ATTENTION!

Well, I begin with this warning because I have to tell you a very important thing. This story is rated T, but this chapter will be kind of M rated. So, please if you are under 18 (this is the adult age in my country) don´t make a mess about this. And if you are above 18, let me tell you that we are going to touch some sex themes. It won´t be hardcore, but we are going to have some of this and that. Okay, so enjoy the chapter and hope you like it, guys. Thanks for reading!

Chapter 10: Confessions

When Ahsoka opened her eyes again she found a very warm fire and a lonely cave. Her cuts in the hands burnt like hell but she could still sit down. She suddenly discovered that her hands where already healed and instantly she thought about Anakin. She had to leave as soon as possible, of course she didn´t want to confront him again in those conditions, or worse the whole Jedi Order. Quickly she looked for her lightsabers so that she could flee, but in that moment she listened to a familiar voice behind her.

If you are looking for you lightsabers, you are losing your time.

Ahsoka turned around and discovered Anakin in the cave´s entrance. She felt nervous and her hands began to tremble. Anakin walked inside staring at her severely, but she didn´t put down her look.

Oh, this is awful! She exclaimed putting her hands on her face for a moment.

Anakin hesitated… What was that supposed to mean? Wasn´t she afraid?

What do you mean? He asked frowning and crossing his arms.

Holly force this is the end… She kept saying to herself.

Speak clear. It´s an order!

An order? She repeated. First, Anakin Skywalker, you can´t give me orders anymore. And second, you have ruined it all! DAMN!

Yes, I ruined your evil plans and now I´m going to arrest you and take you to the authorities.

Oh, really? She raised an eyebrow. And why didn´t you just do that when I was unconscious and injured?

I… Anakin didn´t know how to answer that and suddenly felt an idiot. He hated to accept that Ahsoka was sometimes smarter than him.

You should have just killed me! That would be easier, but now I´m stocked here in the middle of nowhere with the most purposeless man in the galaxy, all my plans of months are ruined and…SHIT! I´m still here losing my time talking to you!

Don´t speak to me in that way, Ahsoka! Anakin yelled.

Oh, shut the fuck up, Skywalker! You ruined it all!

I? I?! He repeated getting very very mad and approaching to her. You, Ahsoka Tano, were the one that ruined everything since the beginning!

Oh, no, don´t start with that crap now… She put a hand on her forehead.

YOU were the one that came in first place to disturb me with all your childish stuff when you were a Padawan…

Ha! Now you are going to blame for that too? Unbelievable…

And then I stupidly thought that I could help you to come back to the Order. How wrong I was!

Anakin, please… She sighed tired.

But, no! You had to fuck up everything and go to the dark side!

Ahsoka stood up, stared at his eyes and slapped him twice. Anakin felt a burning anger inside, but he just kept staring at Ahsoka breathing quickly. She crossed her arms till he started to breath normally and then she put her hands on his shoulders.

I´m sorry for that, Anakin… But you don´t know anything. She said patiently.

You can tell me now. He replied with anguished voice. In fact his face was red and his eyes were full of tears. You don´t have idea of how hard was to me to know that you are Dooku´s apprentice...Why, Ahsoka? Please tell me, why did you do it?! Why didn´t you just waited for me? I was going to rescue you! I.. I… His voice broke down and the tears began to fall down as his hands trembled. I hated you for so much time that I felt revulsion of myself! I couldn´t believe that you could betrayed all what I taught you…

I´ve never betrayed you. Ahsoka declared trying not to cry. I just wanted to do this by myself. To make one last thing right by winning Dooku´s trust and then finishing him, with anyone else involved or injured for my fault… I just wanted you to feel proud of me one last time, Master. She made a pause and put her hands down again. But that´s not important anymore, because I failed once again.

She turned around with a sad look and started to walk to leave the cave, but Anakin couldn´t resist anymore and ran toward her. He took her hand and she turned around again. They shared a glance for a confident and silent moment and then he embraced her tight, she didn´t react instantly, but after a couple of seconds she hugged him too.

How many times I have to told you, Ahsoka that you don´t need to prove me anything? I´m proud of you. Even if you are not a Jedi anymore, my feeling for you are still the same. That´s why I didn´t kill you or sent you to Tarkin. Ahsoka, I… Anakin made a pause. He remembered the time when he fell in love with Padme, how many days did he spend with her before confessing her that he was in love with her? Three? Pffft! He actually did a very little effort to winn her heart, everything had been such a cliché romance, so fast and immature… But with Ahsoka everything was different. He had waited three years for that moment, three years to convince himself that it wasn´t an illusion or a whim and still he was afraid of being rejected, because she had never been easy in any way. She had the perfect sense of what was wrong and what was right, she was proud and independent, she was strong and fearless. He didn´t deserve her, Anakin was aware of that, but still he had to say it right now or his throat would burn of desperation

I love you.

She separated her face from his shoulder and stared at him. After a moment, Anakin began to fear that she would be thinking of him as a lia, or something worse. He was going to open his mouth again to give a complete explanation, but she put a hand on his lips and smiled a little in a tenderly way.

