AN- Sorry for the long time since my last update I just took a working student position at a riding stable and it seems I have hardly had time for anything and when I get home I crash on the couch and pass out. If you read my other stories you will also see I've been slow to update those as well, but since thins is the one I updated the longest ago I thought I would start by updating this one. Also I got a review from Huntress of the sky and remembered about it.

"I'm so happy for you Sen." Lily said with a smile as the two witches sat at the island in the kitchen.

"Thanks Lil." Seneca said smiling as well, "I mean we weren't planning it, but I'm happy and so is Sirius."

"You two will be wonderful parents plus Sirius is still a kid himself so the baby will have a playmate." She joked.

Seneca laughed in response she didn't get to say anything else because to boys came into the room.

"Lil they have a real car and real muggle things here!" he exclaimed excitedly.

"That's the point." Lily smiled, "They are trying it out living in the muggle world."

"It's great." Sirius added, "It's a totally different world, not that I would trade our world for it but its still cool to live here."

"Do you have muggle friends?" James asked

"We have muggle everything they we have muggle neighbors and muggle mail men."

"Mail men?" James questioned.

"They deliver mail, they don't use owls remember?" Sirius added.

James frowned, "That seems like so much more work."

"It is for them, no difference for us except sometimes the neighbors think its strange how we have owls flying to and from here."

"Are they strange?" James asked.

"Not as strange and Sirius was to them when we first got here." Seneca told him. "But it hasn't been to hard for him to adjust to life here."

"Not at all and its interesting nothing what I'm used to." He added.

"What about your family?" Lily asked, "What do they think?"

Sirius shrugged, "Haven't spoken to them, if they know I bet they aren't happy."

"We're here." Remus called from the front door. The two couples hear Remus and Peter walking down the hall,

"In the kitchen." James yelled out.

"Hello." Peter said with a smile as he saw his friends no one noticed when his smile faltered just slightly at the corners. None of them had any reason to doubt him, but still he could feel it he knew he was a traitor, how much longer could he pretend to be happy go lucky Peter? How much longer until the suspected him?

"Hey." Seneca said with a smile getting up and hugging Peter then turned to Remus. "Long time no see." She smiled again and hugged him as well.

"It's been to long." Remus agreed glancing down slightly. It was hard sometimes being around his friends they all were moving on with their lives, growing together. It was hard seeing them so happy and together when he knew he would never find someone to love him and accept him. He knew he wasn't good enough for any woman. He wasn't even good enough for his friends.

"So what's the big news?" Peter asked in his small voice.

"Well." Sirius said with a smirk, "Sen's pregnant."

"Congratulations." Remus smiled.

"But you two aren't married?" Peter questioned

"You don't need to be married to have a baby." James laughed and the others couldn't help but echo his laugh.

Seneca smiled and glanced at Lily, "Go ahead Lil."

"Are you sure?" she asked glanced at her friend who nodded her head. Lily turned to James, "I haven't told you yet." She told him.

"Told me what?" he asked.

"Well when Sen wanted me to go to the doctor with her to see if she really was pregnant I went for her, but also for me." She told him she saw James freeze as his mind began to grip what she was about to tell him. "We are going to have a baby."

James stood frozen for a moment then a smile spread across his face he wrapped his arms around his wife and hugged her close.

"Now our kids can grow up together." Sirius said with a smile then frowned, "Let's just hope they don't get into trouble the way we did."

The group all laughed again knowing all to well if the children turned out anything like their father's the two couples were going to need all the luck they could get.

Remus watched the young girl playing with the other children. He had been searching for a long time to find her. The girl looked just like her mother it pained Remus to see the young features of his broken friend. How long had it been? Three years? Four? How old did that make the boy now? He remembered the day so long ago when the child was believed dead, gone missing. Yet here she was, Remus was just about positive that this was the girl he was looking for.

"Can I help you?" A woman asked. He turned to see an elderly woman smiling at him

"Err yes." He nodded his head, "I'm Remus Lupin I believe we spoke on the phone."

