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Chapter 10: Why?

After shift

When shift was done, which was a success all the way around, the team went out for drinks to celebrate, and after an hour and a half, Mike and Ben left to go to their families while the rest of them stayed a little longer.

Towards the end of their gathering, Sara and Josh were sitting diagonally from each other at their table while Billy and Chelsea where further in the back playing a game of darts.

Josh looked over in their direction, shook his head and said with a smile. "Why don't they just get together already."

Sara looked back and saw Billy right behind Chelsea holding her wrist like he was coaching her how to aim and throw the dart, they were also laughing and smiling, then Sara smiled as she looked at Josh again. "Who said they aren't?"

Sara knew that Josh could hold the secret, plus she was sure he would know eventually because Billy and him seemed close.

Josh looked at her a little surprised, then replied after clearing his throat. "Well, I guess that's two shocks today."

They hadn't talked since she dropped the bomb to the team, which is understandable since they weren't working the case together, but in the past when they weren't working the same case they've always managed to say a hi or a little chit-chat when they were walking in the same area, and today it seemed like he was either trying to find ways to avoid her or they just kept missing one another, she couldn't be certain on either scenario. And when the whole team showed up at the bar the atmosphere around them wasn't that bad, but with the comment he just said, it sucked out the relatively good air between them and made it tense.

Sara sighed as she speaks. "Josh, I..."

He cuts her off. "What could've possibly happened between Friday night to Monday morning to make you want to change the life that you have made here the last five years, a life that I thought you liked."

As they looked intently at each other, and before she could respond, Chelsea's voice was heard. "Billy and I are going to leave now." She was going to continue by saying they were of course leaving in their own vehicles but stopped speaking when she suddenly felt that she had walked into a moment between them.

Sara looked at her first and said. "Goodnight you two, I'll see you tomorrow."

They nodded, then after they said goodbye to Josh, Billy and Chelsea walked away and out of the bar after grabbing their jackets.

When she looked at Josh again, she continued to talk. "I do like my life here and I love working with you guys."

"Then why?" He paused a he looked into her eyes, and when Sara looked down at the intense look he was giving her a few seconds later, something seemed to click inside of him. "I understand now, something happened with him, didn't it?" Sara looked up at him immediately, she's never mentioned a specific guy in her past for him to know that, which he explained a second later after shaking his head. "I had always thought it was a something or someone that kept holding you back, but now I believe it is a someone, isn't it?"

Sara had nothing to feel guilty about so she replied without any shame. "Yes and he is the main reason I am leaving."

Josh shook his head again as he grabbed his coat, then as he stood up, he replied. "I knew it."

After placing money on the table he walked away, which Sara was right behind him, so when they both stepped outside, Sara speaks again. "Listen Josh, deep down I know what you thought or hoped would have happened between us when I came back, but I didn't say anything that would guarantee those changes, so I'm sorry that you got hurt, but that's all I am apologizing for, I did nothing wrong."

They had stopped their feet a little ways from his vehicle, then he turned to look at her before replying. "You're right, you didn't say anything about things changing, but I felt it Sara, I know something has been there between us since the beginning."

She paused for a second, then nodded. "Alright I'll give you that, but..."

She gets cuff off by him when he stepped closer to her and cupped her cheek. "Then why leave now before we can see how this will be. Why go back to a life, to him, when it wasn't successful the first time?"

This time she started to have tears in her eyes as she replied. "Because I love him Josh. I've loved him more than I have ever loved another man in my life, regardless of any feelings I've had for others, it's just too strong with him." Josh released her check as she continued after a sniffle. "And when he offered me this real chance to be with him, I couldn't turn it down when I had wanted it longer than I can remember, long before I even met you."

"And how do you know this time will be different?"

"Because he promised me it would be."

"Yeah." Then he said something that neither one would've thought he would ever say to her. "And where were you when he made those promises? His bed?"

Rage filled Sara's eyes as she slapped him and said. "I can't believe you would say something like that to me, and you know nothing about him, he would never use me like that." Then she took a breath as finished. "Besides I had already slept with him before he made the promise." She didn't want to dig the knife further into him then it already felt like, but his words had really hurt her, so she wanted to lash out.

She shook her head a few seconds later before walking past him.

Josh took a breath as he turned and watched her. "Sara I'm sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it."

Sara stopped, turned around and said softly. "I know why you did, you're hurt, and I'm sorry too." She sighed before continuing. "Maybe we can talk about this when you have a clearer head."

He just sighed and nodded before she turned and continued to walk to her vehicle, which he made sure she made it there ok before walking to his vehicle, really ashamed of his attitude/behavior. In theory he just wanted her to be happy, no matter what, but in reality, he wished she would have been happy with him.

Now that, that wasn't going to be the case, he's going to have to find a way to get over her and still be the supportive friend he was before this mess came, which if he really thought about it, it was him that had kind of suggested she go, and that's something he will have to live with the rest of his life.

Right as Sara walked into her apartment, her cellphone started ringing, so after she closed the door, she took her phone off the clip at her hip, looked at the caller ID and smiled when she saw that it was Grissom.

After the day she had, especially the last 15 minutes, she could really use the sound of his voice right about now. It would have been better if she could have his arms too, but she'll take his voice for the time being.

She finally answered a second later. "Hi."

"Hi Honey, how was your day?" She walked to her couch, then as she sat down, she sighed, which Grissom thought it was the case, so he asked. "Did your case get to you?"

"No it isn't that, I told the team today that I was leaving."

"Oh, I see, and it didn't go very well?"

"Actually for the most part it did, but I can tell it was a little hard on them." She didn't want to go into further detail at the moment.

"And how are you doing?"

"I knew it was going to be hard telling them, but it was harder than I thought."

"I'm sorry Sara." He paused before asking. "Are we doing the right thing here?"

She gets a little worried as she asked. "You're not having second thoughts, are you?"

"Of course not, honey, I want you here more than anything." He sighed this time before continuing. "I just feel bad that once again because of me, you're uprooting your life. I just want to make sure that this is truly what you want and you don't feel forced."

Sara started to have tears in her eyes while thinking she can't love him anymore than she did at this moment. "Yeah, I had a pretty good life here and I loved the people I surrounded myself with, but I didn't feel complete, and knowing that we will have something to build on this time, makes me feel more complete than I had ever felt. I truly want this and I don't feel forced whatsoever."

He sighed in relief before replying. "Ok, just making sure. I love you and I don't want you to do anything that will hurt you."

She wiped a tear away as she responded. "I know and I love you too."

They both smiled at their respective ends of the phone before moving on to other subjects, then after a little bit they said their love you's, miss you's, goodbye's, and goodnight's before hanging up.

After she closed her phone she looked around her apartment, then took a breath as she got up, knowing she might as well get started on going through her things so she can start packing to get ready for a new start with the man she loved.

AN: Sara is ready to leave Boston, but will it be that simple? Find out next chapter. Please review.