"I'm done." Lily's body was shaking, she felt so stupid, "You've made me look ignorant and oblivious for the last time, Jonathan."

"Calm down," Jon sighed as he opened the envelope, his eyes went wide as he saw the picture, "Lily where did you get this?"

"TELL ME WHY IT HAS OUR DAUGHTERS NAME ON IT, JON. WHY WOULD SOMEONE GIVE THAT TO AN EIGHT YEAR OLD GIRL?" Lily stormed around the room, pacing the floors, "I WAS RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF HER. YOU MADE ME LOOK IGNORANT. NO WONDER SHE WAS LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT."

"Stop screaming, you're going to wake Rose up." Jon said as he stood up.

"THEN MAYBE SHE'LL UNDERSTAND JUST HOW MUCH OF A DISGUSTING PRICK HER FATHER REALLY IS." Lily angrily wiped at her tears, "I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I'VE DONE TO YOU. I'VE LOVED YOU ENDLESSLY; I'VE GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING AND ONLY GOT HALF OF IT IN RETURN. WHY ARE YOU PROTECTING HER?"

"I'm not protecting her, Lily!" Jon shook his head, "I'm protecting you!"

"YOU'RE PROTECTING ME? IS THAT RIGHT, JON? THAT'S WHAT YOU CALL IT? WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU PROTET ME?"

"Because she's insane."

"Then I guess the both of you are meant to be." Lily jerked away from him, "Do not touch me."

"Lily! Don't be like that." Jon sighed, he was hurt at her lashing out at him.

"Fuck you," Lily shook her head, "I'm going to take Rose and this baby here and I'm just going to go spend some time with my mother back in Cincinnati."

"You're not taking Rose anywhere other than this house." Jon shook his head, "YOU'RE NOT TAKING HER AWAY FROM ME GODDAMNIT LILY!"

"SINCE WHEN DO YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO?"

"SINCE YOU'RE THREATENING TO TAKE EVERYTHING I HAVE LEFT AWAY FROM ME." Jon blocked the door, "SIT DOWN."

"I'M NOT SITTING DOWN." Lily stood her ground against his searing eyes.

"Fine," Jon shrugged as he leaned back against the door, "You're going to listen to what I have to say, then."

"Speak."

"I'm not your fucking dog." Jon glared at her.

She sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed, placing her chin in her hands as she leaned against her knees, "You've got one time to explain this to me."

"I know I fucked up, Lily. I know I did. But I'm the one that has to live with it every day. I'm the one that has to work to make it better. If I have to buy you every fucking thing in the world, I will. If I have to buy mount Rushmore, I will. If I have to walk around this fucking planet a million times, I would and you know it. I was honest with you, I told you myself. And I know that doesn't make anything better, it doesn't change that I actually done it." Jon moved to bend down in front of her, "But no matter how many times I fucked this up, no matter how many times I've wronged you, you can't take Rose away from me."

"Do you honestly think you deserve to have her? They way you've wronged her?" Lily's normally warm blue eyes were icy cold as they searched his face. She saw the hurt register in his face and her words even hurt herself, "Think about this baby."

"I don't deserve her, I don't deserve you. But I don't know how to go about life without you two anymore. I can't. I don't want to start over, without you two. You can't take her away from me." His voice cracked, emotion shown in his eyes. Tears brimmed on his waterline; he'd never had her be so cold towards him.

"I want a break."

"You're not getting it," Jon shook his head.

Angry tears welled up in her eyes again, "Why are you so fucking stubborn?"

"Because I refuse to let you slip through my fingers."

"So he basically refused you the right to a break?" Sami questioned as he laid on the bed looking down at Lily sprawled out on the floor.

"Yeah," Lily laughed – Sami had supplied her with alcohol and she was a little tipsy.

Jon had left the night before, leaving Lily an emotional mess. Sami had slipped back in after she had called him upset. Rose was off spending the night with her best friend, leaving the two adults alone in the house.

"You know the funny thing is, Sami," Lily shook her head, "I still fucking love the asshole. I'd do anything for him and it killed me that I was mean to him. I can't take those words back no matter how hard I try, Sami. I don't understand why."

"Because you two are meant to be together," Sami yawned.

"If we were, why does he treat me so horribly?"

"Because he doesn't realize how much you mean to him. He needs to realize that he could lose you that easily."

"He'll just refuse to let me leave!" Lily smiled, having Sami around brought a lot of stress off of her shoulders it seemed like, "I feel like the world is just slowly falling apart around me."

"Don't let it, Lily. Once you start to let it, it really does."

"It always feels like this when he's gone." Lily whispered, "I don't know what to do with myself or how to deal with this situation."

"You're a smart girl, Lily. It'll come to you eventually. You just have to take time to think about it." Sami yawned.

She crawled up in the bed with him, laying her head down on his bare chest. He wrapped an arm around her. She knew she had to stop running back to Sami when things went wrong with her and Jon but he was comforting to her. With him being there, she'd never really figure out what she really wanted to do with hers and Jon's relationship. Sami was comforting, warm, and inviting, where Jon had been the complete opposite.

"I figured Jon and I had been together too long this time," Lily whispered, "Remember when we were broken up every other week?"

"Yeah," Sami laughed, "I remember more than you know. I watched all the times he wronged you and you took him back. I didn't understand it, honestly. But then again, I didn't really know how to tell what love was. I met somebody the other day, Lils."

Lily smiled, "You did?"

"Yeah," Sami nodded, "We have a date tomorrow."

For some reason, Lily felt a pang of jealousy rise within her – it confused her and she didn't like the feeling of jealousy towards this unknown woman. She pushed it aside and congratulated her best friend, "Sami I'm happy for you!"

Maybe things could start to get better...