Olivia stopped in the living room and looked around. There was no fire built in the fire place and no sign of Alex.

"Alex" Olivia called out.

"I'm in the room to your left."

Olivia turned and noticed the orange glow coming from the room and walked toward it. When she entered the room she stopped to survey her surroundings. The room was a dark contrast from the rest of the house. The couch had seen better day and the back looked like a cat had used it as a scratching post. The book cases paint was peeling and most books appeared to come from a second hand store. The lamps and desk looked as if they were picked up from the side of the road.

"Are you going to come sit by me or just stare at the room?" Alex asked looking at Olivia.

Olivia took one more look and walked toward Alex. She couldn't help but laugh when she saw what Alex was sitting on.

"What is that Alex?"

"What?"

"Whatever it is you're sitting on?"

"They are called gaming chairs. They are actually quite comfortable and I have found a way to plug my I pod in so when I'm in here reading I can listen to music."

Olivia handed Alex her beer and shook her head as she took the gaming chair next to Alex. She had to admit just when she thought she had Alex figured out she would do something that made her second guess her opinions.

"What is this room Alex? It looks like you went shopping at the Salvation Army." Not that was a bad thing but Olivia could never picture Alex in a Salvation Army shopping.

"Some of the furniture was bought at the Salvation Army other pieces I picked up at yard sales when I moved out on my own. Everything you see here is what I started out with."

"I'm sorry I thought you came from money. Why not have rooms to go to deliver all new stuff."

"Olivia" Alex said turning to face Olivia "I do have money and plenty of it but I don't let it run me. When I moved out on my own I wanted to prove that I could make it. I bought everything on my own and without the assistance of my trust fund."

Olivia just nodded to shocked at what Alex had just told her to form any words.

"Now you it's my turn to ask some questions." Alex informed Olivia while watching her out of the corner of her eye. She couldn't help but notice how tense and pale Olivia suddenly had became.

"Go ahead" Olivia said through clenched teeth before taking a long swig of her beer.

"How long have you been on the force and how many of those years have you spent with SVU?"

Olivia couldn't help but let her shock show "This is what you want to know?"

"This among other things so how long?"

"I have been with NYPD for eight years now and four of those have been with SVU."

"Did you chose SVU or did the brass chose it for you?"

"I chose it. Now it's my turn for questions."

"Ok. What do you want to know?"

"If you are determined to make it off your ADA's salary then how do you afford this apartment?"

"I own it." Alex said matter of fact causing Olivia to choke on her beer.

"You own it?"

"Yes I do. I inherited it from my grandfather. He had four complexes' that was divided between his grandchildren. I figured I could move in here save some money till I can buy the house I want."

"Why do that? Alex you obviously have plenty of money so do it now."

"Because it's something I can do on my own. I don't have to rely upon my family's riches to do it."

"Makes sense. What did your family do to earn all this money?"

"My great grandfather started it with the steel business. When my grandfather inherited the business he expanded it to include real estate. My father inherited it about eight years ago and expanded it to include construction. My turn again. Who was your first girlfriend?"

"Mary Conner in the eleventh grade. Who was yours?"

"Serena Thompson in my junior year of law school."

"Who was the first woman you slept with?"

"Mary Conner. You?"

"Serena Thompson."

"Alex when did you come out to your parents and how did they take it?"

"A year after I started working as your ADA. Mom wasn't exactly thrilled about it because she had been planning my wedding since I was three but dad wants me happy."

Olivia felt a pang of jealously run through her. She would have given anything to have a mother who planned her wedding and a dad who just wanted her happy.

The change in Olivia didn't go unnoticed by Alex. Mentally she kicked herself for saying what she said. Both of them was relaxed and enjoying themselves and each other. On the other hand this was a chance for Alex to ask Liv about her family. The only question was did she really want to push Olivia that far so soon. She may regret it later but she decided to take the opening.

"How did your parents take it?"

"They took it ok."

"Define ok?"

"Alex will you please let it go."

Alex looked over at Olivia and smiled "Ok. I'm going to grab another one do you want one?" Alex asked as she walked toward the door.

Olivia always made sure she stopped at two drinks no matter what. She was so afraid that if she ever let loose she would become the alcoholic her mother was. Normally she would have said no but she knew she needed the liquid courage to tell Alex what she deserved. The truth.

"Please."

Alex walked into the kitchen forming a plan in her mind about how to get Olivia to open up without running. The only thought that crossed her mind was to tie her down. Granted she had wanted to tie Olivia down since she met her. But that was to her bed while she did some things that would make a sailor blush with shame. If she couldn't tie her down she could pin her. Which is what she decided to do as she walked back into her den.

"Here you go." Alex said handing Olivia a fresh cold beer.

"Thank you."

Alex reached down and tousled Olivia's hair "Your welcome." She walked to her gaming chair and pulled it closer to Olivia's. She figured if she acted like she wanted to sit closer it might throw Olivia off long enough for her to go through with her plan. Then she saw her opportunity when Olivia closed her eyes and rested her head on the back of the chair.

Olivia's eyes shot open when she felt the weight pressing on her. She felt her breath catch in her throat when she realized Alex was inches from her face.

"Hi."

Olivia visibly swallowed "Hello."

"I have told you about my parents now tell me about yours." Alex whispered against Olivia's ear.

"Alex please let it go."

"Why" Alex asked as she slowly kissed her way down Olivia's chin nipping in spots.

"Because you don't know what you're asking."

"I want to know." Alex whispered against Olivia's neck before gently biting down.

"No you don't." Olivia said as she grabbed Alex's wrist and tried to push her up off her amazed at the amount of strength Alex had.

"What is so bad about me knowing your history Olivia?"

"Because once you know you will hate me and be scared of me. Right now I like the fact that you are interested in me and want to spend time with me. I really don't want to ruin that."

"Olivia nothing you have to tell me will change about how I feel about you."

"You say that now."

"I mean it so please share with me. Will you do that? Do you trust me enough as a colleague and future lover to share it with me?"

Why did she say that? Olivia thought to herself. Do I trust her? After thinking for a few minutes she realized she did. She trusted her as she did Elliot. Something that never happened with anyone outside the squad. True technically Alex was part of the squad but she wasn't "family" per se. She knew what lengths the guys would go for her but not Alex. She had no clue where Alex drew the line. If Alex drew a line? There was only one way to find out. That was to take Elliot's advice and pray it didn't end her up in hot water like it usually did.

"Fine you want to know. Here it is. My mother was a senior in college when she was raped. Abortion was not an option so nine months later I was born. Why she chose to keep me I'll never know. She became an alcoholic because she couldn't stand the sight of me. At sixteen she came after me and I kicked my mother so hard I was afraid I had killed her. I called someone named Simone Bryce and she helped me escape. I put myself through college and then joined the academy. The first opening I saw in SVU I requested a transfer and was approved. This is my way of getting justice for my mother. Her rapist was never caught. Half my genes is a violent rapist and the other half is an alcoholic. So when I say I am damaged goods and you deserve better I mean it. Do yourself a favor and find you someone who has something to offer you. Someone who doesn't run the risk of becoming drunk or god forbid rape you one night when she can't control her urges anymore."

Olivia exhaled and hung her head. She didn't want Alex to see the lonely tear that fell down her cheek. She certainly didn't want to see the horror and rejection that she knew was waiting for her in Alex's eyes.