"Ah yes." She glanced over at the girl as well, "You were the one interested in fostering our little Lyanna."

"Yeah." He agreed not saying much.

"Come with me I'll introduce you and see if it is a good fit." She wanted this to be a good fit, the child he was interested was the only one she wanted gone. She had never thought that of a child before, but this one was strange things happened that shouldn't. Many people tried fostering her, adopting her but some how she always ended up back here.

Remus nodded his head, if the child was the one he was looking for then it would truly be a good fit. He had promised he would find the girl, he had promised he would care for her.

"Lyanna." The old woman said, "Someone is here to meet you." The little girl sighed, she was only six but she had already met many people, people who were nice at first but always sent her back in the end.

"Hello Lyanna." Remus smiled at the little girl who narrowed her little eyes.

"Hi." The child said.

"I'll leave you two alone to get to know each other." The woman said with a quick smiled, she didn't like spending time with the girl. She turned and left the two alone without another word.

"Are you going to make me go home with you?" she asked,

Remus looked at her with a soft smile "Only if that is what you want." She looked like her mother, but she had her father's eyes.

The girl wrinkled her nose the way her mother once had when she was mad, or upset. "No I don't want to you will just make me come back here."

"No I won't" Remus told the girl.

"Everyone says that." She mumbled, "Everyone always sends me back."

"But I won't." he knew without a doubt this was the child he had been looking for, that they all had been looking for.

"Sure." The little girl looked down at the doll she was playing with.

"You're six right?" he asked.

"Yup." She said, "Did the old lady tell you that?"

"You get into trouble a lot don't you?" he asked.

"Yup that's why they send me back here." The girl told him.

"Are you sure it's that or is it because strange things happen when you are around?" Remus asked. The little girl's eyes narrowed, but didn't answer. "When I was your age I used to get into trouble and even greater trouble as I grew up, but I also had strange things happen to me or rather around me."

"You did?" The girl put the doll down.

"Yes, but I was around people who understood, people who knew it wasn't strange at all." He paused, "I've been looking for you a long time Lyanna."

"You have?" She asked.

"Of course."

"Why?"

"I promised your mother I would find you." He told the child, "And I promised your father that I would always look out for you."

"You knew my mom and dad?" she asked excitedly.

"Yes, ever since you were taken from them we have stopped at nothing to find you." He paused, "I'm the only one left now."

"Did they stop looking for me?" Lyanna questioned.

Remus looked down, "I'm afraid your parents are gone." He lied he couldn't tell the child her father was a killer and her mother went close to out of her mind falling to the bottom of a whiskey barrel. "I'm all that's left."

"And you will take me home?"

"I will take you home and you will never be the strange child again, and you will never have to return to this place."

The girl nodded.

"Now come on, it's about time you came home." He extended his hand to her. She excitedly took it hoping this was truly the last time she would leave this place. She hoped she really was going home.

Seneca sat on her bed the sunlight slowly fading away, she didn't turn on a light instead she sat motionless looking at the picture, the last picture she had of her family before it was ripped apart. That ten years ago. She carefully moved her hand across the picture brushing the faces of the man she loved and the product of the love they had once shared, their little girl. In the picture she had just turned a year old she sat in her high chair cake all over her face and both smiling parents on each side of her. She felt a tear fall down her face, only days later would they wake to crashing only to be to late by the time they got to her nursery she was gone, everything broken everything burning. She had asked a hundred times why had it been her daughter? Their daughter? They had looked for her for months, but nothing and six months after the kidnapping Sirius had turned to the dark lord. She wanted to believe he hadn't she wanted to pretend he was still the man she loved, but how could she? How could she forget him? How could she push away the feeling that due to his dark side their child had been taken from them? She knew the child was gone she wanted to believe she was still alive, but she knew that if the dark lord took her the baby would be killed, while she held blood of a powerful pure blood family she had also held the blood of a woman who had been muggle born, the child wasn't pure. "My sweet girl." She whispered as she closed her eyes. She tried to imagine what life could have been. Today would have been the day she excitedly waited for the post, she would have hardly the patients to wait for the owl once she saw it come into view. Sirius would grab the post and say her letter wasn't there and joke around before he gave the girl the letter. She opened her eyes to see her dark dusty cabin. She was how the muggles would say off the grid; no one knew she was here no one, but Dumbledore perhaps. She slowly stood up and walked over to her kitchen where she pulled opened a bottle of muggle whiskey. She didn't want to think of what was, or what could have been. She chose to lock herself away once she had someone to love, she had a child she once could feel something other them a cold sad numbness. She took out a cup and filled it again and again until the bottle was empty. Before she even knew it she was passed out on her bed hoping to no wake up this time.

