dads sake.

It hurt so bad, not being able to just stop what was hurting her. To kill it in its tracks, because that would mean killing myself, and that wasn't easily done.

I could hear her walking down the hall, turning the door knob. And then I saw her. Her blue eyes staring at me in shock.

"Edward!!" she yelled as she dropped her towel and ran onto the bed. Her arms wrapped around my body and tightened. It was an amazing feeling. But it felt wrong. So after a few minutes of laying there, I sat up and spoke.

"I came her to talk. Not to be jumped on my some naked girl." I said and shoved my shirt that was on her floor at her.

"So That's What I Am Now! Just Some Naked Girl!" she shouted at me.

"No. I'm sorry." wow, I was saying that a lot lately.

"IM THE ONE THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SORRY! NOT YOU!" she said in a hushed yell.

"what?" I asked, sincerely confused.

"I'm the one that cheated. Im the one that broke YOUR heart. I'm the one that RUINED EVERYTHING!" she spoke. Tears rolling down her check again.

" I cheated to Kassity." I mumbled, which was most likely to quite for her to hear, as I wiped off a tear.

After about 10 minutes of just sitting there, staring at each other. I laid back down and put her head on my chest. She fell asleep after about 5 minutes of me stroking her arm, her back, and her check.

I laid there, listening to her breath and decided that I had to go. I smoothly stood up, grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and wrote her a note.

Kass,

I have already told Carlisle and Esme that the wedding is

Postponed for now. And they have called your parents.

Good morning, and if its not morning, go back to bed.

Either way, I WILL talk to you later.

I have something to tell you.

Until later love,

Edward.

I folded it up, placed it on the pillow next to her head and ran out the window towards Erin's.

I crawled into Erin's window and shut is quietly behind me. As I turned around I could feel Erin's eyes on my back and I could hear her thoughts.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE! I THOUGHT YOU SAID NEVER AGAIN, EDWARD!

"Hello Erin. I Know, I know. And I'm going back on my word." I replied to her thoughts, leaned in and kissed her passionately and furiously.

We laid there for about an hour, in nothing but each others arms. It was amazing the guilt I felt, and yet that I didn't care.

"Say something please Edward. I cant stand the quite any longer" Erin whispered, while she was sliding her fingers along the contours of my chest and stomach.

"What would you like me to say?" I asked, even though I knew the answer.

"Say that you love me." she pleaded.

"I love you, Erin Renee. But not how you want me to love you." I replied.

"What!" she screamed as she had futilely attempted to push me off her bed.

"I'm sorry Erin. I do love you. You are my best friend. And I do wish I loved you as you want me to, but its not easy to change my ways. So please, just give me time. I could love you like that, just wait. With a little more of this," I pulled her face down to mine and attentively kissed her lips, "and this," I slid my lips down her neck and kissed her shoulder blade, "and more of this," I kissed her on her lips again but with more passion. "I will love you that way." I could feel her tremble as soon as I touched her to bring her down to my face, and I could also hear thoughts.

oh my gosh. Edward that feels amazing. You have no idea.

"I'm pretty sure I do, love." I whispered. "I'm pretty sure I do."

doubt it.. She thought and then smirked.

"okay dear. Just go to sleep. I most likely wont be here when you wake up, but I will be back tomorrow night." I spoke. "just have sweet dreams my love, and make it though 20 hours. Ill be back. I Promise You."

okay Edward. Goodnight. I love you. she thought and then curled up against me. She was asleep within 10 minutes.

I laid there, not having enough power to stand up, get dressed, and step out of the window. But after a while I did. I ran all the way home. Alice was standing on the porch steps when I got there.

"Are you kidding me Edward! Are you FUCKING kidding me!" she shouted at me.

"what Alice, what are you talking about?"

"ERIN!!!" she shouted louder this time, and growled afterward. "After all you and Kassity have been though! After all I did for you two to be together! You ruin it!"

"I DIDN'T RUIN ANYTHING ALICE! KASSITY RUINED IT! SHES THE ONE THAT DECIDED FIRST OKAY!""No she didn't Edward! She wants you! Only you! Robert is just using his giftto manipulate her!"

"No he isn't! he promised me he wouldn't! we both wanted to see how she really felt so we decided he wouldn't use it for one week."

"oh." she whispered.

"yeah Alice OH! You have no clue what your talking about so just stay out of it. Okay?!"

"okay," she replied. "I'm going for a run. Clear my head and all. Ill be back later if anyone asks."

"okay Alice. Ill see ya later."

"bye Edward." she yelped as she turned and ran into the woods.