"Better Version"- Shinedown

OH NO! I'm having writers block...

Hey I just realized this is my 10th chapter... which is usually the time I quit :( but don't you worry. I have about 15 more songs I could use... so yippie:)

Some of you are confused. Thanks for stating what your confused about. It helps me, help you. Alright so Alice(The red head) is pretty much a witch, I guess... I mean I don't really know why I put her in. I think it was because of Alice in wonderland. Sam never really knew her name, thats just the name given in the dream because of the song she was listening to. She's just insecure and scared and thats the cause for nightmares. Did I clear that all up for you?

FPOV

"I love Freddie." She murmured into my shoulder. And even though she was asleep when she said it, it still made me smile. It means she's thinking of me while she sleeps and that's better then not knowing she thinks about me at all. It's been 2 days since she's been like that. I wonder what could be wrong with her?

She stirred. "Sam?" I asked tentatively. She replied back with a yawn and a stretch. "Morning Sam. You feeling better?" I asked

"I feel great." she said rolling back on top of me.

"Really?" This is not Sam. This Sam is pleasant. My Sam is vicious but perfect in her own way.

"Freddie. Thanks for looking out for me. In a way your like my guardian angel. And I'm sorry for the hell I've put you thorough this week. I guess I'm ready to go home when you are."

Whoa! Words never expected from Sam. "Freddie?" she asked.

"It's processing."

"Well I reek. So I'm going to shower." She rolled over and off the bed. Grabbed some clothes and headed for the bathroom. I laid there, twiddling my thumbs to keep occupied. No amount of anything could prepare me for that. I mean, what do you say to that? My cell started ringing. Carly Shay the caller ID read.

"Hello."

"Freddie!" She squealed into the phone. "Ohmygoshareyoualright!"

"Woah slow down. I didn't understand a word of that."

"Sorry. We've just been so worried! You haven't called or left any texts. Nothing! Your mother won't leave me alone. Are you alright? Did you find Sam?"

"I'm fine Carly. Sam and I are fine."

"Well where are you? When are you coming home."

"I'd rather not tell you where I am... because my mother might hurt you if your refuse to tell her."

"Freddie!" she whined.

"Carly its for your safety. I hope to be home before school starts."

"Can I talk to Sam?"

"She's in the shower."

"Oh." she giggled. "You two are sharing a room?"

"For the sake of saving money... yes."

She laughed. "Don't worry Freddie. I'm not gonna ask you anything that went on during the week. Some things should be kept secret just so we can all move on past it sooner rather than later. Not to mention when either of you are ready to reveal your secret love for each other you will." She giggled again.

"Carly-"

"Oh I'm just kidding Freddie. Alright well since your alive and well I will let you be. Let me know when your coming home or if something happens."

"Will do. Talk to you later then."

"Bye."

"Who was that?" Sam said coming out of the bathroom wearing guy shorts and an oversized tee, as she towel dried her hair.

"Oh that was Carly. Checking up."

"Bet your mom is going crazy," she said plopping on the bed.

"Carly says she won't leave them alone." I laughed. "So do you wanna go out tonight or stay in?"

"Lets go out. Hey can we find a Walmart. I'd like to get some new clothes. I used up all the clean ones I had."

"Do you need something to wear today?"

"Be grateful. Preferably no stripes." She smiled.

I dug through my bag which was running low on clothes as well. And found my tee that said Quirky Chowder. "Here's a shirt. You have the option of sweat pant's or jeans."

"Sweats."

I grabbed my Fries Matter tee and the jeans and headed for the shower. "I won't take long and then we can go."

30 minutes later we arrived at Walmart. Sam said, "Do we stick together or split."

"I'll come find you in 15 minutes."

"Alright."

I found 2 decent non-striped shirts for me to wear around Sam. And 2 pairs of jeans. I'd like to take her somewhere nice. Surprise her even. Dress shirt and vest combo for 15$ read a near by sign. I should get this, I thought as I looked at a purple shirt with a brown I need are dress pants and a tie. I found black pants and a silver skinny tie which is only going to cost me an additional 20$. My sneakers will work. Now her. As I was strolling through the dress department I found a beautiful brown taffeta cocktail dress with a shawl. It had silver flowered embroidery which made me unsure if Sam would like it. It looked like it would fit her. On my way to find Sam I saw a pair of purple mid-calf boots and as far as girls shoes went they looked cute and like something acceptable in a nice club.

I decided in order to keep this a secret ill just buy it, hide it in the car, and go back in for Sam. 10 minutes later then originally planned, I found Sam near the dressing rooms deciding on which pair of jeans made her butt look better.