"Remus!" Lyanna yelled excitedly as she ran into the living room where Remus sat reading the paper, "It came! It Came!"

He hadn't told the girl of her father yet, but he had told him about his mother. Remus wished she was here now, he wished he had been able to find her, but it seemed she had just vanished. He knew it would put her back together to know her daughter was alive; her daughter was well and unharmed. While she wouldn't be whole he knew she would be able to pick herself up if she had someone to live for once more. Lyanna understood her mother had thought she was dead, she understood that no one could find her, the girl hoped one day they would find her, but she had found a happiness with Remus she had found a family. Remus realized he hadn't been listening to a word the girl was saying.

"I get to go where mom and dad met!" she exclaimed, "And where you learned everything and they did I can't wait!" she paused, "When can we go buy supplies?" he asked.

Remus smiled, "When ever you want." He told the girl.

"Let's go today!"

"Except today." Remus laughed, "It will be packed with people today we should wait a day or two."

The girl sighed but did not argue.

"That's Harry Potter!" Lyanna said excitedly happy now they had put off the trip long enough to be the same day as Harry Potter. Remus turned to see where the girl pointed he almost felt his breath stop. The boy looked just of his father, but had his mother's eyes. He didn't go closer; instead stood his distance he didn't want to over step his boundaries the boy had to be overwhelmed right now. "Can we go talk to him?"

"I would wait." Remus told her, "You have all the time at Hogwarts to meet." For a moment an image of the two children becoming fast friends came to his mind. Once again a Potter and a Black would cause trouble on the school he smirked at the thought, but allowed the smirk to fade, after all no one knew she was a Black for she went by his name now, Lyanna Lupin.

"I'm going to go get something." Remus told her, "You go get some books from the store, I already ordered them all you have to do is pay."

"What are you getting?" Lyanna asked.

Remus smirked, "Surprise."

Lyanna sighed, but did as she was told she went to the store and paid for her books, ass he was about to walk out of the store she bumped into someone and dropped all the books on the ground.

"Sorry." A boy's voice said as he knelt down and picked them up for her.

"It's alright I should have been watching where I was going." She told him as she took her books from him, "I should say sorry."

"I'm Harry." He said. Lyanna froze as her eyes focused on the person before them.

"You're Harry Potter!"

"Er yeah." The boy said

"I'm Lyanna, Lyanna Lupin." She said extending her hand out excitedly.

"It's nice to meet you." Harry told her smiling.

Remus turned the corner to meet up with Lyanna, but froze when he saw the two children standing together. He felt a soft pain in his chest as the two met. If life had gone according to plan the two would have grown up together, probably would be best friends by now growing up next to each other. Now both children stood together, both missing their parents, both without their family.

"I should go." Lyanna told him, "I see my uncle, but I'll see you on the train!" she hurried over to Remus. "I just met Harry Potter!" she exclaimed excitedly.

"I saw that." Remus tried to act like it didn't mean anything. "Do you think the two of you will be friends?"

"He seems nice enough." She shrugged and then her attention turned to the cake shop. "Can I get one?" she asked excitedly causing Remus to smile,

"Of course you can little wolf." He told her using her father's nickname for her.

