So I'm happy that some of you dont hate Logan that much anymore...and thoose who still do...I promise he'll prove himseld worthy of your love, as soon as Kendall lets him back in and...I'm giving things away...and I REFUSE to do that...

Kendall kissed the top of Ariana's head before, slinging his back pack over his shoulder, then kissing his mom on the cheek.

"Thanks for getting up a little earlier today,mom." Kendall thanked her as he buttonend up the rest of his black jacket.

"Sweetheart,I'm a lawyer, I get home at seven every day unless there's a case then it's to eight and then I have the weekends off, I dont know WHY you think I need to sleep in all the time, expecually when your up longer then me every night." Jennifer said with a amused look.

"Your kidding right mom? You watch Ariana in the morning's for me, then you go to work all day, then you have to come home and watch Courtney and-" Jennifer stopped him with placing a hand over his mouth.

"First of all, I watch her for thirty minutes and I enjoy it, it's are own like bonding time, YOU go to school all day and when you come home you dont even let anyone look in Ariana's direction without becoming lethal, and you only get to do homework when Ari sleeps and since she's getting older and older she hates napping, and then you have to do your homework in your free period instead of hanging with your friends, and I know how much you miss them, you then cook dinner every night and only eat yourself if Ariana's not done eating by then, and if she is you strave,and,sweetie, Courntey practically takes care of herself. I just dont know why you feel like you have to do EVERYTHING for Ariana and not let me or Katie or even Carlos, or one of the girls watch her for a little while." she told him.

"I'm the one who got myself knocked up,Mom, she's my responsabilatie and she's MY daughter, I have to take care of her, I already feel bad enought that I leave her home alone five days aweek to go to SCHOOL, when I could just drop out and go work for Uncle Danny-"

"Kendall Benjamin Francis Knight." Jen hissed out.

"What?"

"You stop that talk RIGHT NOW, you are NOT dropping out, and you are NOT going to work at a insurance company and be misreable. YOU, younge man, are going to finish high school,
go to a college near by, GET your journalism degree and then you are going to work for a newspaper or magazine or whatever like you WANT to." She told him sternly.

"Mom,you know how much I would LOVE to do that,but I dont think I'll be able too-"

"Yes you will. Now get your butt to school before I Kick. It. There." she threatend him.

Kendall sighed and then nodded giving them a little wave before going to the garage, twirling his car keys around his fingers.

Not alot of people knew Kendall had his own car, it wasnt a secret or anything, but he never used it unless he had too, and Carlos insisted to driving him to school everyday cuz it was on his way.

Besides Kendall didnt like driving that much anyways, that was how his dad had died, Kendall remembered that day very well and he blamed himself for his fathers death...they had been in the car together, around ten at night, singing loudly to the music of Logan Henderson, Kendalls obsession. Logan had always found it hilarious that he and Kendall's celebrity crush shared the same name.

The streets had been extra dark that night, a little foggy as well...they had been driving down the street not so far from Kendall's future high school and then all Kendall had seen was head lights coming from his side, and then his father throwing himself sohe was infront of Kendall and then...blackness.

The next thing Kendall knew, he was waking up to a white hospital room, his ribs aching and his face cut up, his right arm broken, Logan had been the only one in the room, holding his left hair, eyes puffy and red and tears streaming down his face.

Kendall had asked Logan what was wrong and Logan said for him to get some rest, then Kendall has asked about his father, and Logan gave him the same answer, and that had lead to a sobbing screaming Kendall demanding to be told what happened.

Logan had tried to calm him down but he wouldnt listen, he screamend at Logan to tell him what was going on, where his daddy was, and then finally, crying silently, Logan told him his father had died instantly when the car hit them.

Kendall had had what only could be called a spazz attack, he was sobbing and crying for his dad, and then Logan had pulled him into his arms and held him in his arms until his mother had came in, eye's red and puffy.

