Your body gives
But then holds back
The sun is bright
The sky is black
Can only be another sign
I cannot keep what isn't mine
Your laughter it lingers on
But you, you were almost gone
~Britney Spears's 'Shadow'
JPOV
I was in a dark abyss of miserable self hate. I kept replaying the scene when the cathedral blew up. If I
would have not talked to Webster for so long I would have been there before and got her out. But no,
my angel was gone forever. I clutched to her pink headband that I had found in the rubble were she was
supposedly buried, dead. I could not bear to think of it like that. Good news was that we had managed
to keep the line this meant that the war would be ending soon. But this date that I once yearned for
as did every man looked more like a death sentence. Some, no all the men were scared for life after
experiencing the most life changing affects. This meant that once we got home we would be going back
to a civilized place for civilized men. And after all we have done we were far from it. But to me I had
nothing to look forward to now. Alice, oh God just saying her name makes my heart ache. I mean frankly
if a German came right up to me with a Lugar I would not flinch as he would shoot me. I knew that on
the outside everyone wanted to go home but inside it was a whole different story. Nobody wanted to
say goodbye and separate to what was now are brothers. It was inevitable that we would go out of
connection. Back to the present fears, was that even though we did keep the line that did not mean we
could all just pack up and leave. There was still lingering Germans that we had to capture as well as
some irritable bases. As for the damage report here, only seven men died. When I found out for some
surprising reason I did not feel sad I felt nothing, numb. I missed Alice and all her beauty and kindness.
After the whole raid of the Germans everyone knew that I was in love with Alice the nurse but they also
knew she was gone. Although no one said anything I could tell they knew.
"Jasper! Jasper!" yelled Percontte. I rolled my eyes already knowing what this was about. I got up from
my hole and made my way over to his hole. His arm had gotten a big chunk out of it and of course he
was experiencing an eminence amount of pain.
"I'm here I'm here." I said hopping into the crowded hole with Muck and Percontte. I put my thoughts of
Alice behind me for now because I had to do my job. I was the only one who had the most medical
experience because our medic got blown up during the fight. I re applied the bandages on his arm while
for some reason he could not stop staring at me.
"Damn it Percontte why the hell are yous lookin' at me that way!?" I said because it was really bothering
me.
"No reason…Doc" he said plainly. I just sighed in response finally figuring out why he was doing that.
Once I finished I patted him on the back and ran back into my hole. He was acting strange because he
pitied me and my loss. I hated this treatment mostly for the fact that all of these men deserved the
sympathy and not me.
"Easy Company up and out! Over to the clearing, no ammo or guns!" Lt. Winters yelled. I grabbed my
helmet and I sprinted over to the clearing. There most of them were already surrounding Lt. Winters
and jogging in place to keep warm.
"Ok men, we have just gotten orders to head out because they can now get replacements in to take our
spots. We are heading back to England, BUT we will only be there for three weeks before we start to
invade Hitler's Eagle Nest. Yes, I know that you all want to go home but England will have to do. So be
ready by tonight to make room for the replacements and ready to move out, we got a long journey
ahead of us" the last part said grimly. All the men whooped praise at the bonus. They could all still be
together and be in better conditions like the fact of being on Allie territory, where they weren't out to
kill you. I guess I needed to be away from here to forget some more unpleasant memories as well as the
rest needed to. This place was starting to get to them and eat them alive. It would be healthy for all of
us if we changed our surroundings a bit. I went back to my hole and got out a C-ration. I carefully
nibbled on it while thoughts of Alice entered my mind once again, not that they left. I watched her
disappear and now she in spirit would watch me do the same. Never again would I love another women,
I promised myself for fear that I would be crushed again. God how I missed Alice so. I only wished to say
goodbye to her one more time. But this dream would be only one of disappointment. (Or is it?)
Hey!So ya thanks for the nice reviews and thanks to Neji0395 who told me how to upload this chapter. Anyways i just wanted to
do a small chapter on Jasper's emotions about it all. The next chapter will be up in a few days. So with that please review and
thank all our troops!-becasue everyone knows they are awesome and they need respect!
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