Sorry for the delay, but again, school has been crazy.

But anyway here is Chapter 10

I don't know if anything medical is right or can actually happen. I just made it fit.

Enjoy

I don't own any of the characters.

"You still want that?"

Emily chuckled. "No it's fine, eat it."

JJ grabbed the brunette's plate and ate the rest of the lasagna. "I didn't know you were such a good cook Em."

Emily blushed. "Well there are a lot of things you don't know about me."

The other woman looked down on her lap. "Yeah I know." She said disappointed.

"Listen I told you I would tell you about everything, let's just have one sad story at a time okay?" Emily reached over the table to grab JJ's hand.

Blue eyes met brown ones. "I know I didn't want it to sound like I was sad that you didn't tell me everything. Let's clean this mess up and then go to bed."

After they cleaned up the table and did the dishes both women went up to the big master bedroom.

Emily took her shirt and pants off to get ready for bed when she felt JJ softly kissing her shoulder and putting her hands on her hips. The brunette agent smiled, she knew that she didn't deserve that; JJ not being mad at her anymore for the way she acted this morning.

"I don't know what I would do without you Em." Still kissing her JJ kept talking. "You are the most beautiful woman and the best friend I've ever had." Trailing kisses along her neck up to her ear. She let go of her lover and went to the bathroom to get ready herself.

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Emily woke up early, her body was shaking and she had cold sweat on her forehead. She had another nightmare, her eyes wandering to her right side, she saw the beautiful blonde woman lying next to her still sleeping. Emily smiled, she would have never thought about having Jennifer Jareau sleeping next to her. She made her way out of the bed, taking a look at her alarm clock she sighed, it was 4 in the morning, but the brunette woman knew that she couldn't go back to sleep now, she needed to get a clear head, but this time she wouldn't go for a run, she knew better. This time she would just drink coffee and maybe read a book.

Standing in front of her window with a cup of coffee in her hand she thought about all the events that had happened to her within the last couple of weeks. She started to shiver, when her thoughts wandered to the things her rapist, torturer and kidnapper did to her. Emily Prentiss would never talk about those things, she knew if she would just try to forget it, burry it somewhere in her head, everything would get back to normal. No one needed to know what really happened in that room, how he broke her, how vulnerable that man made her. Her hand wandered to her stomach, it was a miracle that she didn't get pregnant. The doctors couldn't make out that she was raped, because he was careful and cleaned up every time he was done, so the doctors didn't find any traces of a rape. Emily's whole body started to shake, she was a week over already, but the doctors examined her and said she wasn't pregnant, but what if their tests were wrong? She shook her head, she was sure that the tests results were right. But still, her period hadn't come yet and it wasn't likely for that to be overdue. Emily's knees gave in and she hit the floor, the only thing she heard was the coffee cup that shattered to pieces on the ground, everything went dark.

Jennifer woke up when she heard noises coming from downstairs. She looked at the other side of the bed and saw that Emily wasn't there anymore; feeling panic building up insider her she jumped out of the bed and ran downstairs.

"Emily?" she shouted, but didn't get any answers.

The blonde woman almost fell down the stairs when she saw the picture in front of her. A dark haired woman lying on the floor, shaking and crying a shattered coffee bug next to her. Was there blood on the floor? She made her way to her lover, not knowing what happened.

"Oh my god Emily, are you okay? What's wrong sweetie?" JJ kneeled down next to her placing a hand on the brunettes shoulder. When she felt her friend tensing under her touch she quickly broke the contact between them.

"Em please tell me what happened, talk to me." The only answer she got was sobbing. The older woman didn't response to JJ's voice. Despite the shaking and the sobbing there was no reaction.

Not knowing how to help her, she reached to the table and grabbed the phone dialing Dr. Saunders number.

"This is agent Jennifer Jareau, I don't know what to do, she isn't responding to anything, she is just lying on the floor shaking and crying you need to come here please." JJ couldn't help but start crying, she was so worried, she has never seen her friend like this, not even when she visited her in the hospital. What happened to her? Why now?

"I will send an ambulance to her condo right away and I'm on my way, stay with her."

"Okay, please hurry up." She hung up.

"Em?" Again she placed a hand on the other woman's shoulder, determent that this time she wouldn't break contact between them.

"Emily look at me. It's me JJ."

To her surprise the brunette turned her head and looked at her. Jennifer let out a gasp when she saw the pain and horror in her lover's eyes. Relieved that Emily responded to her pleading she put her arms around the other woman and held her.

"Honey what happened?"

Emily looked at her. "Please don't leave me Jayj."

JJ shook her head in confusion. "I would never leave you."

"Good." Emily smiled and closed her eyes.

"Emily stay awake, Dr. Saunders will be here any minute."

The brunette nodded but kept her eyes shut.

When JJ heard the doorbell she gently let go of Emily and walked to the door, looking through the peephole she started crying when she saw Dr. Saunders. The blonde opened the door and pointed at the woman lying on the floor.

Dr. Saunders made his way to Emily and checked her pulse and her blood pressure.

He turned around and looked at Jennifer.

"What happened?"

"I don't know I woke up when I heard noises and when I came down she was lying on the floor like this. But she talked to me just seconds before you arrived, she asked me not to leave her, and then she closed her eyes. What is happening Dr.?"

He looked at Emily and then back at the blonde woman.

"She is in shock and probably has a panic attack, something must have caused that. Did something drastic happen today or the day before, something that reminded her of the events of her kidnapping?"

The man got up and made room for the paramedics that had arrived.

"No, not that I know, besides the time she left for the run we were together all the time. Can you help her?"

"Yes we can, she just needs to calm down and get some rest, but that doesn't fix things. She needs to talk about what happened to her during her torture. If she doesn't she will never live a normal life anymore. It is the most important thing for victims to talk about what happened to them and I am pretty sure seeing the job she chose she knows that."

