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During the next few weeks Spencer made several inquiries about Lilith's condition. She was in better shape. He thought about visiting her again to tell her that he was sorry that he didn't mean to attack her but he was too mortified. Even Hotch and Penelope, who had talked with him about it, couldn't change his mind. Spencer was very surprised, when someone from the hospital told him, that Lilith had been released. He tried to find out where she was staying, but no one seemed to know. His team members realized, that he was worried about something. He seemed abject. During a case they didn't hear his normal rambling of facts that he always spouted off. When J.J. needed some information from Penelope, she asked her about it.

"Do you know, what's wrong with Spence?"

"I think, I know."

"Is he in trouble? I noticed, that he was talking several times with Hotch."

"No, don't worry, Spencer is alright, it's about Lilith."

"Who is Lilith?"

"They knew each other from therapy. She had a very hard time with her parents who abused her as a child and sold her to strangers that came into their house."

"Oh, my god. She's a drug addict?"

"She was and didn't talk for several years, not one word. Spencer helped her when he found out that one of the attendants tried to rape her. Okay, he needed my help there, but back to her story. Lilith started to talk again when she heard that her parents were arrested. She made statement and Spencer was with her. They became friends, I mean, for me it sounds like they're friends. Spencer was too afraid to tell her that he was going to be released. He didn't hear anything from her in over 8 months and then he got a call that Lilith is in a hospital and that he's her emergency contact."

"What happened to her?"

"Lilith was in a halfway house and one of the staff members blackmailed her and forced her to have sex with him."

"Why is she in the hospital? Did she relapse or...?"

"She had a miscarriage."

"She was pregnant? Don't tell me, that the staff member was the father...?"

"He was. They found out about her pregnancy during a drug test. Lilith and the staff member had to leave the halfway house. And Spencer blamed her for not calling him when he visited her in the hospital."

"Did he visit her again?"

"No, he doesn't have the courage after he attacked her like that."

"I understand, That's why he's been so thoughtful the last few days."

"Don't tell him that you know. He doesn't want much many people to know about it."

"I won't tell."

"But you can try to cheer him up a little bit."

"I will take him some coffee."

"Okay, with that you can wake him up."

JJ got two cups of coffee and went to Spencer's desk.

"You have been staring for over 20 minutes at the same page of this file."

"What? Umh,..., I..."

"No need to worry, here's some coffee."

"Thanks, mine is ..."

"Do you want to talk?"

"About what?"

"Come on, Spence, you're confused and you're talking less than before and the wrinkles on your forehead are getting deeper and deeper."

"It would take too long to tell you."

"Okay, here's the deal. You come over tonight and I'll cook something and then you'll tell me what is bothering you so much."

"I'm not sure if that's a good idea."

"Spence, if you go on like this, the unsubs will capitulate only 'cause they will take pity on you. They'll realize that other people have bigger problems."

Spencer unwillingly smirked.

"You spend way too much time with Garcia. Okay, when should I be at your place?"

"At seven pm."

"I'll be there."

JJ turned round and went back into her office.

"Hey, Romeo, got a date tonight?"

Spencer looked irritated at Derek.

"Could you please stop trying to analyze my private life?"

"I'm just lucky for you, man, nothing more."

"Damn it, Derek, it's not a date."

"Hey, come down, no need to fuss."

During the next few weeks Spencer and J.J. spent a lot of time together. Spencer told her about Lilith and J.J had tried to explain to him that it wasn't his fault at all. On one evening they wanted to go to the movies. J.J. picked Spencer up.

"I'll be ready in a few minutes."

"Spence, it's very rare that women have to wait for a man."

"I'm sorry, but I was late getting home."

"It's okay."

Spencer took his coat and they started to leave.

"Don't forget an umbrella, it looks like it won't stop raining."

"No problem."

As Spencer grabbed his keys to leave his apartment as the doorbell rang.

"Maybe my neighbor sometimes she forgets her keys when she walks her dog."

Spencer opened the door and looked down the hallway and he was more than surprised to see a soaking Lilith. She carried two traveling bags with her.

"Lilith, umh, what are you doing here?"

"I ..., can I still stay here?"

"Yes, of course, come in."

Lilith looked like she would feel more comfortable in hell than at Spencer's place. J.J. looked more than astonished at her.

"What's going on here?"

"Sorry, I didn't know that you have a date. I think, it's better when I leave."

