Greetings from the land of Oh-my-yaoi. Yeah this seemed to be my vacation spot. So I am sorry for the longer then usual update time. Not only have i been watching a lot of yaoi manga, I also added Heroes to my list of summer watching. I know you're probably like OMG you didn't watch Heroes?.. I know I am a huge geek so I was either working, reading or writing some girl love stories while that was going on. Thanks to Netflixs I am catching up though... Alright so I have to put a disclaimer on this chapter... It contains a lemon... my first... and of course its BxB so yeah don't like don't read. I also would like one brave soul to review and be like..lemon sucked or lemon was alright or something so I know where I stand. I usally write from experience but since I'm a girl I can't really do the bxb. I bet I've got you thinking now about all that girl on girl action I write in FP lol. If anyone is curious I use the same name in FP without the number. On to the story people. Hope you enjoy

Two weeks since Shikamaru had been home. Two weeks since Neji's community service started. It was his punishment for defending himself against those shinobi. It was light punishment but then again he hadn't used forbidden jutsu. Two weeks since Neji laid in bed beside him and did absolutely nothing. Their silences were heavy nowadays and uncomfortable. Ino had moved back to her place with Choji and now their routine was strained. They still did the same things but it was different because of three little words. "I love you". Shikamaru wasn't the type to drag stuff out and he wasn't the type not to find a solution to the problem but when it was matters of the heart, it was more complicated. He didn't think when he'd uttered those words that Neji would act in such a way. He thought Neji loved him too. He was almost certain of it so what was the hold up? Why the silent treatment? Shikamaru couldn't figure it out. He sat a the Broken Kunai in the very same booth he and Neji had occupied and drank his sake hoping he would come up with the answer or forget his problem. He was on his third bottle when he felt a chakra he didn't want to feel..

"Aw man this is past troublesome. I am not drunk enough for this.. please come back after I've had like six more of these"

"I wanted to speak with you without the Hyuuga interrupting."

"You've done so in the past why don't you be honest and say you wanted to speak to me without the Hyuuga introducing a gentle fist up your ass. Seriously Shy… you told him about us, knowing you probably at a bad time. He was insecure already and it sent him over the edge. He apologized you don't need to now please let me alone."

"It's not why I came why would I apologize for something I didn't do?"

Shikamaru signaled for another bottle and waited. The bottle came and he drank it in two sips and said

"so why did you come and please don't tell me it's that I want to be with you again thing"

"No I just wanted to know how you were feeling. I heard you almost died and then nothing. I know we can't be like we were before. I am coming to terms with that but perhaps we can be friends?"

"How does Kiba feel about you being friends with me?"

"I am not sure I assume he wouldn't be happy but we aren't together. You were right I was never suited for him. I chased the idea of taming a wild dog when I had what I wanted all along."

"Look I appreciate the honesty. I don't know about the friendship I have a lot on my plate at the moment."

"Fine how would the Hyuuga feel about us being friends?"

"I don't think he gives a damn. He knows how I feel about him, even if he doesn't know how he feels about me" Shino cocked a brow and Shikamaru shook his head no.

"No way are we getting into this right now, please leave and let me get back to getting drunk"

"Fine but you know how to find me if you need me." Then he left. Shikamaru went back to his agenda and ordered another bottle of sake. A few bottles later he knew he was reaching his limit. He had always been an enthousiastic drunk but he knew his limit and it was staring at him in the eyes. All six bottles of sake lined up neatly. He asked for a bottle of water, a glass of water and his bill. It was somewhere around ten or eleven pm. Time to get home. All the items came right on time. He drank the glass paid his tab and tripped on his way out of his booth into a mountain of muscles that smelled faintly of sweat and blood.

"Ah…ssshhit Ibiki sorry about that gotta go bye" He made like his shadows and practically disappeared out the door but the tree trunk of a man was fast and he caught him outside and pulled him into the alley.

