The arm...
Ever since he first fell from the train, waking up was no longer becoming the pleasure it one was now for Bucky Barnes. As he slowly rose from this present slumber, the first thing that hit him was the harsh coolness of air filling his lungs. He began to wonder if he was still dreaming as this was a very different aroma to that of what he'd experienced over the past several weeks. There was no mass of dampness and decay in the air now. Being replaced with an overwhelming smell of bleach and chemicals.
His eyelids were still closed firmly shut, clinging further onto those happy images of his family. Thoughts turning to Steve and the many times they hung out together back in Brooklyn. He was so Happy back then, so free spirited without a care in the world. If only he could go back and relive those times once more. He'd give his soul to see Steve one last time or hear that calming soothing voice of his beloved mother. As he took a deep breath, Bucky knew that the moment he opened his eyes, those treasured images would fade into nothing. Nothing more than a mere memory. Only leaving him with an intense feeling of detachment and leaving him to explore the empty void of emotions in his mind...
Slowly, Bucky's eyes began to flicker. He gasped suddenly as once his eyes opened there was about 8 doctors surrounding his bed. Each doctor wearing starchy crisp white lab coats and standing emotionless as they circled him. Several began whispering to one another as they scribbled furiously on a clipboard while others began to take several photos of Bucky, blinding him with the deep beam of the flash. Slightly confused, Bucky looked down and could see that he was strapped down by the waist. He tried to wriggle free from the bonds but it was a tight bound and impossible to break free. Desperately he called out to the group of doctors surrounding him but still they stood emotionless, burning deep into Bucky's soul with a deep icy glare
"Asset is now awake and has not noticed changes to limb.." cried one of the doctors into a Dictaphone "limb is now fully functional and following Assets brain activity...Asset seems alert and ready to progress to phase 1 of the winter soldier program..."
Bucky was confused more then ever at the doctors words. He remembered Zola calling him "The asset" previously but what was this talk about a new limb they were going on about? He slowly lifted up his good arm and could see that apart from further increased muscle mass, it was pretty much as it was before. The other half of him felt different though. He tried to raise his shoulder but for some strange reason it felt heavy, like some huge weight was pressing down on it. Panting hard, he gritted his teeth and used all the energy he had to raise the shoulder. Within seconds a full metallic arm prosthetic met his gaze. The shock hit instantly, his eyes widened in shock as his heart beat furiously in his chest. Leaving him feeling dizzy and lightheaded. Bucky whimpered almost child-like at the cold mass of metal in front of him. Tears of shock and deep fear flowing from his eyes...
"WHAT IS THIS? WHAT IS IT?" he cried. Bucky closed his good hand into a ball and much to his surprise so did the metal one, almost in unison "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME? WHY?...WHY?"
The circle of doctors soon parted as there stood the middle was Zola, grinning proudly. There was an even more air of arrogance about him now. Bucky reached out for with the metal arm but it soon became too heavy for him to lift once again and dropped beside him on the mattress. Looking down at this limb, he sobbed even more broken than ever at the metallic mass looking back at him. Desperately he tried to claw at the part attached to his shoulder with his nails and try and remove it but it was useless. Taking all his energy in the process. It was part of him now. He stared continuously for several more minutes at it and could make out the veins pulsating at his shoulder at where the metal met skin..
"Good morning Sgt Barnes.. As you can see now you are ready to become the new fist of HYDRA" Zola's piercing stares pierced deep into Bucky's distraught tear strewn eye's as the distraught soldier continued to desperately pull at the arm "we had to make some minor adjustments but you my asset are READY"
"MINOR?..." The pain at the sheer weight of the limb hit him hard. His heart beat even more furiously In his chest now as a huge rush of adrenaline flew through his veins. Slowly through gritted teeth, he clenched the metal hand into a ball and punched a nearby doctor straight in the face. Blood poured instantly from the mans nose "WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME?' TAKE IT OFF ME...I DONT WANT IT...GET IT OFF... TAKE IT AWAY.."
"that is not an option Asset... We needed you in one piece. That arm is part of you now. Its the symbol of your rebirth and start of your new beginning" the doctor glared further at the distraught sobbing man "phase 1 will now become a reality..."
Gritting through the pain, Bucky used Every last ounce of energy he had to raised his new arm once more. He reached over to another doctor and squeezed at this mans throat. The doctors eyes bulged furiously as Bucky's grip tightened hard and the doctor continued to struggle for air. All the anger and aggression against his captors and tormentors bubbling furiously as he squeezed the doctors neck even more tighter. Zola watched on and smiled. Pleased that he was already seeing signs of Bucky's new super strength and ability. He nodded to another doctor and within seconds Bucky was hit in the arm with a mild sedative. Instantly Bucky released his grip on the doctors throat as his head fell slowly back onto the pillow
"I had a life...I had a life Dammit...I had a family...I had friends" Bucky sobbed struggling to speak as the overwhelming heartbreak hit him "You've taken everything from me now... Everything...I want to die... Please just kill me...I don't want to live anymore "
"but we are giving you a new life Asset...one that will make you a legend" Bucky wanted to so spit in his face so badly right now but the pain he was currently feeling left him exhausted, his mind broken "phase one...begins NOW "