Lyanna sat under the sorting hat hoping for Gryffindor, The daughter of both brave of heart. The hat whispered into her mind. Yet one is lost within herself, the other lost in darkness. Lyanna was puzzled what did he mean? Both lost? She knew her mother was somewhere out and hoped one day to find her, but did the hat speak of her father as well. Daughter or a traitor, or so believed. Traitor? Who was a traitor? The hat pondered for a moment, "Gryffindor!" it yelled out. Lyanna smiled she had feared she wouldn't be put into Gryffindor, she wanted it more then anything to belong to the house her mother, father and Remus belonged to. She skipped over to the table and sat beside Harry.

"Hey you're the girl from the book store." He said recognizing her.

"Yeah, Lyanna." She told him.

"It's good to see you again." He told her,

"Happy to see you are in our house." One red headed boy spoke who had another looking just like him sitting to his left.

"Glad to be here." Lyanna said with a smile, she had always felt at home with Remus, but for the first time in her life she really felt like she belonged.

Sirius watched her in his dog form he had only just broken out of Azkaban; he knew he should carry on his travels to get Peter he couldn't help but stop. He wanted to go to her to tell her he was back, but he knew she chose to lock herself away for a reason. He could see how broken she was, she had once been so real so full of life, but he had always known she was fragile her own father had made sure of that between their daughter being taken and everything else that happened he knew she was broken. He wanted a way to inside her heart again he wouldn't give up on her, but he needed to prove himself truthful. She locked the world away for a reason, but he could see a slight passion in her, a part of herself for once she was real once she had something lose once it was harder to lose her. Once she was unwilling to bend and one day he would make her real again, make her true to herself he would pick up all the broken pieces and glue her back. Sure she had fallen farther then she ever fell before he hardly recognized her anymore the light in her eyes seemed almost gone it made him want to scream to see how she pulled away. She had locked the world away, but everything that was locked could be unlocked once more. He would help Seneca, he couldn't help their child, but he could help her. For a moment he thought of the daughter they had once had, Lyanna. He didn't hold on to hope the child was still alive who ever took her took her for a reason to try and get Sirius to reveal the Potters, but once they figured that the secret keeper was Peter the child would be useless. He felt a sharp pain in his heart thinking his daughter was dead. He turned and trotted off, he would return to her once he set everything right, he would end Peter he would get his revenge on the man who took everything from him.

"Are you alright?" Harry asked sitting down on the common room couch next to Lyanna.

"That's a stupid question Harry." She muttered, "How could I be alright?"

"Yeah stupid I admit it, but if you need to talk." He trailed off, "I'm here for you."

Lyanna sighed, "Why would you want to be here for me?" She frowned, "My father is the reason yours is dead!"

"That isn't your fault." He told her.

"And Remus never told me! All this time he knew and he didn't tell me!" she felt the tears pool to her eyes. He hadn't told her the truth he hadn't told her of her father. Had he expected her to never find out?

"Maybe it was for the best."

"I'm a Black." She muttered, "There isn't one good Black out there, all of them are bad, evil."

"But you're not." Harry told her, "I trust you."

"Your parents trusted my dad too." She muttered, "And I mean he must be the reason my mother is missing he must have done a real number on her Remus said she broke to pieces once I was gone or so she thought, once your parents died then she found out the man she loved was the one responsible for it all." She shook her head, "All this unhappiness is all his fault he's a monster! He was their friend!"

"I know." Harry put his arm around his friend. "I know Lyanna, but that doesn't mean you are like him, maybe you are more like your mother."

"Great is that you saying I'm crazy?" she half joked threw her tears.

Harry smiled softly, "Maybe, who knows wouldn't you rather be crazy then evil?"

"I guess." She told him as she looked up into his green eyes. For the first time she realized how attractive he was. This was the first time she noticed his eyes and the way he looked at her. How had she missed this? They were in their third year and had spent almost everyday with him and only now did she realize how he made her heart skip a beat.

AN-Sorry for how long it took to update, hope you enjoyed. The more reviews the more I'll be inspired to write I don't know what it is but when you know someone is enjoying a story then it makes you want to write it more.