I love you too. She said softly.

Anakin felt a warm sensation in his heart and smiled unconsciously like a child. Ahsoka erased the tears from his cheeks and when she finished he grabbed her hand crossing his fake robot fingers with hers.

I´m burning to kiss you, Snips… He confessed ashamed. But I don´t dare.

That´s alright, Skyguy. She laughed a little. C´mon, I´m thirsty. We better find something to drink and then we should rest a little.

Anakin felt disappointed, of course, but he could just accept. He offered himself to go and pick some water from a river that was two kilometers away and perhaps find some food. Ahsoka nodded happily and waited for him in the cave. He thought a lot while he walked wondering what to do next. Perhaps the best was just to talk with her and find a way to resolve everything. He returned with enough water for the two of them and some eatable roots from the river. They ate in complete silence and once they finished he added more branches to the fire to keep it alive. Ahsoka was too serious now, so he searched for her look.

Hey, are you cold? He asked to her sitting by her side.

Just a little.

Anakin passed one arm behind her arms. She laid her head on his chest and closed her eyes, but in that moment he saw her shoulders and then part of her back. It was covered with several scars and old cuts. Carefully he passed her fingers above them believing that she was already asleep.

They look awful, don´t they? She whispered suddenly.

Oh, sorry Ahsoka. He excused nervously. I thought you were…

It´s okay.

Who did this to you? He wondered trying to catch her glance again.

Dooku. She answered simply. In our trainings. But they are just outter scars. The things I had to do to convince him that I was really part of the Dark Side are worse than any injury.

He embraced her again and little by little she began to tell him more details about those three months and the mission Dooku had given to her: to kidnap Tarkin to cause a chaos in the Republic.

But when he got distracted, and having already his trust, I was going to finish him, to end this war. She finished saying.

I would say that this is not the way, Snips. Anakin replied. But I´m not able to say a thing like that anymore. I´m not the Jedi I should be. You know? I have done lots of bad things…

Now it was his turn to speak. He told her since the very beginning about his childhood in Naboo, then his life as a Padawan, his romance with Padme and the massacre in Tatooine when her mother died.

Sometimes I feel that I don´t really belong to the Order. He said kind of sad.

I know. But it´s not all your fault, Skyguy. I´ve been thinking a lot about the Order and its rules. I mean, really, does everyone have to be a bunch of sexless guys to be good and fair? Why can´t we show our feeling? It´s just so unnatural! And who, for the force sake, declared that loving someone was so wrong?! I just want to say that the force is more than a lightsaber and the Jedi Order, it´s something that comes from inside and gives us strength when everything looks dark. That´s all.

You are admirable.

Thanks, Skyguy, but I just say what I feel.

Anakin just thought about saying something like the phrase he used about the sand when he was with Padme in Naboo, because that time it worked and she fell quickly in love. But with Ahsoka that would probably don´t work and she would think that he was a dumbass. So he just smiled timidly, because yeah, he felt so uncertain and beginner in those moments, and grabbed her hand.

I don´t know what am I going to do now, without you, Snips.

Well, we can try to stand it. I believe that real love means sometimes being able to let the other one free… and for us, it will be the best, Anakin.

Even thought it´s the less I desire, If you ask me to do it, I will.

Anakin kissed her hand as a couple of tears fell again from his eyes.

You cry a lot, Master. She said tenderly.

It´s your fault, Snips.

Both smiled and finally she approached more to him and caressed his lips with hers. They stayed like that for a moment and then he kissed her entirely. She embraced his neck as they slowly laid down. Carefully he passed his fingertips through her lekku and her neck, but he stopped when he felt one part of his body full of blood. (…if you know what I mean)

Are you okay, Skuguy? She asked putting a hand on his cheek.

Yes… He sighed trying to recover his breath. It´s just that… I don´t know. It´s not the first time I do this, but still I feel… nervous.

I feel nervous too. She smiled kindly.

But I want this moment to be perfect! Unforgettable!

Ahsoka laughed a little. C´mon, Anakin you have been acting extra dramatic the whole day… let´s just go on with this and let it be. Don´t worry about anything else.

He nodded with the head and the two smiled again. Then she took off of her boots, the gloves and the dress and remained only in her underclothes.

Holy Force, you are so pretty… Anakin sais without breath and grabbed her by the waist to kiss her again with passion.

She took his clothes off too till they were finally naked and very close to each other. He caressed her skin softly with his fingertips without stopping to kiss her at any moment. She grabbed from his strong back and felt a warm and comfortable calm when they were finally joined as only one. Carefully, as since the beginning, he came out and softly hugged her athletic but slim body once more, feeling their agitated and fast breathings. They were exhausted and glad at the end, so she just closed her eyes and laid her head on his chest as he covered both with the brown Jedi robe.

I will always love you, Ahsoka. Anakin whispered some minutes later. She didn´t answer anything, perhaps she was already asleep.

Anakin closed his eyes too, but before he fell asleep he tried to keep forever in his mind that instant of happiness.

Wooo, that was a very long chapter! Sorry for that D:

Hope you have liked it, thanks for reading and may the force be with you, guys.

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