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Chapter 10

John

John hadn't felt so many emotions in a long while, but as he heard news that Emily was gone… He had been paralyzed with fear.

He had contacted Jacob to ask how things were going with her, to see if there was any way for him to get her back or hear if maybe she had managed to escape somehow. But all Jacob had told him was that she was gone. He had to press for further information, about what had happened, Jacob had only told him that he had left her in that room with his psychological experience shit, and as he had gone back to check on his test objects, that she was gone.

Probably dead like his other test objects and taken by the Whitetails' and buried. That's what they usually did with the ones they found dead. They had left some behind, probably not their own people and they were also dead. They hadn't been strong enough, was all Jacob had to say to this. They had all been too weak.

John was beside himself. He knew Jacob wasn't one to follow Joseph's orders, or anyone's really, but he had hoped that he would have given Emily a bit more importance. That the interest Joseph and he had given to her would have meant something to him.

But he was all about his sick weak and strong bullshit. He knew he had been through rough shit and that he had no sense for a life's worth, but he thought that deep down Jacob would still care enough for his brothers and what was of importance to them. That was a fatal error.

And this was all his fault. John should have never brought her to this Dutch person. He should have never trusted some stranger to take care of her. He should have known that only he would know her worth and do whatever necessary to protect her.

All he could think about now was that he had to avenge her. And he would start with this Dutch bastard. And that's where he went. He would pay.

Once he had reached his bunker John found himself at gunpoint with him. Both tense, and he could tell Dutch was at a loss as to why John was there, boiling with rage.

''It's your fault! You sent her there! HOW COULD YOU!?'' John yelled at Dutch, closing in on him in raging anger.

''Whoa! Slow down there, what do you want?'' Dutch tried to calm him down, obviously not knowing what he was talking about. John's anger already drove tears to his eyes.

''What I want? I wanna know why you let her go! I told you to keep her safe! And you sent her after Jacob, after HIM?! Don't you know how ruthless he is? And now she's DEAD because of YOU! I'm gonna…'' John threatened, but Dutch interrupted him, startled.

''Whoa, whoa, whoa! Wait a minute! She's not dead, man! I just got off the radio, and she's safe and sound with… She's safe, okay! Relax…''

John couldn't believe his ears… He still didn't trust Dutch, and he wanted proof. He told him to call whomever had told him that again and let him speak to her. Dutch must have realized that John wasn't going to back down unless he heard her voice, so he called his people again, making sure none of them revealed their identity and to get Emily on the radio.

''Dutch…'' Emily's voice cawed weakly on the radio. Without thinking, John grabbed the radio out of Dutch's hands.

''Em…? Are you… Are you okay?'' He shakily asked… He couldn't believe it. It was her. She was alive. Relief washed over him.

''John? What…? Yes. What's going on? Is everything okay with you guys? Is Dutch okay?'' She sounded scared all of a sudden. Did she think he would have hurt Dutch?

''Yeah, yeah… I just heard you were gone… I thought you were dead… I blamed me, I'm so sorry. I can not lose you, okay?'' And then he realized how much he had exposed himself and switched the radio off in the middle of her answer.

''Don't worry, I'm okay… Just…''

He stared at the radio in disbelief. How stupid was he? He gave it back to Dutch and said, ''Nobody can know of her importance to me, it would be dangerous for both of us… Mainly her. I guess you can see that.'' And then he left without looking Dutch in the eyes again.

Emily

''John?'' Silence. Their radio was turned off. You were rattled about why John was with Dutch, and you hoped everything was okay. So you tried again.

''Dutch? John?''

''He left, kid. Jeez… What's up with that…? Don't say over the radio… Maybe we could meet up? Can you come by my place?'' You heard how puzzled Dutch was, and to be honest even you were bewildered about what just happened. ''Sure. See you soon, Dutch.''

Eli eyed you warily. And you couldn't blame him. You guessed the only reason he hadn't shot you was his trust in Dutch… And you, somehow you guessed he still believed in you. You were about to tell him… There wasn't anything really you could have told him, since you didn't know how to explain to him what just happened so you were just happy when he said, ''Go see him, just come back afterwards. Like I said… We need you.''

