A/N: Who else watched the lunar eclipse! I did! I went to my boyfriend's house with my family (because we live in the city and "my Jacob" lives in the country so you got a better view from his house) and had a blast freezing our asses off ;) But we made amazing memories snuggling under thick blankets for a few hours, laughing and just gazing at the beautiful moon =) Great pre-Christmas gift from God!
I felt no need to repeat everything we already know so I left out Seth and Renesmee explaining everything to Anna. I like it better this way; it flows and doesn't drag. Feed back would be absolutely lovely =)
Renesmee's POV
I watched Seth and Anna walk to the woods together with sad eyes. Everything had gone wrong today. It was heartbreaking to know that Seth now faced the toughest part of Imprinting after so little time with Anna. He had to tell her what he was and there was no telling how she would react. I don't think she'd leave him- considering the Imprint held them together- but there was a chance she would be angry or even avoid him for a while. I didn't want to see Seth go through that.
But I had other things to deal with.
I turned around and my sad eyes turned impenetrably hard. Lonni and Jacob stood before me with completely opposite reactions. Lonni looked almost proud of what he'd done. Whereas Jacob looked sad and so much like a little puppy that had peed on the carpet. I needed to look away from Jake or else I would hug him and let him off the hook.
"Wipe that smug ass look off your face." I told Lonni sternly but he didn't listen to me. Instead he remained happy and proud and I just about slapped him for that. "Do you have any clue what you've done?" I asked, shaking my head at him.
"Hey, the mutt attacked me- I couldn't have prevented that." Lonni defended himself poorly and I felt the anger rocket through me like it was on fire.
"Stop calling him that!" I yelled, my voice coming out louder and harder then I had originally intended. "Jacob isn't calling you anything but your name, so stop calling Jacob obscenities." My voice had its effect though and Lonni quickly composed his look.
"I am so sick and tired of both of you." I said, calming myself a little. "You act like I'm a piece of property that can just be traded and bought. I don't work like that. I'm not a commodity! I'm a freaking person!"
"I never-" Lonni interrupted and I held up a hand to stop him. At least he knew better then to cut me off twice because if he had, the hand I was holding up would have slapped him round the face.
"Just shut up. You both did this to yourselves." I said, trying to calm myself so my next words didn't come out bitchy. I turned to look at Lonni saying, "You."
He looked up with curious eyes. "You don't get to waltz on in and steal the show." I stated my voice surprisingly low. "It doesn't work that way. I'm glad your back," -that wasn't the right thing to say because he smiled, but I continued anyway- "but you have to understand the rules. I'm with Jacob. End of story. There's no room for subchapters or subplots. It's just me and Jake- so you have to stop acting like it's a love triangle." I said sternly and forced myself not to care that Lonni's face fell considerably.
I turned to Jacob. He was watching the house in a weird kind of manner; like something I'd said triggered a memory. I snapped my fingers and he turned to look at me.
"Your turn," I scolded and his shoulders fell. I had to look away. He looked like he might cry! His puppy dog eyes were killing me. I quickly realized why Jacob was never on my bad side; because one look from those eyes, and I forgot what I was going to yell at him about.
"I understand you. Probably better then you understand yourself, Jake." I started out, still not looking at him for fear of losing it. "And I know you understand me as well. But you have to understand more then just me. You have to understand the rules too. Because they apply to you as well."
Jacob's shoulders fell and out of my peripheral vision I saw Lonni smile a little. Jacob stared at his feet. I took a daring move and took a step towards him. I made him look up at me with a hand under his chin.
"No peeing on me, Jacob." I scolded, a tad sarcastic. "Not until you get me that ring." Now I couldn't help but smile at the glisten in Jake's eye. He looked so relived. But I refused him when he reached to me because I was still mad that he'd spoiled this for Seth.
"What?" Lonni asked, bringing me back to the present. His face seemed hard- like he was masking his feelings. "You're…marrying him?" he asked, his mask slipping for a split second before he replaced it.
"Yes, Lonni." I answered honestly, and bluntly. Looking away from his emotionless eyes. He remained impassive about it; sticking to the same hard face as he shrugged indifferently.
I couldn't take the mixed signals!
Anna's POV
I watched Seth speak; concentrating on what he was saying, but also focusing on the feeling of his hand wrapped around mine. I needed some way to make the situation lighter, so I traced nonsensical patters on the back of his hand to levitate the stress. It was working for me, but Seth looked crazy frazzled and jittery.
I listened to him explain it all. It took some time; neither of us moved. He told me everything- from all his La Push tribe legends to the strange thing he called Imprinting. It was a lot to take in, but I felt unusually high.
I smiled.
"What…why are you smiling?" he asked, shocking and taken back. I giggled and he literally moved back an inch in shock. "Anna?"
"I'm sorry," I said, sobering up. "I'm just really relieved." He still looked confused- if not more now then he was before. "I finally know why you're so appealing to me. Like I'm not such a moron for concluding that it was all magic…because it was." I replied easily, smiling despite myself.
