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Part Ten

"What are we supposed to do?" she suddenly asked.

He looked at her in confusion.

"If you're memory doesn't come back," she shook her head, "

He stared at her for a moment, he had spent a decade glad memories were gone forever; glad he had been wiped clean of Jason Quartermaine. Five years lost of his sons' lives, he didn't want to miss a minute of them, five years lost… "I don't know," he answered truthfully.

"I don't want you to hate me, like you hated Keesha," she admitted.

"I could never hate you," he promised.

She rolled her eyes.

"I didn't say I wouldn't be aggravated with you."

She was about to respond when she quickly shut her mouth.

He was confronted with the fact that he had seen Jason Quartermaine's life now. He had willingly seen it, instead of an attempt at memories being forced upon him. He was envious of his life, envious of the peace the other man had been able to find, the kind of joy he was able to bring to his family, the ease in which he related to them. He didn't want to take away that kind of a father from his children, that kind of a brother from his sister, that kind of son from his mother, even that kind of husband from Brenda. The kind of man that accepted her for who she was and not who they could mold her to be. Maybe it was easier knowing that he wouldn't be lost. Before there had never been a compromise between him and Quartermaine, however, now though they told him that was possible and he found himself almost wanting it.

"Forget it," she shook her head, "I don't want to know. I don't want to think about it."

"Br-"

She shook her head yet again, "We aren't worrying for no reason. I'm going to start going through your twins' list."

"Twins' list?" he quickly questioned.

"You have this odd insistence that they need things like diapers more than gold high tops."

"I thought I saw diapers," he frowned trying to remember the changing table in the floral explosion of a room.

"Apparently small in cloth diapers is 7lbs," she rolled her eyes, annoyed with that. "Oh we are so not doing organic," she said as she backspaced his list. "We can kill the Earth for a month." She frowned reading the list, "We had all this crap once. I have no idea what the hell we did with it."

"It's a big house."

She let out an unexpected laugh at his comment. She looked over at him with a smile, "I think I'm just going to order this stuff online and overnight it, I don't want to go out. Did you want your laptop back?"

"No," he shook his head, "you can keep using it."

"Why don't you go relax, take a nap, rest up for the hellions return," she smiled.

He was being dismissed, he didn't blame her. "Call me if you need me."

-o-o-o-o-

Wedding Video:

"Okay so most of you know that Brenda and I have had our ups and our downs. By that I mean things like prom where she shot me down and obsessed over her ex and the two years that if someone had let me, I would have actually shot her. Not to mention our first marriage-"

"Is there a point to this," Brenda called out from her seat at the table.

He turned back with a smile, "There is," he promised. "You have always managed to push every button I have. Life with you has never been dull or predictable and I," he shook his head slowly at her, "I thank you for that. I knew from the start that you were amazing, but I had no idea just how amazing. I am grateful every day to have you as my wife-"

"Your wedding was so beautiful," Emily said as she walked into the room and seeing what was on the large screen tv.

"I look happy," Jason said blankly.

"You were," Emily promised. "You know you had that wedding for me because I missed the first one." She moved to sit next to her brother, "At least that's what you always said, but I think a big part of it was finally giving Brenda that wedding. Center of attention, fairytale wedding."

"She looks happy," Jason quickly agreed.

"She always wanted that, this," Emily shrugged. "The ring, the husband, the family. She never had that. You gave it all to her and the perfect day."

Jason looked uncomfortable; then questioned, "No word on Liz?"

"That could have been me," Liz whispered with the champagne glass almost forgotten in her fingers.

Emily turned to her best friend.

"He tried and I…" her head slowly shook, "I was too impatient. That day when Carly and Brenda went at it at the hospital…When I realized there really had been nothing going on between Jason and Brenda…I had this split second of thinking he and I could finally be together...I was so sure that test would come back negative…That should be Jason and I…I don't know why I couldn't just wait a few more weeks."

"No," Emily swallowed hard and shook her head.

"I should-"

"You can't do anything Jason. None of us can do anything," her words held some snap because she was about to snap. Her best friend gone and she could do nothing. "Where's Brenda?"

"Stress shopping in the kitchen," he explained simply, letting the previous subject drop. As much as he wanted to, he knew there was nothing he could do.

She automatically smiled. Brenda did two things well during times of stress: eat chocolate and shop. "You told me after Garrett was born and refusing to sleep Brenda pretty much bought out QVC and HSN."

Jason smiled.

"I should probably check on her before you end up needing a third freezer. I really can't eat another lobster tail wrapped in bacon. We need to start blocking these sites."

-o-o-o-

He followed in minutes later to find Brenda and Emily huddled around the laptop.

"But if you get it in the white then-" Emily stopped when she saw her brother.

"I thought you were going to stop her," Jason reminded.

"I was until I realized it was clothing. The ruffled diaper cover is a must Jason."

"Totally," Brenda laughed.

"So we don't need to order another freezer?" Jason asked as he walked to the fridge.

"Are you ratting me out on everything?" Brenda turned to glare at her sister.

"I prefer to think of it as warning."

"I already knew you had a shopping addiction Brenda, I had the bank account to prove it," he pulled out the orange juice.

Emily laughed as Jason smiled. Brenda harrumphed.

"Does anyone think we should rescue Mom from the kids?"

