Late update…sorry…won't lie but I was seriously swamped. Why is it in group work I end up doing all the work? Seriously and on top of that I got teachers we have no life on the weekend except to do homework plus I'm sick…but anyways enough of me…I guess you want to read the chapter.

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EPOV

I couldn't sleep for most of that night, I just watched Bella, occasionally stroking her hair and marveling at her beauty. One day and I was under her spell, it was getting harder to resist completely and utterly falling for her. I couldn't fall for another girl after what had happened the last time. Bella turned in my arms again, and was now snuggled against my chest. I glanced at the clock, 10:30, she'd been asleep for about 8 hours now and probably wouldn't wake for another half hour so reluctantly I released her from my hold and got up to get dressed.

10 minutes later Bella was still fast asleep and I was ready for the day. Gosh, Bella looked so beautiful in her sleep, I felt like lying down next to her. But then a sudden urge took over me, where was my old journal from when I was 14? I tore through the drawers of my desk, silently of course, looking. Finally I found what I had sought after, my journal. I stared at its dusty cloth covers and golden binding for several minutes before turning to the first page.

I have a girlfriend, the words stated simply

Her name is Jane and she is probably the best thing that's happened to me. She is somewhat childish for a 14 year old but I love that about her. She's smart and has a great sense of humor, I can't count all the times she's made me laugh and that's just today! I know how lucky I am just to have her; I've been "admiring her from afar," for way too long. Jane's a bit wild, always free-spirited and it's all I could do just to keep her for a day. She will be mine for as long as fate allows, and if that isn't enough…I guess I'm going to have to fight fate for her.

-Edward Cullen-

Just reading that first page brought back so many memories, some painful and some happy. I didn't deserve someone like Bella in my life, not after what happened with Jane. I remembered the haunted look in her eyes after that day, how she ignored me when I tried to make it up to her, knowing I never could. And she finally moved away, taking my heart with her, Bella brought it back to me. I was torn with guilt over Jane and longing over Bella. Finally I turned to the next page.

It's been a while since I wrote here, a week to be exact. Jane is everything I could hope for and more, she makes me feel so alive, I know the words are past clichéd but they're true this time. We spend every minute we can together, laughing and being…well-teenagers. We walk, we talk, we hold hands, a kiss upon the cheek… Ah, this is the life. I don't know how I found the time to write this when I'm with her all the time. I can't wait to kiss her!

-Edward Cullen-

A short entry, but it still made me smile, again I turned the page.

Jane, oh darling Jane!

Last night we strolled under the trees in the park and walked and talked and… I swear I couldn't be happier right now. We were just standing by the lake looking into each other's eyes and something happened. I took a step forward, backing her against a tree and she angled her head to one side, looking at me with a half puzzled, half amused expression. I leaned in and kissed her. I KISSED JANE! It was heaven, the way we connected! Magic! Her lips so soft against mine, her body pressed up against me. I think I'm falling in love.

-E.C-

P.S I'm writing just my initials now to save time. More time for me and Jane. LOL sad I know

I couldn't help but smile at my strange diary entries. Yes they were weird but I was fourteen then. Now I'm seventeen going on eighteen. Three years has passed since then and a lot has changed. I'm not the trouble-free boy everyone thinks I am. Not even Ali, Rose, Em, or Jazz know the half of my troubles and I don't want them to know. They've been great friends to me all this time and I wouldn't want them to worry. Sighing, I turned about 20 pages, I knew the entries I was skipping didn't have much but happy memories that pained me to think about them. The entry I was looking for was one containing a memory that would haunt me forever…the day I met her…

Raindrops splatter my window, but what else is there to expect, this is Forks. There is nothing much to do, so I turn to the blank pages of my journal. It's been a while since I've written but today I must. Jane is on holiday and will return in a week, I am alone in the house. My parents are out and so are Ali and Emmett. I have a headache and everything bad around here just reflects my mood. It's been an hour since I met her and yet for some reason I want to see her again. Stupid girl draws me back to her for some reason and I'm not sure this is good. It's just the thought of Jane that keeps me sane right now but I'm not sure how much longer it will last. I like but don't trust Tanya Denali.

The diary entry didn't have many words but it brought back so many memories. I can't believe I ever liked that…There are no words horrible enough to describe her…I felt terrible about everything that had passed so I climbed back into bed beside Bella.

BPOV

I woke up feeling completely refreshed and for some reason very satisfied. Not opening my eyes I rolled to one side, only to find I was trapped under someone's arms. I peeked out from under my eyelids and saw Edward, his eyes closed, holding me to his chest. I was confused as to how I ended up in this position but I wasn't complaining. We were on his bed and taking another peek at the time I saw it was 10:50. Ah…I wondered how long I had been in his arms for. I snuggled closer to him, just making the most of the moment I had right now. I pretended to be asleep so as not to scare him off; if he knew I was awake surely he would leave. I don't know how long I lay there but eventually he released me from his grip. His footsteps were barely audible as he walked across the room but then…CRASH! A pile of some heavy objects, most likely books, thudded to the floor. I decided now was a suitable time to "wake up" so I groggily opened my eyes taking a long time to sit up.