Seth was slow to believe. "You're relieved to know your dating a werewolf?" he asked, clarifying what I just said. I shrugged; focusing on the blade of grass I'd pulled out of the ground and was twirling between my fingers.
"Are we dating?" I asked shyly, unsure of what the hell Seth and I were doing.
Then he laughed. Uproariously, rocking back and forth, before he tackled me in a hug. I was taken back for a second, but started laughing with him.
"I tell you I'm a freaking shape shifting werewolf, and you're more concerned about our label. You silly girl." he said with a chuckle as he hugged me tightly, picking me up and spinning me around. It was like I was flying.
"I honestly don't care what you are, Seth. I'm just glad I understand now. Sure, it'll take some getting used to, but I can deal. As long as I don't lose you." I murmured then slapped my hand over my mouth. That was way too much for this early in our relationship- that much I knew.
Seth chuckled, moving my hand. "You'll never lose me." he promised and replaced my fingers with his lips.
It was the first time Seth had ever kissed me; I saw stars. It was the softest of kisses; like angel wings sweeping over my lips. It was the sweetest as well; better then any fruit I'd ever tasted. And while I was with Seth, I was in the skies, flying higher then high. I felt like I might burst.
My toes curled and little butterflies flew up in my stomach, swirling in a frenzy. I couldn't control myself. At. All.
But Seth pulled away before I was finished reveling in heaven. He pulled back and rested his forehead against mine. I'd never had a kiss like that, and the little moment we shared afterwards was almost better then the kiss itself. I'd never felt anything like this before in my life. I was definitely falling for Seth and by the way he explained this thing called Imprinting, that's the way it was supposed to be.
"You want to go talk to Ness?" he whispered, his face still dangerously close to mine. I gulped. Ness. That wasn't an easy one.
Seth had told me some stuff about her and the Cullen's while he was telling me the truth about him and Jacob and what he called The Pack. That secret was harder to process then Seth's secret.
He'd called them the Cold Ones in the legends, and I almost regret asking what that meant. Sure I'd had some suspicious about the Cullen's but never in forever would I have guess they were…vampires.
That seemed so illogically unrealistic. But then again, if Seth could be a werewolf, how come Ren couldn't be a vampire?
It fit- just like Seth and the wolves. It made sense. It was just hard to wrap my mind around and think about. I needed to talk to Ren about a million different things. What do they eat? Why do they act so normal? Is that the reason for the topaz eye color of her family; along with the pale, cold, hard skin? And so many more. Questions bounced around my head like children on a trampoline. But Seth didn't want to answer them. He wanted Ren to disclose those answers.
I shuffled away from Seth grudgingly, nodding my head. He took up my hand and lead the way back through the forest to the Cullen's place. More questions bounced around my head.
I would get answers from Ren; I'd call my mom then spend the night- because there's no way in hell I'll be able to sleep after today.
Renesmee's POV
Anna staid the night, not only Saturday (the day the shit hit the fan with Lonni and Jacob) but Sunday as well. Her willingness to look past the "minute details" (as she liked to put it) amazed me. She was completely excepting of what me and my family were. Even more excepting then Mama was when she first found out about Daddy and Jacob! I loved Anna more and more.
But come Monday I was in one of those moods. Because I'd spent the weekend fighting with Jake and Lonni. It was ridiculous the fights those boys could get into. I was constantly breaking them up, or intervening. Which always lead to a fight between me and each boy. I'd always fought with Jacob in an almost playful way- we'd never gone more then a few hours without talking and we never let the other go more then a day while angry- but this was different.
Jake was overly protective and Lonni was overly possessive. I felt like a commodity again and I absolutely hated it. So I wasn't exactly cheery when I entered my worst class Monday.
I was fantastic at science but my teacher was terribly haughty. And he always called on me- almost to prove me wrong or maybe to ostracize me from my classmates. Whatever his reasons, he always called on me while I was doing something else.
Today, it was drawing aimlessly on my notebook with Sharpies. He cleared his throat and called, "Miss Cullen. Please explain to me what a thermoconformer is." to me. I looked up to meet Mr. Banner's eyes and I could tell he thought I wasn't listening and wouldn't know the answer. He wanted to call me out and make a fool of me. I smiled.
"A thermoconformer is a being with the unique ability to control its inner body temperature according to the atmospheric conditions surrounding it. I.e.; cooling it off when it's hot or warming itself up when it's cold. Thermoregulation is common in mammals"- and Jacob, I added mentally- "and is in direct contrast to bioscience, wherein a lower body temperature would make a life form less able to withstand the cold; considering a colder body temperature would be required in order to maintain homeostasis." I said confidently- okay, maybe a tad cocky.
Mr. Banner frowned deeply and Anna covered a chuckle with a cough. Everyone in the room fell silent as they stared at me. I smiled innocently.
"If you know so much about the inner working of the body. Tell me what category dopamine falls under in the chemicals?" Mr. Banner challenged eagerly. I smiled. Could he have given an easer question?
"It's a catecholamine neurotransmitter." I replied equally as confident and everyone- except for Mr. Banner- covered their laughter with coughs.