So you left the Wolf's Den and made your way to Dutch.

John

What was he thinking? The cult had control over almost all the radio stations, and it was extremely reckless of him to be so open on the radio. Someone could have been listening. Joseph could find out about just how much Emily meant to him.

But somehow he still found himself not caring. She was okay. She was alive.

Relief washed over him as he headed out of the bunker. He didn't know where to go. Somehow the Seed Ranch didn't feel safe anymore, so he just stood there. Outside the bunker breathing in the fresh air.

He felt like his mind was clearing and began to relax with the knowledge that Emily was safe for now.

He heard someone approaching him and instinctively threw his gun again. It was Dutch, unarmed with his hand up in the air in defense.

''I must be losin' my mind here but… She's coming here. So… Don't make me regret this, 'cause don't get me wrong. I still don't trust you, but… Maybe- Ugh… Maybe you wanna stay here and wait for her? You could wait here and we could…wait?'' Dutch seemed disgusted by the idea he had just uttered, but John could tell that he meant it.

So he agreed and lowered his gun in good will. Once they were back in Dutch's bunker, he started to become anxious and looked around. He guessed Dutch didn't really think about where he took him, because he found himself in his 'command center,' by the looks of it.

His eyes fell on a board with his family pinned on it, and he walked towards it. Dutch was pacing behind him not giving him much attention, so he read through his notes.

He had to laugh at what Dutch had written about them drawing unwanted attention back to him.

''Fuck! Don't do that. You shouldn't be in here.'' He pushed John out of the room again, back to the far end of his bunker where he placed him in what looked to be his bedroom.

''You got some parts right.'' John smiled at Dutch with amusement. ''Faith is not related. I don't see her as my sister; she's just a drugged up lunatic. And Joseph is a nutjob.'' He had to laugh out loud at that again. ''And I guess I am a psychopath… But you clearly underestimate my oldest brother, Jacob. He is the most lethal. He is the cruelest of us all… Few lives matter to him.''

He wasn't sure why he told Dutch all of this, but he felt so at ease that he didn't really think about it. He was about to see Emily again, and that calmed him.

Dutch, however, was still very bewildered about this whole situation. ''Yeah, okay… Um… Just wait here, okay? She should be here soon enough. Don't make me regret this. I want to talk to her first, okay?''

John didn't find himself to care really, so he just lied down on the bed and closed his eyes. ''Understood.'' She would be with him soon.

Emily

You hurried back as fast as possible. Not knowing what would await you or what drove you to hurry. But you knew you had to be at Dutch's bunker as soon as possible.

By nightfall, you reached his bunker but had made sure no one had followed you.

Dutch greeted you with a bear hug once you entered, and you felt your sorrows ease. Neither of you said anything, only shared looks of agreement. Clearly, none of you knew what to make of all of this. So he only told you that John was waiting in the back.

With big eyes, you left Dutch behind and walked toward the bedroom. Not knowing what to expect…

You found him lying there with closed eyes, completely at ease. You couldn't help yourself but admire him. He was handsome, no doubt. And without his insane speeches, he reminded you of the boy you once knew.

''Please. Come here. Join me.'' He said without opening his eyes, and you felt a shiver running down your spine. Without thinking, you stepped closer to him and found yourself reaching for his hand. As your hands intertwined, he took a sharp breath in and his eyes flew open.

''Don't ever make me feel this way again, Em. I can't lose you…'' His words were filled with emotion that you felt your knees weakening. With you kneeling at his side, he arose slightly and caressed your cheek. You leaned into his touch, longingly.

''Why…?'' Was all you could ask him, and he simply smiled at you.

''Can't you feel it? We belong to each other; we are bound.'' As you shook your head slightly at his words with a troubled look on your face, he just closed in and kissed you deeply.

This time around, you knew it to be real. Your mind was not drugged by Bliss anymore, and you kissed him back. He pulled you closer and broke your kiss with a caring hug in which you found yourself out of breath.

''I know you feel it too… I'm sorry that everything is such a mess… We will work it out, okay?'' He stroke the back of your head caringly.

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