Chp.10
JPOV
That Thursday afternoon
I have been visiting Alice every day after school. I have been bringing her her work. She cannot do it right now because her right hand is still pretty damaged but I have been talking to her about school, doing some of the readings with her and trying to ease her stress any way I can. She has been getting pretty restless lying in the hospital bed. Carlisle says she has two more weeks before they can even consider any type of physical therapy. They have to make sure her punctured lung and internal bleeding has healed fully before they push her.
Alice has a long road ahead of her and it is going to be difficult. Sunday, Carlisle and a doctor I don't know came in to talk to Alice while I was visiting her. I never seen Alice so emotional in such a short amount of time.
Last Sunday
Alice's bed is now in a sitting position. I guess that is a good sign. There is table tray in front of her with a tray of food. The TV is on ABC family they are playing that cheerleader movie with the girl from Heroes in it. Alice is pushing the peas around her plate when I walk in.
"Family ditched you?" I ask her with a slight smile.
"Dad is working. Mom is at home with Emmett. He is heading back to Ithaca before he gets too far behind. He says he will be back this weekend and that he wants to talk to you when he comes back." Alice replies her voice still raspy.
Emmett wants to talk to me? This cannot be a good thing. Alice assured me that he is like a giant teddy bear yesterday but the guy is huge. He is scary. Alice looks better today. The circles beneath her eyes are fading as are some of her bruises and cuts. I find that she is staring at her leg and wrist a lot.
"How is the pain today?" I ask her as I make my way to the chair next to her bed.
"I feel sorer than I feel pain. Deep breaths still hurt slightly but my dad says that is to be expected. The pain killer they give me makes me drowsy so I may not be good company in a while when the nurse comes to give it to me. But I am happy that I am alive and I will take it one step at a time." Alice replies with a small smile as she stares up at me.
There is a knock on the door. Carlisle and another doctor walk in.
"Alice, this is Dr. Sawyer. He was your primary surgeon after your accident. He wanted to discuss something with you." Carlisle says to his daughter.
I stand up and take that as my cue to leave.
"No, Jasper, stay please." Alice says.
"Alice, honey, I think this should be a private conversation." Carlisle says.
"It's fine, Alice. I'll come back tomorrow." I tell her.
"No, I want Jasper here." Alice pleas with her dad.
Carlisle nods at the other doctor.
"Alice, you are very lucky to be alive right now. Your punctured lung and internal bleeding seem to be healing properly. The bruising on your stomach should subside in a few days. The cast on your wrist will stay for another week and we will evaluate it after the cast comes off. Your leg on the other hand may be a different story. Your knee popped out of the socket and was badly broken in two places as well as several breaks and fracture in your right ankle and foot.
Yesterday, you complained of not being able to feel your right leg. It could be from the pain medicine you currently are on or I believe you may have a pinched nerve in your lower back that could cause this feeling. Time will only tell. But I have bad news. You are looking at maybe another surgery or two on your leg if it does not heal and set properly. And with your lung, you cannot do intensive cardio for at least four months. Nothing that involves breathing heavily for long periods of time.
I hate to say this because your father tells me it is your life. But the cards are not looking in you favor to be able to dance again. You may not be able to walk properly without pain again. So do not stress about dance if possible it will only make your recovery worse." Dr. Sawyer tells Alice.
From a week of knowing Alice, I know that dance is her life. She is captain of company and she stays later than necessary for practice. She uses her free period to stay in the studio as well. I look to Alice. I cannot tell what she is thinking. Her mouth is in s straight line. She is concentrating on her wrist then moves her gaze to her right leg.
"I am going to recover and I am going to dance again." Alice says in a calm voice to Dr. Sawyer.
"Alice, honey, let's not focus on that right now. Let's just focus on getting you better." Carlisle assures his daughter.
"I will dance again." Alice says again in a calm voice.
"Alice, the likelihood of that happening is…"
Dr. Sawyer is cut off by Alice's screaming. Alice knocks over the tray of food on the table and screams. She pounds her left fist into the table repeatedly. After a minute the screams turn into tears and Alice is balling her eyes out. I get up from my chair and carefully pull Alice into a hug. I look at Carlisle and nod. He escorts Dr. Sawyer out of the room.
"Shhh, Alice, it's going to be okay." I whisper to her.
I kiss the top of her head and rub soothing circles into her back. Alice stops crying after a few minutes and lean back onto the pillow. I sit back down and watch her stare at her leg willing it to move. I do not press her. I know that she needs time and I will give it to her. I will be here when she want to talk. The nurse comes in ten minutes later, cleans up the room and place the food in the trash. She takes a syringe and places Alice's pain medication into her IV bag. I watch as Alice tries to fight off the sleep. Her eyes get heavier and heavier until she finally gives in and closes them. I get up and kiss Alice's forehead.
"I'm ready to talk when you are." I tell her.
Back to present day
I have never seen Alice lash out like that. She is such a happy person to see her cry like that tore me up inside. The next time I see Edward he is going to get an earful from me.
"Jasper, I want to apologize for Sunday. I am sorry that I lashed out." Alice's voice breaks me out of me reverie.
"Why are you apologizing? You were angry and every one shows anger differently. No one expects you to be perfect." I tell her.
"I want everyone to stop making excuses for me. I may be in this state but I am still me. I do not lash out like that." Alice replies.
I am about to reply but the door opens up. I see Edward walk through the door with a bouquet of white lilies in his hand. What the fuck is that bastard doing here? I thought it was understood that no one wanted him here. I thought Emmett set him straight. I guess I'll have to tell him this when I talk to him on Saturday.
"I came here to apologize." Edward says.
"Apologize! Apologize! You didn't forget my birthday or miss a movie date with me, Edward Anthony Masen. You chose to force me into a car and drive drunk. And I am forced to pay the consequences of your mistake for possibly the rest of my life. What made you so lucky that you walked away with barely a scratch? You should be rotting in a jail cell right now but no your daddy paid people off and you got off easy.
Do you even remember that night? You forced me into that car. I tried to leave and you locked the door. I fucking hate you! I may not dance again. I am going to be in the hospital for a while so I can kiss my dreams of a good college goodbye. You've ruined my life just so you could prove to Jasper that you are manlier than him. I hope Bella is happy with you. We are over. I never want to see you again. Jasper is more of a man then you will ever be. I never want to see you again." Alice shouts at him.
Her heart monitor is beeping louder now. Her breathing is rapid and uneven.
"Alice, calm down. He is not worth your time." I tell her and I rub circles into her hand.
"Alice, I….." Edward starts.
"Edward, may I speak to you outside?" I ask him.
A/N: So what do you think? Sorry, these not being as often as they used to be. I have a lot to do this summer. I start college in the fall so I hope to either have a major chunk of this story done or have it completed by the end of the summer. I am not a doctor so sorry if any of this medical stuff is wrong.
Please review! I would love to hear what you have to say.