Frome then on he and Logan had gotten even closer, and Kendall absolutly refused to get into a car unless Logan was there with him, the day he had came out of the hospital, he had started screaming the second he saw his mothers car and wouldnt go any where near it until finally, Kendall had begged for Logan, she had called him and within minutes Logan was there, leading Kendall to the car, arm around his waist.

And he still hated driving to this day, but he didnt want to be near Carlos, he didnt want to be near anyone, expecially Logan.

Last night he had sent Carlos a cool text about how he didnt want to be picked up.

Kendall sighed as he hopped into the black car, shutting the door and then starting the engone, turning on the radio to his favrite station, sighing as the voice of Logan Henderson filled the car.

You gotta believe in me even if you can't see me there i'll catch you when you fall

Kendall snorted as he drove out of the drive way, yeah, that was a fucking lie, no one was ALWAYS gonna be there for you, and if they said that they where a bunch of stupid, motherfucking assholes, for playing with someone feelings like that.

Logan had promised Kendall he would always be there for him...yeah,haha,that didnt fucking happen.

Ok...maybe he kinda had been...but not really...he wasnt there for him when he had Ariana...but he didnt know about Ariana...and he had been there for all the other big things in his life, Logan had been at his side at his fathers funeral, he had held him close when he needed a good cry, he was there for him when his granmother had died and had even flown to France to be there for Kendall a few months after they had started dating, whenever Kendall had been sick Logan took care of him,...and even on the anniversaries of his fathers dealth, the one in sophmore year and junior year AFTER they had broken up someone had said something to Kendall,made him cry,and Logan had punched them in the face, and then the last two aniversaries of there break up...some guys named Ned Darwin had said some really fucked up things to him, and Logan had wipped that ass like there was no tommorow.
And then on December twenty third the day they had gotten together in the first place...lets just say Logan almost got expelled for what he did to someone.

It was like all thoose three dates Logan became what he once was,his protecter,his Knight,his caretaker.

Kendall shook his head as he pulled up into the parking lot, putting his keys in his bag and making sure to lock the door as ot of the car.

He could feel eyes in him as he walked into the school, by now everyone would have heard about his and Logans fight and would alreadybe judging what they thought that it meant,
but he was a Knight, and A Knight does NOT let other people make him feel weak or stupid...well except for Logan...and Ariana...and Carlos...

But you get what he means! He wouldnt let it show that they made him feel weak, all he had was his pride and dignaty...ok Logan had totally taken his dignaty a long time ago,
scratch that, he still had his pride...was that the same thing? He was going to say it was.

So Kendall walked into school with his head held high, refusng to look at anyone.

Kendall walked up his locker, ignoring Carlos who was leaning against his locker going threw a folder, he looked up when Kendall past by but the blonde acted as if he didnt see him.

Kendall hummed as he opened his locker, putting the books that he needed for his first few periods in his bag and the one's he didnt need back in his locker.

"Kendall?"

The blonde turnend his head to see Carlos leaning against the locker next to him, eye's wide and serious.

"What?" Kendall asked him.

"Why didnt you want me picking you up this morning?" Carlos frownend.

"Why does it matter. Saved you gas. I got some alone time." Kendall said as if it was simple.

Carlos frownend and narrowed his eyes at the blonde, worry clearly crossing his features as he stared at the blonde, Carlos's expression fell after a moment, a sigh escaping his lips.

"I know your upset." Carlos told him.

"You dont know anything." Kendall replied.

Hurt crossed Carlos's features at Kendalls words, looking at the ground.

Kendall bit his lip and looked at Carlos with guilty eyes.

"I'm sorry,Carlitos, I-I didnt mean it like that." Kendall told him with big eyes.

"Yeah-Yeah I know. I gotta go.I'll see you later." Carlos said before walking away.

Kendall sighed and leanend against his locker, feeling like a dick, he had pushed away his best friend, and better yet, he had hurt his feelings.

Kogan*Jarlos*Kogan*Jarlos

Kendall felt like crap the whole entire day, looking just about ready to burst into tears.

