"I think I love you"

She immediatly pulled her head back from the possition it was in in his neck with a scared look on her face.

She immediatly pushed him away from her and went towards her cloaths.

"Mer, don't run. I know you like to run but now there is no where to run to. I planed to tell you tonight on a boat so you couldn't run. I love you please don't run from this." He said putting on his cloaths as she did.

"You did it on a boat so I couldn't get away from you." She said in a harsh toan. "Ok I am going outside to think. Don't follow me." She said turning around and walking out of the door to the outside.

She sat down on a bench outside and let the wind blow over her entire body. She immediatly got goose bumps from the cold night ocean breeze. The short sleave shirt was looking like a bad idea but then again this whole night was looking like a prety bad idea now.

Did she love him? Could she love him? Yes she totally loved him. But she loved her father. She loved her mother. Everyone who she loved, left. She couldn't handle it if he left. He was different from her father who acctually left. He was different from her mother who emotionaly left her. The man she loved had cheated on her then didn't fight for her when she told him it was over. Face it. Everyone who she told that she loved them left. It was fate and she knew she couldn't fight it. She just couldn't. She picked up her phone calling home hoping to get Izzy. Christina would say jump off the boat and swim away from him as fast as she could. George answered.

"Meredith where are you."

"Sorry I was on a date with Derek." She started to cry.

"Mer, whats wrong." George loved Derek. Since we had all been friends since high school there had always been just him as the boy but now with Derek he had a man or as they said 'leveled out the estrogen-testostorone levels in our group.'

"Nothing is Izzy there I have something to talk to her about."

"No she is not talk to me about it." He said concerningly.

"Its...just...He told me he loved me." She said quickly.

"Mer, thats awsome why are you calling me now shouldn't you guys be jumping eachother."

"Its just I didn't say it back."

"Why not don't you love him?"

"Yes of course I do its just that...What if he leaves like everyone else." She says letting all of the tears fall just thinking of him leaving.

"Meredith, He won't leave you but if you leave him, you will change who he is. Do you know what kind of miracle it is that Derek is who he is? Do you know how rare it is that someone like him even exists? He's an optimist. He still believes in true love and soulmates. He's waiting for you."

"Ok. I can do this." she said taking a deep breath.

"Good just keep telling your self that and you will be fine. Bye Meredith."

She got up after hanging up the phone and went to the side of the boat. She hung from the metal handle bar looking over the bay. She could do this. She would do this. And it would be great.

She heard a creak and with out having any time to react the bar that kept her away from the bay broke.