"I will try to talk to her. What if she doesn't want to see a psychologist?"

"Oh it doesn't have to be a professional, not necessarily though, I mean it would be better no question if she would see a psychologist, but for now it would just be enough if she would talk to someone she trusts."

"Okay thank you." Turning to the paramedics she saw that they put Emily on a stretcher. "Where are you taking her?"

A young man walked up to her. "We don't think she needs to be admitted, she needs to rest and sleep and she can do that in her own house. So may I ask where the bedroom is?"

"Sure follow me." JJ headed for the stairs.

"Dr. we would appreciate it if you would stay here tonight, just to make sure. If that would be okay?"

"Umm.. Yes I.. Are you okay with that agent Jareau?"

JJ turned around. "Yes sure, but I am afraid we only have the couch to offer."

"That's okay, don't worry about me, you go up to be with agent Prentiss."

"Thank you."

JJ made her way to Emily's bedroom.

"So, we gave her something to calm her down, she should be sleeping for the next two hours. If something changes, like if she is starting to shake or sweating you need to tell Dr. Saunders and we have to bring her to the hospital." The young blonde medic explained to her.

JJ nodded and the men left the room.

JJ carefully sat down on the edge of Emily's bed. Stroking her friend's hair she cried silently.

"What happened to you in that room Emily Prentiss? Why can't you tell me? I love you." She lay down next to her sleeping lover and cried herself to sleep.

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JJ woke up, she saw that Emily was still sleeping calmly. Kissing her cheek she got up.

"Jayj?"

JJ spun around. "Emily! Did I wake you?" She sat down again and took the brunettes hand.

"Umm no, I mean yeah but that's okay, what happened?"

"You don't remember?"

Emily shook her head. "No I don't."

"You had a shock. When I woke up you were gone and then I heard something downstairs. You were lying on the floor shaking and crying. You didn't respond to anything, I was so worried so I called Dr. Saunders and the paramedics were here."

Emily got up and looked at the blonde woman. "I remembered that I got up and then made some coffee, after that everything went black."

JJ looked at her in concern. "Honey, we need to talk."

Emily not knowing what she was talking about feared that JJ wouldn't want to bring their relationship to the next level. "JJ please, don't leave me."

"I will never leave you Em and it's not about that at all. It's about the things that happened to you when you were abducted."

Emily looked away not wanting to look into Jennifer's beautiful eyes.

"Emily you need to talk about it, the things you said to the police and the doctors can't be everything he did to you. If you don't get that off your heart something like this morning can happen again."

The older woman felt tears falling down she knew that the time would come, the time she would have to talk about it.

She felt a hand on her shoulder and one on her cheek making her head turn to meet blue eyes.

"Please Em, talk to me."

Emily shook her head. "I can't. I am so sorry Jennifer; here we are, back to where we started yesterday. Me not being able to tell you everything, me still keeping things locked up in my heart. But it just hurts too much and I don't want to make you feel…"

"Stop it now! If you don't talk about it, you will never have a normal life again and you know. You see women like that every day and you tell them that even if it hurts they have to talk about it, that it would help to deal with what happened to them. And now you are one of those women, you can be a profiler and one of the strongest women on earth, but Emily Prentiss needs to deal with it as well."

Now Emily's tears were falling and she was sobbing in JJ's arms.

"He raped me JJ. He raped me every day, sometimes even more than once. He told me, how he would kill me and every single one of you, while he did it. The doctors did a pregnancy test and the result was negative, but I am overdue Jennifer, over a week already. He broke me; I am nothing more than a little child. I don't feel like the profiler I was anymore. He broke me Jennifer, everything that was me, he took my pride…" Emily was crying hysterically.

JJ, also crying, didn't know what to say. She didn't expect that. She felt helpless all she did was holding her lover and cried with her.

They were like that for a long time until Emily started to calm down and regain control again.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know. I guess, once I say it out loud, it becomes real."

"Don't be scared Em. I will always be there for you, as a lover and a friend."

Emily looked at her and felt her heart set out a beat when she heard the blonde woman say that she was her lover. She had thought about that and called JJ lover herself. Never out loud, but in her mind.

"Umm Dr. Saunders is downstairs, I should probably tell him that you are alright and that he can go home."

"He is here?"

"Yes the medics wanted him to stay, just in case you.. umm.. your condition changes."

JJ came back after she told the doctor that everything was alright with Emily and that he could just go home. She would call him if something would happen.

"What do you want to do now?" She sat down next to Emily again.

"I don't know, I don't thing I can take it if that bastard got me pregnant."

"Maybe you're not pregnant, it could be the stress or I don't know."

"I think we can only find it out one way."

"Do you want me to come with?"

"No. Please don't be sad or angry; this is something I need to do alone."

JJ placed a hand on Emily's thigh. "I am neither of these things Em. But you have to promise to not do something stupid no matter what your doctor will say."

Emily smiled. "I promise. But now I should take a shower and get ready, if I am lucky I will get an appointment today yet."

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Emily was sitting in the waiting room of her gynecologist. She was scared; she couldn't take it if she would be pregnant with a baby that was caused by a rapist. She always wanted a baby, but she never thought she would be in a situation like that.

"Emily Prentiss?"

She heard her doctor calling her name and got up.

"Hello there, I haven't seen you in a long time Emily."

"Hi Sheryl. I know, I was busy with work."

"I understand. " Sheryl smiled. "So what brings you here today?"

Emily sat down. "I think I might be pregnant."

"Oh that is wonderful!" Sheryl squeaked. "Well, then I need you to sit down over here and I will take a look."

Emily went over where her friend and doctor told her. She didn't want to tell her how she became pregnant.

"Congratulations Emily, you are pregnant."