He had already had a hell of a week, he had gotten into a fight with his ex boyfriend, had realized he still had feelings for his worst enemie,and now his best friend wasnt talking to him, and it was only Tuesday for god's sake.

And what made it worst all his other friends wouldnt look at him either, apparently a extremly upset Carlos had cried to James, James had ranted to Logan,Loganhad told Guitar Dude,
and Mercedes,who told Blonde and Curly Jennifer,who told Brunette Jennifer and Stephanie, who then told Jo and Camille.

So yeah, now all his friends were pist at him.

God he fucking hated his life.

He so muchly wanted to skip school,but Victoria would tell his mom he was there and he would get grounded and then that would add to his fucked up week.

Right now he was walking to lunch,missing the bouncy Latino that was usually by his side.

Kendall sighed as he walked into the lunch room, all his friends were at there usual lunch room, Kendall hadnt eaten since...Sunday Night? Yeah that seemend about right, so he went to get himself lunch,there not being much choice since he didnt eat meat.

He decided on a fucked up looking salad and a thing of lemonade as he made his way over to his table, his seat was open as always, he knew they would never make him sit somewhere else, they hadnt made Logan when he cheated on him,or made Jo sit by herself when she had made Camille cry for three days straight...and if they did, Kendall was going to skip the rest of the day and go cry in his bedroom.

But they didnt say anything as he sat down, actually everyone went silent and no one was looking at him, except for James who was giving him a cold glare and Carlos was staring at the table top, everyone else playing with there food.

Kendall chin began to tremble as he tried to keep control of the tears that wanted to fall, his emotions had been going crazy since Saturday and already so much shit had happened to him,and now none of his friends were talking to him.

Kendall's breaht hitched as he tried to keep the sobs in, swallowing the lump in his throat.

But it didnt go down the lump stayed, and he tried again, but still nothing, he was trying that hard not to cry.

Kendall looked to his right to see Logan there, his being the only ones that meet his own, they were wide and brown and concernend.

Kendalls eyes didnt move away from Logan as they filled with tears, Logan's eyes softenend at the sight of them, his hand going out to rest over Kendalls that was on the table top, Kendall didnt pull away, it actually made him feel...better.

"J'ai envie de pleurer." (I wanna cry.) Kendall whispered to him in French, tears threatning to pool over.

"Pourquoi?" (Why?) Logan asked him in the same low voice.

"Tout le monde me d teste." (Everyone hates me.) Kendall whispered.

Logan shook his head.

"Je ne suis pas." (I don't) Logan assured him.

"vraiment?" (Really?) Kendall asked him,shocked.

"Vraiment." (Really.) Logan said.

"Puis-je pleurer?" (Can I cry?) Kendall asked him as if he needed permission.

"Si vous avez besoin pour." (If you need to) Logan told him.

"J'ai besoin de." (I need to) Kendall told him.

Logan removed his hand from Kendall and then did something that he thought Logan would have never done again, Logan held his arms out to him. Kendall didnt hesitate, he moved forward and placed his face in Logans neck, letting the tears fall, his hands fisted Logan's shirt and he just let himself go and sobbed into it.

He didnt know what the fuck was happening, he hated Logan,but loved him,but loathed him,but wanted him near, and his friends were pist at him,and he was confused about everything and hurting about everything and Carlos hated him.

"What the fuck?" Carlos asked suddenly.

Logan and Kendall looked at him with wide eyes.

"What the fuck Kendall? You wont tell ME whats wrong, but you'll go crying to HIM, the guy who you fighted with yesterday and have been hating for like,three years. Seriously?"
Carlos snapped at him.

Kendall ripped himself away from Logan and without speaking he left the lunch room.

He hated his fucking life.

So...what do you think?
Tell me what you liked and what you didnt...I have no fucking idea why I'm hooked to this story lately...well be thankful while it lasts,in a few days I'll most lilekly get hooked to another one of my stories and not touch this one for like a month.
I feel like the ending was stupid and maybe a few of you are pist at Carlos?
Anyways,tell me what you thought and please review!
Lots of Love,
Sarah