"Not so fast Nara"

"umm look I said I was sorry both times.. nothing personal."

Ibiki leaned forward so Shikamaru had to nowhere to go except into the wall and try as he might he didn't know that particular jutsu. Ibiki was warm and the sweaty blood scent was stronger. It was like salty metal.

"Oh its personal Nara especially when you go around talking about something you have no proof of?. You don't know how many shinobi I've had to interrogate and torture because they ran their mouth to the wrong person."

"Ano… It's too troublesome to gossip like a fucking girl, I didn't say anything to anyone about your preferences" he knew the moment he said it it was the wrong word to use. He had no idea why. The tall, warm interrogation specialist got a certain fire in his eyes like when he got really passionate about his job. This was worse than Tsunade's look of pain and torture at least with her you' get knocked out after the pain.. Ibiki liked it when you stayed conscious.

"You saying you didn't use that pretty mouth for anything other than make your guy cum? You telling me you didn't used that tongue of yours for anything other than to lick and suck your pretty boy's dick before you rode him. Drunk shikamaru equaled enthousiastic horny shikamaru for the most part and Ibiki's roughened voice ran over his skin like a heat wave leaving a series of goosebumps. He shivered and said "Fuck shut up Ibiki, Just shut up. I didn't rat about your tendencies ok"

Ibiki wasn't number one in konohana interrogation and torture squad for nothing he found a weakness and picked at it.

"Kami…. You like being talked dirty to…and you got excited about when I said rode him.. You thought I meant that literally… Shikamaru Nara.. you're a bottom.. Ah.. shit that's funny." He said and laughed. His laugh was close to Shikamaru's ear and it felt good to get any kind of attention. However Shikamaru wasn't a whore.. He loved Neji and it was Neji he craved attention from.

"Look we good here.. I kinda need to go."

"Oh yeah we're great you tell Neji that if he isn't willing to give your ass what it wants or if its not enough I got plenty and I am more than able and willing."

"Why don't you tell me yourself Ibiki" Both shinobi heard the cold deadly voice and looked to see Neji in dark jeans and a dark top eyes blazing mad.

"Well you heard me so we're good. I'm out of here" Ibiki left via the same alley entrance that Neji was standing in and bumped his shoulder. Neji turned around and stalked home a cloud of menace and deadly intent surrounding him. How dare that shadow nin say he loved him and then be in a dark alley letting himself be groped by Ibiki of all fucking people. He'd seen the look on Shikamaru 's face.. it was one of want. The Hyuuga had seen it directed at him enough to know. Did that mean Shikamaru wanted Ibiki and him? Did that mean that he no longer loved the Hyuuga. He fucking knew it. He knew shikamaru would fail him someday, push him out, leave him and today was that day. He crossed the door of the apartment went into Shikamaru's room first to pick up the little stuff he had there and then he went into his room to pack the rest of his things. He passed the living room and a very shocked Nara with an unlit cigarette hanging out of his mouth.

"Give me a fucking break Neji, really this is your fucking solution huh to just fucking leave?" He screamed and threw his pack of cigarettes with deadly aim at the back of Neji's head. The Hyuuga turned around and the look on his face would have killed a lesser man.

"You screwing with me Nara? Or is that problem as Ibiki indicated, you're not being screwed by me so you go throw yourself at the first man that comes. Or maybe you liked him from before.. maybe you two had a thing going after all you licked him."

The Nara said nothing just walked up to Neji and punched him, Neji moved out of the way a split second before the hit connected and Shikamaru hit nothing but air. He laughed a bitter laugh and said

"I should have known you'd duck, tuck your tail in and run away because that's what you do right.. when things get tough you fucking run, retreat , fling accusations. Anything instead of standing there and taking it like a man, owning up to your mistakes, looking for a fucking solution. You think I tell people I love them every day? You think I was joking? That this was some kind of game? I fucking love you you bastard and you're being a grade A asshole. I can take it if you don't feel the same way just say it, if you still love that other Hyuuga fine but say something you fucking prick don't just leave."