"Morning Edward," I called, making sure my voice sounded sleepy.

"Morning Bella," he smiled back, making my heart skip a beat. Did he have to be so dazzling?

I pulled myself out of bed and tugged my shirt down; it showed enough as it was. Slowly I stretched and yawned before rubbing my eyes.

"What's the plan for today?" I asked, curiously. Knowing Alice it would be something outrageous.

"Dunno, ask Alice."

"Alice…" I groaned and he laughed. Dammit, why was that sound so irresistible? I'd only known him a day. This wasn't supposed to be happening.

"C'mon," he said. "Get dressed so we can go downstairs."

"I daresay your sister would like to approve my wardrobe choice first."

"Oh, forget Alice. If she packed your bag then she would have made sure everything is appropriate for wearing."

"I guess you're right. See you downstairs in five minutes."

"Sure, sure," he replied. "The bathroom's down there." He pointed to a door on my left.

"Thanks."

And with that he left me in his room. I went over to where I had left my bag and went through it to look for something decent to wear. By decent I meant something that looked remotely comfortable. Finally I decided nothing matched my criteria so I just pulled on the dark, skinny jeans Alice had packed and an orange one-off shoulder top. The jeans were fine; they fit just right but the top was too clingy for my taste. It had a black sparkly strap on it so I didn't have to worry about my bra strap showing. I walked over to the door and strolled carefully down the stairs to where the Cullens and Hales were waiting for me.

"Bella," Alice called cheerfully. "You're awake. Finally, I thought you were dead or something."

"Cool it Alice," Edward retorted. "I would never kill Bella…in her sleep." He grinned wolfishly at me, I was taken aback but this smile was just as cute as the crooked smile.

"While Edward continues to be the amazing wolf man, what do you want for breakfast?" Alice asked.

"Not sure…it's too late for breakfast isn't it?"

"It's never too late for breakfast," Emmett shouted, thundering down the stairs.

"He's right you know," Jasper said, speaking for the first time this morning.

"Without breakfast we would all die."

"Shut up Emmett," Rosalie muttered, coming down the stairs too. I didn't know how she did it but she looked amazing even after just waking up.

"Our gang's complete," Emmett said with as much of a sage-like tone as he could muster. "We must now meditate upon our lives."

We all laughed before gathering around the table. Alice fixed us a delicious breakfast of bacon and toast and we wolfed it down hungrily. Emmett ate enough for the whole family it seemed. Finally we were done and we left our plates in the dishwasher.

"Alice, what's the plan for today?" Emmett asked, saving me the trouble of having to inquire about it myself.

"Well…I figured we could watch the video now and then the winners give the dares. That's all I got so far."

"Sounds fine to me."

Ten minutes later we were seated in the living room and Alice had her laptop plugged into the computer. The screen was slowly flicking to life and finally a picture came on to the screen.

We watched Emmett propose to Rose, first with a plastic ring and then a hula hoop. We were practically rolling on the floor by the time Emmett was back on with his box. I could feel the tears streaming down my cheeks as I shook, helpless, with silent laughter. Rose's rejection of Emmett was what pushed us over the edge and my sides hurt so bad from all that laughing.

"Brilliant," Alice shrieked, doubled over with laughter while a slightly more sane Jasper tried to calm her down.

We waited about five minutes to calm down before watching Alice and Jasper's clips. They weren't as funny but were still pretty darn good.

"Ah," Emmett cried out when they kissed. "My eyes, my innocent, innocent eyes! Help me!"

"Shut up Em," Alice said as the box exploded in her face.

"No more kissing." He stated with a firm tone. "I can't take it."

"Same as we can't take it when you tell us what you and Rose got up to last night."

"Shut up."

Finally the sibling fight ended and we were on screen. I blushed crimson countless times and Emmett's booming laughter made me turn an impossible shade of red. I wished the ground would just swallow me whole but it didn't. Eventually the video ended and what seemed like an eternity of torture was over.

"Well," Alice said in a business-like tone. "It's time to take a vote for the winner. Hands up for Rose and Emmett…Hands up for me and Jazz…Hands up for Edward and Bella…"

In the end Rose and Emmett won hands down, with all the votes except their own (Rose voted for Alice and Jasper and Emmett voted for us).

"So guys, whatcha gonna dare us to do?" I asked tentatively.

"I'm glad you asked Bella…I'm glad you asked…"

Sorry…cliffie after two weeks no show. I promise this story is about to get interesting so just hang with me guys. Review, even though I don't deserve it and you will be rewarded. This is my first ever fanfic so go easy on me…Though you are welcome to scold me to the end and beyond for disappearing (I did disappear for a year so I deserve it). I hope you liked the glimpse of Edward's past. Oh and just a fic recommendation…you should check out "A Million More Mistakes" by Stephaniiie. It is amazing, check out her other stories too….mind blowing!