"No, Lilith, stay here. Lilith, this is Jennifer Jareau, one of my colleagues and a good friend. J.J., this is Lilith Wainwright. I told you about her."

"Is she going to stay here?"

"Umh..., yes, JJ, is it okay, if we reschedule our... I just need to take care ..."

"Oh, you can go. I'm just fine. I'll find everything I need..."

"No, I won't leave you alone now, Lilith."

"Spence, it's okay. I'll see you tomorrow in the office."

JJ gave him a friendly smile but behind it she was very enraged and hurt. How could Spencer brush her off for a drug addict? She had to beg Penelope to find out some things about Lilith, things that Spencer wouldn't like to hear.

Meanwhile Lilith stood in Spencer's living room. She looked as uncomfortable as she felt. Schroedinger watched this unexpected guest from a safe distance.

"Give me your coat."

Lilith took off her wet coat.

"Do you want to take a bath?"

With the look of a defiant child she shook her head.

"Lilith, I want to help you and you're here 'cause you know that. Don't be so restive. I will run you a bath, bring you a cup of tea or whatever you want and fix the guest room for you"

"Okay, I want hot milk with honey, if you..."

"Of course, just give me a few minutes."

Spencer left Lilith in the living room and went into his bathroom to run her a bath. Schroedinger became a bit curious and snuffled at her bags. After a few minutes Spencer came back.

"You can take your bath."

Lilith mumbled something which could have been "thanks".

"Do you want to take your cup of milk with you?"

"I would like to..."

Spencer handed her a cup, and she sniffed suspiciously.

"Is something wrong?"

"There is nothing in it, right?"

"What would there be...?"

"Sleeping pills, barbiturate...?"

"Do you really think I would do something so stupid?"

"I don't know, maybe..."

"Lilith, it's only a cup with hot milk and honey."

"Thanks."

"Umh, do you have a bathrobe?"

"No, ..."

"Then take mine, you'll find it behind the door."

"Okay, my pajamas are in one of my bags but all my clothes are wet could I get one of your shirts to sleep in?"

"No problem, if it's okay with you, I'll hang them up to dry."

"Oh yes, that's a good idea. Can I get the shirt now?"

"Of course, is an old university shirt okay?"

"Yes, I just want to wear it for sleeping."

"Do you need anything else?"

"No, thank you."

Lilith took her cup, walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind. Spencer wasn't surprised that she locked the door.

Lilith lay in the warm water and closed her eyes. For the first time she was able to relax again. She took some sips of her hot milk when she heard a slight meow in front of the door.

"Schroedinger, just let Lilith take her bath, you can see her later."

Lilith didn't care much that Spencer fought outside with his tomcat who was curious about the visitor. She stepped out of the tub after nearly twenty minutes. She took the shirt Spencer gave her, it was much too big for her, but it felt comfortable. She grabbed his bathrobe wondering about the color, it was purple. She didn't want to be here, but she didn't have another idea where she could go. And she remembered his promise to care for her. Lilith was still disappointed that Spencer attacked her so heavily in the hospital. She didn't want to stay here for too long.

Spencer sat on the couch with Schroedinger on his lap. He thought that Lilith looked very small and lost in his bathrobe like a little child.

"Where is the guest room?"

"Second door on the right, I put your bags..."

"Thanks."

The guest room was bigger than she thought. Lilith wasn't surprised about all the book shelves, they were all over the place. She lay on the bed wondering why Spencer had a classical double bed in his guest room. But it was much better than the couch she slept on during the last weeks. The door was only left ajar and so Schroedinger came into the room. He meowed when he sat in front of the bed.

"Hey, so you wanted to say hello Schroedinger. You're much cuter than on the photos I've seen."

Those seemed to be the right words Schroedinger jumped on the bed and Lilith started to pet him.

"You're giving your heart away too fast, you little sweetie."

Schroedinger started to purr when he lay on her lap. Lilith put herself in a comfortable position. When she stopped to fondle him behind his ears, he nudged her hand.

"It's okay, I'll comfort you."

She got sleepy when she listened to his purring and she put him next to her on the pillow.

Spencer wondered where his tomcat was. He took a look through the open door from the guest room and saw Schroedinger lying next to Lilith.

It seems like Schroedinger has had someone new. He was lying there like he had been doing it for years. It was a strange feeling having Lilith here. Where has she been all this time? She looks so tired. I'll ask her tomorrow.