The end of that sentence quivered and showed the emotions that shikamaru had been trying to hide the past weeks since he'd uttered the words that had changed their lives. It surged out of him and left him stripped, bare miserable. Shikamaru brought a tanned hand to his eye to wipe away a tear he had no idea where it had come from. Then he picked up his pack of cigarettes and walked to the balcony.

Before he reached it he felt a tug at his arm and he was slammed against the glass so hard he thought it would break.

"What the fuck do you want me to say Nara? That I am so emotionally stupid that I don't know if I love you or not? How could I ? I don't have much experience with it? Or perhaps you want me to tell you that seeing you hurt possibly dying scared the shit out of me so much but what utterly terrified me was that I didn't even know it would scare me. Somehow like the smoke in those damn cigarettes you got under my fucking skin. Better yet how about how I cannot sleep without you in my arms and how I hold myself away from you because I am positive that if I gave in to what my body wants you would totally suck me in, break me and leave me without a marker, without direction, without hope. Shikamaru I don't think you understand you and I have the power to break each other down and I for one don't want to see it happen."

"Neji this isn't something I can tell you, you have to experience it yourself but I think you love me too and if that's the case then I want you to break me, there is more than one way to break someone and maybe the reason we are together is that we need breaking, we need to start fresh but cannot until we break down what we have had and rebuild."

"What are you saying?" Neji said he almost whispered it because the crazy genius actually kind of made sense and because he was scared of what it meant. Shikamaru didn't utter a word in response. He just grabbed Neji by the neck and pulled him closer so they could kiss. The kiss was slow at first but it gained momentum, intensity and as soon as they broke for air Shikamaru pulled Neji's hair so as to expose his neck. He nuzzeled The Hyuuga behind the ear and down his neck he wishpered "Break me Neji and we'll deal with the rest later, fuck me, mark me and we'll see where we go from there but I don't want today to end without you being buried deep within me." His words set about a chain reaction in the usually patient and calm prideful nin. He growled and tackled Shika to the ground and said

"Shit Shika you can't say shit like that and expect me not to be affected."

"I want you to be affected, I want you to be affected enough to fuck me Neji."

The Nara couldn't have said anything more even if he wanted to. Neji pulled Shika's hair out and set about feasting on his neck,sucking, biting, laving it and then he nibbled on Shika's collar bone. The Nara's vocabulary was reduced to sounds that couldn't even be called words. His flack Jacket was gone and then his shirt was gone. Neji played with one over sensitive nipple and then the other. Shikamaru writhed and shivered and moaned beneath him. He didn't have patience with Shika's pants he just took a kunai out of Shika's pouch and cut them down. When he had the Nara naked he just sat back and looked at him. The man was gorgeous all tan skin and shadows, angles and lines. His face was slightly reddened by their exertions and his full lips and pink tongue were temptation itself.

Shika opened his eyes, lust filled and half lidded and Neji groaned

"Kami but you're a fine specimen."

"Umm thanks" Shika said licking his lips

"You also have a beautiful fucking dick"

He eyed the subject of his sentence as he said it. Shikamaru's dick was the stuff that dildos were made from.. all tall and proud and with that one vein pulsing down the underside. He wasn't as thick as he was tall but still it was well proportioned. Neji knew he was smaller then the Nara but what he lacked in length to shikamaru because really who walked around with a ruler sized dick? He made up for in thickness and Neji was only three inches smaller..9 to Shikamaru's 12 inches. Neji wasted no time he licked and sucked his way to that tall proud cock and then he tasted it and the taste was totally unique and totally shikamaru's. The younger nin started to thrust into the wetr cavern that was giving him so much pleasure and he barely noticed the fact that Neji inserted one finger into him. He felt the second and tensed a little but Neji was doing such a great job sucking him off he didn't care. It was the third one that stopped the pleasure for him.

