Chapter 9 Part B
Josh starts to climb on me; I take him in my arms and hold him. I kiss his forehead and he gives me a giant sloppy kiss. "I wuv you, mommy. Spencew is fun, can we stay hewe again?" I turn my head and glance over to Spencer who has now propped herself up on her elbow and she has the hugest smile on her face. She nods her head.
"Yeah, baby, if Spencer wants she will see us a lot more often." I swing my legs on the side of the bed and stand up holding Josh in my arms. "Let's get you dressed, we have to go home and take care of some things. Hopefully, Aunt Kyla is around."
I get him dressed and gather our things. Spencer walks us to the door. "So, what are we gonna do about tonight."
"I'll pick you up, and then we will meet Glen and Heather somewhere."
"Sounds good to me, see you later baby," and just as natural as it was when we first started dating she gives me a small peck on the lips. Then glides Josh's head towards her and gives him a kiss on his temple. "I'll see you tomorrow at school Joshy."
"Otay, bye, Spencew."
We arrive home soon after we left Spencer's and I started drawing a bath for Joshua. If everything goes right, I will get Josh all ready and maybe Kyla can take him while we go out to dinner. I think it would all be too much for him and a little confusing. I bathe him and get him dressed.
He went into his room to play with his toys and I took this time to call Kyla. I plop down on my ever so comfy couch and dial.
"Ash, what's up?? I haven't heard from you, where have you been?" and that's when it finally sinks in.
"Glen is Josh's father." I just blurted it out with. Phew it kind of feels good to get it out there.
"WHAT?!" I hear her scream across the phone. This is the reaction I knew I was going to get.
"I know what you are thinking. I didn't know it was Glen that I had drunken sex with I just thought it was some random asshole that had blue eyes that reminded me of Spence. So, when we went to the carnival yesterday we ran into Glen and his fiancé and he seemed a bit off but I just chalked it off to Glen being Glen. Then drop Spencer off and she invites me in because Josh was hungry and she was going to feed us and then she told me to sleep over and we were making out of the couch and she got this cryptic text from Glen and he was like 'we need to talk' and then he came over and he said he came to New York one weekend and got plastered and we slept together and then he woke up and realized what he has done and ran and…"
"Ash, breath….." Okay I stop my rambling and take a deep breathe. "Everything is going to be okay. We will figure this all out. Wait… you slept over already?"
"It wasn't like that. We are waiting till the time is right. It was just so nice being in her arms again."
"So what are you going to do about Glen?"
"I was wondering if you could take Josh for a little bit. Spence and I are going to meet up with Glen and Heather and see if can't figure something out. I would bring Josh but I feel like that might confuse him."
"Don't worry Ash. I've got him. What do you want to do about the situation?"
"To be honest with you, I have absolutely no idea. I want to talk about with Spence on the car ride there. I have some thoughts but I want to see what she thinks too. I want us to be a family."
"I just want you to do what you feel is best for you and for Joshua. If being with Spencer makes you happy then of course I support you."
"It does. I'm going to go spend some quality time with my son now. Can I drop him off in about 3 hours?"
"Sure. I'll see you then sis. Bye"
"Later"
I get up and walk into Josh's room. It looks like he emptied out his entire toy box. I sit down across from him and grab the other dump truck and begin to play along with him. He looks up at me and gives me the biggest smile ever and I look at his baby blue eyes. God, they are just like Spencer's. I hope we can all work this out and get through this because I need her in my life and I want her to be in Josh's. I want her to help me raise him because I know with her by my side Joshua is going to turn out just fine.