"You're including AJ in kids right?"

"Oh definitely," Emily laughed again.

"I don't know," Brenda scrunched her face, "Is this payback for being gone so long or is it just going to make her leave faster."

Emily laughed once more. "I'm going to go be the good daughter and check in across the street. If only to see if AJ has figured out how to kill Chip with only one arm."

"You can bring the kids back if you really need to," Brenda smiled.

"Remember kids include AJ," Emily said as she walked towards the doorway.

"On second thought, keep them," Brenda called out after her.

Emily let out another chuckle, "Bye."

"Bye," they called after in unison.

-o-o-o-

He walked into their daughters' room and a moment frozen in time. A pair of swings half completed. If Jason Quartermaine, he, hadn't stopped in the middle of his project to check on Jake, he could be gone right now. He couldn't even begin to comprehend that.

He settled himself on the floor despite the pain, emotional turmoil wouldn't stop babies from being born, and picked up the instructions.

Jake and Garrett joined him minutes later and assigned themselves the task of being his helpers.

-o-o-o-

"I'll be right back," Jason said to Jake who was currently exploring his sisters' stuff, since they had finally finished their project, long after Garrett had left them in search of more interesting things.

Jason followed after Brenda, who was walking down the hall carrying a sleeping Garrett. He walked into the boys' room just in time to see Brenda putting Garrett down on his race car bed.

She smiled hearing her husband approach, but remained looking at her son.

"Should you be carrying him?" Jason asked softly.

"Don't start, pretty soon he'll be too big for me to carry," she stroked her son's cheek and he rolled to his side, his hands grabbing onto his mothers.

"Isn't he already? He's half your height."

She scowled.

-o-o-o-

He left Brenda with Jake in their room, she convinced the little boy who had no interest in a nap, to lay with her awhile in their bed and read. He didn't know why he left, but he did. They looked comfortable in the large plush bed. Content. He hadn't wanted to intrude on their time.

He found his way back to his laptop.

"This is what I have to deal with?"AJ's voice exclaimed.

The camera was pointed at Brenda in a long flowing black gown, her hair upswept, draped across her husband, in tuxedo pants and loosened shirt, as she sat in his lap,.

"You're the one that let their date go home," Brenda sing songed, obviously drunk.

"After he pried her off of him," Jason added.

"Too clingy," AJ remarked, "I'm not you little brother."

"Is he implying that I'm clingy?" she turned with a pout to her husband.

"Never," Jason said trying to keep a serious face as he shook his head at his wife, then scowled at his brother.

"Because I could-" she tried to get up, but Jason pulled her back down.

"He's just jealous," he swore to his wife.

"You're cute," she smiled down at him, "have I told you that lately?"

"I'm going to gag," AJ gagged as Jason was beaming up at his wife.

"Oh seriously what was wrong with Candace?" Brenda good-naturedly snapped.

"The fact that her nickname is Candy isn't enough?"

Brenda sighed loudly.

"She's a doctor," Jason pointed out.

"That's strike two."

"Horny was strike three?" Brenda rolled her eyes.

"Horny would have been nice, more the fact that I think she made a dozen plans for the next week for us in 6 hours."

Jason sighed this time and let his head fall back.

"I wonder Emily's night is going better," Brenda questioned, her implication obvious.

Jason's head shot up and his eyes went wide in horror.

"Ugh!" AJ loudly proclaimed.

"Seriously she's a grown woman, she's been married twice and she needs to get some to get over Nikolas. I really don't get the whole need for brooding thing."

AJ snorted.

Jason glared at his brother.

"Seriously?" AJ questioned.

"Oh Jason?" Brenda shook her head, "Please I wish he brooded. You never just let things go."

"I never let things go?"

"You do now," she patted his arm, "you know what's good for you."

He rolled his eyes.

"So remind me again what was wrong with Donna?"

"What is it with you and this whole matrimony thing? She's been really annoying since you asked her to marry you again. All with the lovey dovey crap."

"We just think you might be happier if you settled down-"Brenda stopped as she heard the door. "Em?"

"Yea, it's me," she said walking into the living room. "I didn't think you guys would still be up."

"They're busy plotting how to marry us off," AJ informed his sister.

"Twice was enough for me, thank you very much," she said shrugging out of her coat to reveal a sleek sequined black dress. "Old maid aunt and playboy uncle?" she asked her brother as she moved to sit on the couch with him.

"Sounds good to me."

Jason hit stop minutes before the video was to end. He was sitting and watching his past life, while his current life was upstairs, where he wanted to be.

He could never remember. That man in those videos could be lost forever once more. That didn't mean Jason didn't want that life. That didn't mean he didn't want that life for Brenda and the kids, they deserved that kind of husband and father. He could wait and hope it would return to him, if it didn't though, it was up to him to find it.

His weary body climbed the stairs and the smiles that greeted him proved he had taken the proper step. He climbed into bed with them, with Jake nestled between him and Brenda, and curled into their group. He listened to Brenda as she read the tale of a fantasy land, while Jake was engaged in the trio she told of, Jason was engaged by the fantasy land he had been thrust into and he realized even if it was a dream, he no longer wanted to wake up.

Thanks for reading! I hope you liked it.

Btw is it wrong that I'm jealous of characters in my head because they get to snuggle with Jason? :-P