"And that means?"
"Which means it sends a message in your brain telling you that you think that girl you're looking at is fitter to make offspring with then any other dame." Mr. Banner looked really pissed…so I continued. "But dopamine is just one half of the tale; the chemical that get's you in the mood." I turned to face my classmates because I was feeling spunky. "There's another guy that you'll need to prevail, if you want to see your partner in the nude. Cause dopamine is useless without norepinephrine. He's focusing your efforts on one girl; telling you that she's the one who's making your head spin, if this were an oyster then she'd be the pearl-"
Mr. Banner stopped me there and immediately sent me to the principles office. I walked out smiling as my class cheered me on.
"You did what!" Edward barked as I told him why I was home late from school. I smiled as I told the story and everyone laughed…with the exception of my overbearing father. I laughed.
"Everyone at that school like's to try to get the slip on me. I'm not going to let them." I told him simply, chuckling as I recalled the bright shade of red Mr. Banner's face had turned that made the punishment so worth it. Jacob was practically glowing with pride as he draped his arm across my shoulders. He found my spunky humor charming- even if Dad thought it was inappropriate.
"Renesmee, do you realize how threatening that is to our secret? Its bad enough Anna now knows-"
I cut him off, a little angry. "Anna isn't going to tell a soul, and you know it Dad. And how is being sarcastic dangerous? All the students loved it! Mrs. Banner is the only one who was red-faced and it's not like he's going to guess our secret." I said, sitting up on the couch next to Jacob.
"This kind of thing can't happen, Renesmee. I'll let it go this once, but it cannot happen anymore. Never again." he scolded and I no longer found the situation humors.
There was something wrong with my dad. Something really wrong. He was never this overbearing before. Sure, he was insanely protective, but that's just Edward. He was taking everything too seriously, and suddenly he was treating me like a child- and he'd never done that before. He always treated me like an adult; even when I was really little.
He always talked to me like he would talk to anyone else, and he never belittled me. But ever since I started hanging out with Anna he's been doing just that. Almost like he's stepped out of his Edward shoes and slipped into his father shoes. I didn't like these stupid father shoes.
I stood up, giving him a face as I said, "Well thank you your heinous." before storming upstairs. I'd just about had enough of this insane family.
I counted only ten seconds before a knock sounded on my bedroom door. I groaned into my pillow where I'd buried my face. Mamma let herself in.
"Hey, Spunky. What's with the tude?" she asked with a delicate chuckle as she sat on the bed next to me. She won; I laughed a little.
"What's wrong with him?" I asked seriously, sitting up to look her in the eye. She sighed, seeming to debate a few things in her mind.
"Its very complicated and I honestly don't understand it all…but I think Edward is just scared." she finally said after a long pause. My jaw dropped.
"Scared? Edward Cullen? Scared…ha! That's a funny one." I replied sarcastically- because apparently I'm good at that sort of thing. Mama touched my hand lightly.
"Everyone gets scared sometimes. Even Edward Cullen. And right now he's scared because his little girl is growing into a lady and he doesn't want to lose you."
"But why can't he see that smothering me isn't helping?"
"He may be an incredibly smart man, but he's still a man." she teased lightly. "He's blinded by his desires, like all other men. He wants to keep you his little girl- the little girl that did everything right and who never talked back to him. He nearly lost you, love. He's scared that might happen again."
I held my breath. If Daddy thought he was losing me now…
"I have to talk to you." I said, my face resembling that of a deer caught in car headlights. She immediately looked concerned and so I set my hand against her cheek and showed her the discussion Jake and I had Friday.
I left out the gory details and gave her the general gist of the evening and made sure to show her my elation to know Jake wanted to marry me. Her face remained passive as she watched my picture show. But she remained a stone figure even after I removed my hand from her face.
"He…" was all she could whisper. I was sure that if vampires could cry, my mother would be sobbing on my bed. I wasn't sure if they would be happy tears though, and that worried me. Usually I could tell if she was happy or sad. Now I couldn't tell a thing.
"Jake…asked you to marry him?" she whispered in a thick voice. She so badly needed to cry but her body wouldn't let her. I touched her hand comfortingly. She didn't need an answer; she already knew the answer.
"Wow…that was fast." she murmured but soon enough she smiled tenderly at me. "I'm so happy for you both." she sang and hugged me tight, and I felt a little remorseful for telling her without first talking to Jake about it.
"Really? You're happy your seven year old is getting married?" I teased and she laughed with me, mussing my hair playfully.
"Please. You were born middle-aged."
A/N: I'm sad to admit that I did not come up with the dopamine section =( they are in fact lyrics from the most amazing song EVER called Chemical Love by the lovely Charlie McDonnell. You can hear this song- and other amazingly awesome songs by Charlie- on his YouTube channel Charliessocoollike. Or at
Also, I won't be uploading again until after Christmas. Everything is way too hectic around here for me to spend enough time on my writing. But once the holly jolly season has passed I'll be back to uploading ridiculously fast =)
Thank you for reading my lovelies!