"Neji"

"It's ok baby it has to be done trust me I am thicker than most." Shikamaru took a deep breath and tried to relax. Neji found Shika's prostate and that brought a pleasured groan from the man. Neji took out his fingers and put his mouth where his fingers had been.

"Ahhh! What….The… Hell…. Neji.. this..I've never…Ssshhit"

Shikamaru thrashed his head about and vaguely registered that they were on the floor of their living room and that someone was watching them from the roof across the building. Just then Neji stuck a chakra laced finger into him and he went back to sounds instead of words or thoughts. Neji couldn't take it anymore Shikamaru was wet, tight and ready. He wanted lube but there was no way he was leaving this ass to get lube and besides he had been told to break the man. He spat in his hand whined when the friction from his wet hand turned him on and nearly choked on his own spit when Shika flipped over and got on all fours Neji's dick firmly in his mouth. Neji registered that they were in front of an clear glass floor to ceiling window pane. He also registered the person's chakra that was watching them he was about to tell shika to stop when Shika deep throated him, his dick actually curved in Shika's mouth and Neji had to use all his breathing technics not to cum down his lover's throat. He pulled his dick out of that warm throat with an audible pop and with one thrust was past the protesting ring of muscles and into shikamaru's slick heat.

"Ahh, shit Shika someone is watching we should stop, take it in the room" he said as he punctuated each word with a deep thrust.

"Stop and I'll kill you myself, let the pervert watch, kill him later to keep him silent I don't care as long as you don't stop what you're doing." Shikamaru bore down and leaned up to kiss Neji whose eyes rolled in the back of his head even as he shared a wet and sloppy kiss with his lover.

"Um shika baby don't do that I'm going to punish you if you make me cum early. Better yet turn over"

Shikamaru was trying to understand the command when he was flipped around with strength and presision. All of a sudden he was on his knees ass up in the air and hands holding on to the glass. The first thrust in that position not only went deeper but hit his prostate dead on.

"AAHH Shit Neji that's it right there" he said and spread his legs a little more got a little more leverage and it wasn't long before he was pushing back on that cock.

"Shika .. umm.. baby.. I am so close, you feel so good." Shika braced himself against the glass and started to rock his ass backwards but in a slow wind, or a deep grind. Shikamaru heard Neji's jaw click as he tried to lock it. The next thing he said he spoke through his teeth. He grabbed Shika's arms with one hand and pinned them both back. He used his own hair tie to tie down the Nara's hands and he said "There'll be no more of that. You cum first." With The Nara's hands behind him he thought he was safe. He took his time kissing Shika's neck and jaw and a sloppy mouth kiss. Shikamaru shivered when he heard "watch as I fuck you, watch yourself cum for me Shika, watch how much you love this dick" Neji nudged Shikamaru to face the glass where their reflection stared back at them because of the light. Then he took his hands and proceeded to jack the Nara off as he thrust into him from below. The Nara was making all kinds of delicious sounds and screams and at the pace they set he was practically bouncing on Neji's dick. Neji watched Shika watch them and Shika was focused on the point where the two met. That is to say he watched licking his lips and making those sounds as Neji's dick slipped and slapped in and out of him.

"Neeji.. close, shit so fucking good" Shikamaru panted out of breath yet looking for more.

"Fuck Yeah Shika you so fucking tight, so fucking good" Shikamaru came first he threw his head back and let out a deep "Fuuuck" . His climax tightened his muscles and ripped Neji's climax out of him.

"SHIKA" Neji screamed and then he bit Shika on the meat between neck and shoulder. He struggled not to spill them both backwards. Shika's cum splashed gummy on his chest and the window and the two nins sat spent and tried to relearn how to breath. Neji found his strength someone and carried lazy almost sleep Shikamaru to the bathroom with his hands still tied behind him. Neji showered them both as Shika was almost comatose then he took them both to bed. They both had early days tomorrow but at least they were past the hard part.