"I didn't take you for that kinda girl Sam."

"Well one can be conscience about her how big her ass looks."

I rolled my eyes. Sam said, "You decide. Do you like these?" she asked modeling real quick then ran in the changing room. "Or these?" She said popping out 2 minutes later in a similar pair.

"I don't know. Both make your butt look big." I joked and tried to dodge the soft punch to the arm.

"Get them both." I laughed as she went back into the room.

"Did you get everything?" she said through the door.

"Yeah already put it in the car."

"Why? What did you get?" said walking out of the stall with an arm full of clothes.

"Just a few outfits. But I thought I'd give you more time."

"You got a dirty porno and didn't want me seeing it didn't you." she smirked

"Yes Sam. Because I can't have you I need to find some unattractive woman with huge breast to jack off to later tonight." I rolled my eyes.

And old lady stared at me and a guy in his 30's smirked as he wrapped his arm around his wife.

We made our way to the check out line and I took her stuff out to the car while she changed into a better outfit.

SPOV

"Hey Sam." He asked as I got in the car.

"Yeah?"

"I've been wondering. Whats been keeping you down the lately?"

I sighed. I'd been anticipating when he'd ask. "Well I caught a glimpse, but the reflection's only mine. It's almost like I'm paralyzed and locked outside myself. What I don't need is to concede because I won't be someone else. I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. I was just insecure. And I fought my demons." He didn't say anything. "Calling the Nub. Earth to Nubby?"

"I just don't know what to say Sam. Your not the same Sam and I don't know what to make of it. What if I don't like the new Sam."

I laughed. "Just think! How about a better version of, the way that I am. How about a better version that, makes me understand. The way I look, The way I speak, how about a better version of me."

"A better version of you? What could be better then the Sam that I fell in love with weather she wants me or not."

"Love?" How could he love me?

"Yes Sam love. All these years we've had a love-hate relation and I had that thing with Carly. But I guess I was hiding it. I'm sorry about the wall, I put it up from time to time, but I only put it up to keep from getting hurt."

"Freddie. I... I..." My turn to not know how to respond. Its like the angel and devil appeared on my shoulders and the devil is saying, "Don't tell him." and the angel is saying, "Tell him!" I do love him and my dreams prove it.

"You don't have to say anything you don't want to." He said

"I want to...I..I'm...I'm just scared." I finally say.

"It's okay Sam. I didn't expect you to say it back. You'll tell me how you feel when your ready." He said taking my hand. I wanted to slap myself for not saying it. Perfect fucking opportunity gone.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"The IMAX."

We then drove to the IMAX and watched a stimulating movie entitled, The Falls Movie: Legends and Daredevils.

A 63 year old school teacher in the hopes of fame and fortune, is the first to conquer the falls in her airtight barrel in 1901. Sadly she died in poverty. A man by the name of Bobby Leach broke both his knee caps and his jaw going off the falls in his steal barrel. He died years later by slipping on an orange peeling and complications from gangrene. I had to stifle some laughter from the irony. While Freddie cringed at the Englishman who didn't survive the falls but his arm did, I whispered in his ear, "How stupid could you be to tie yourself to it. If it opens up or breaks you could attempt to swim." in 1930 a man suffocated after being stuck behind the falls for 14 hours. "Slow and painful." I muttered while stuffing popcorn in my face. Both Freddie and I couldn't help but laugh at the bartender who wrapped his barrel in inner tubes to take his plunge off the falls. He ended up with a 5,500 dollar fine. The movie was only 45 minutes and yet I feel I know everything about the falls. This was better than history class.

"The guy went over without anything is a miracle." HE said.

"Yeah too bad he's banned from Canada for life." I laughed. "And didn't even get it on camera." Which sent Freddie laughing.

I held his hand as we walked to the car. I liked knowing that he loved me.

"Where to next?" I asked

"Up for some competition?"

"Ha. I will dominate."

Okay so this chapter is longer because my last 2 were so short. Now if your curious about her dress... take out all the spaces in the sites below.

http:/ www. sungboutiquela . com / brown - taffeta - tier -cocktail - dress - p - 827 . html

and her shoes... http:/ store02. Prostores. com /servlet/nowdiscountshoes/the-35823/Deep-dsh-Purple-dsh-Suede-Dress-Women's-Flat/ Detail

Hope it wasn't too boring. Yes again I did my research. Leave me lots of comments. Good AND bad. I love hearing from you. AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE WONDERFULLY AWESOME COMMENTS so soon! Question for you: How many words is too long and too short?