Pain and mixed emotional agony are awaiting this confused mixed-matched pair. Also look out for my song I put in here, to liven the mood. The song idea was from a close friend of mine. I think you all know who I'm talking about. ;)
jazmin pov
The days that followed after benny and me broke up, I was a wreck. I felt like doing nothing all day long, everyday for weeks I just sat around in my robe with my hair all tangled and messy and I wore no makeup, there was no point since I had noone to wear it for. When the girls were outside playing in the freh air, I sat alone in the livivng room closing all the blinds so that it was just dark, letting no sunlight inside, I sat there watching a bunch of cheesy soap operas and romance movies eating bowl after bowl of ice cream.
"Mummy are you okay?" Scarlett said as she and fuscia came inside seeing me sitting in the dark alone.
"Not really" I replied back.
"Do you miss daddy and benzin?" She went on and said.
"A little more your brother really" I said covering up the fact I missed benny more than I let on.
"Why don't we go and see them" Fuscia said.
"We can't see them at least not today, maybe tommorow" I tell them.
It hurt me to tell the girls that they couldn't see their own father and brother, but it's only been a few days and I didn't need to see benny right now. A moment later the phone rang and I answered it.
"Hello?" I said slowly
"Jazmin?" I heard a very familiar voice.
"Benny?!" I said shocked it was him.
"Yeah it's me. How you doing?" He said.
Like he really wanted to know. "I-I'm good, and you?" I said back.
"Same here" He said. "So I just called to check on you and the girls"
"We're doing good. How's benzin?" I asked.
"He's good too" He said.
"Well can I speak to him please" I asked. There was a silence before benzin picked up.
"Mummy!" I heard his happy little voice and my face lite up.
"Hi sweetie how are you?" I said happily.
"Good, I miss you mummy" He said sounding sad.
"I miss you too, I promise I'll visit you really soon" I said whining a little. "Would you like to talk to your sisters" I asked
"Yes please!" He said.
"Girls come talk to your brother" I said handing the phone off to them. The girls talk to their brother for a while and then they switch to their father, they were so happy to talk to the 2 men in their lives after not seeing or hearing from them for almost weeks now.
"Mummy, daddy wants to talk to you" Scarlett said handing me the phone.
"So jazmin I was just wondering when did you want to meet up again for the kids?" He asked.
"Oh I don't know maybe the day after tommorow works for me" I said setting the date.
"Why not tommorow?" He said.
"I have things to do tommorow" I said clearly. "Unless you want to move it to a later time if you have plans on that day too"
"No, no, day after tommorow works just fine" He said back. "See you then"
"Same to you" I said back.
"Bye Mummy!" I heard benzin call from the background.
"Bye benzin I love you!" I said back to him.
"Bye daddy!" Fuscia and scarlett called throught the phone as well.
"Bye girls love you" Benny said back before he hung up. I hung up as well and sighed. I missed benny so much and I just didn't know why, was it because of gulit or something eles. I couldn't figure it out just yet but I knew it was something.
Everywhre in the house something reminded me of benny, all the pictures we had taken and all the gifts he had brought me over the years, they all reminded me of him. But nothing reminded me more of him than bennie, she looked so much like him in every way from the blonde hair to the blue eyes, she even had his name, I loved bennie so much but it was hard for me to be around her when she reminded me so much of her father.
"Mummy can we go to the mall?" Fuscia asked.
"Girls mummy doesn't want to go anywhere right now" I said lying back on the couch. Just when I went back to sulking all day long the phone rang again.
"Oh come on" I said annoyed reaching over my head and grabbing the phone. "WHAT!?" I said angrily.
"Jazmin" I heard my mothers voice on the other line.
"Oh mum I'm so sorry, I thought you were someone eles" I apologized.
"That's alright sweetie. I just called to see how everythings going?"
"Just fine, everythings just peachy" I lied.
"Oh well if your not doing anything me and your father were wondering if you'd come by for a visit, we haven't seen you or the kids in a while now" She said.
"Oh sure we can come over right now if you want" I said.
"That's perfect" She said happily.
"We'll be over in a little bit, I just have to do a few things" I said before hanging up. Usually when I was having a rpoblem I would talk to my mum about it, but I hadn't seen her in almost 2 years since last I brought the kids over to meet them. I figured I could go over and talk to my mum about the recent break up and maybe she could help me and if not my old friends could we've been through so much in the past and other than juliet I knew I could count on them.
"Hey girls were going to see you grandparents"
"Oh boy!" The girls shreiked.
"Go upstairs and get your toys while I change" I followed the girls upstairs and got myself all dressed up, I got benny from her crib and waited at the door for the girls.
"Hurry up girls!" I yelled to them.
"Coming!" They siad and raced right past me out the door. We drove down the alley to my grandparents house, we took the shortcut throught the old alley, when we passed the red/blue gates to the main garden, I thought right behnd those gates were my son and ex-husband. At this moment I thought of going in and getting benzin so he could come with us but I knew I would run into benny in there and aI was just in no mood to see his face right now, so I just passed by with a ting of regret.
We pulled up to the red gate of my home garden a ways away. I got the girls out the car and knocked on the gate where my mum was the first to greet me.
"Jazmin" She smiled.
"Hi mum!' I shreiked hugging and kissing her.
"Hi grandma" Fuscia and scarlett said wrapping their tiny hands around my mums thighs
"Oh it's so good to see my granddaughters again"
"And your new granddaughter too" I said showing her bennie.
"Another child, someones been busy lately" She joked taking bennie from my arms
"Mum, please" I said embaressed.
"Come inside all of you" She moved letting me in. I walked into my garen with the girls at my heels I greeted and hugged all my old friends as we passed them by. We came to the big cherry tree where my dad, nina and friedns were all gathered.
"Hey look who paid us a visit" Mum stepped aside making me present.
"Jazmin!" Cierra and eloise shouted running towards me. We gathered in a group hug and shreike in joy.
"How's my little girl?" My dad walked over to me.
"Great daddy thanks" I said kissing him.
"Hi grandpa" Fuscia smiled as she and scarlet jumped into his arms.
"And how are my 2 beautiful grandaughters" he said kissing them both.
"Uh make that 3" Mum said showing she had my 7 month old daughter in her arms.
"Dad, mum this is your new grandchild, bennie" I said.
"Oh she's so precious" Nina said looking into benies eyes ans bennie giggled.
"And you named her bennie too?" Cierra said.
"Yeah we named her after her father" I explained.
"Where is benny anyway?" Nina asked.
"And benzin too, I want to see my grandson" My dad asked.
I stopped smiling when they said the words benny and benzin, I started growing tears and crying before I even realized it.
"Jazmin what's wrong?" Nina asked.
"I'm sorry I have to go" I said before turning around and running away, I ran into the shed and right into my old room crying into my pillow.
"Mummy!" I heard scarletts voice soon after as she and the others came into my room.
"Is something wrong?" Mum said sitting on bed with me.
"Yes, no, uh i don't know it's complicated" I cried.
"You'd feel better if you talked about it" She said putting a hand to me back.
"Girls could you go outside please" I said to scarlett and fuscia.
I wiped my eyes and started to tell her the whole thing. My parents were also retired spies themselves so they knew where I was coming from and eloise and cierra aslo knew me and nina were spies as well so I had no trouble talkig to them about it. I told them the whole story and about how me and benny had split up, which was really hard to tell with a broken heart.
"Oh jazmin I'm so sorry to hear that" Mum said rubbing my shoulders.
"I didn't know all this spy buissness was messing with your life" Nina said
"It's not, I mean I love what I do and I also love my family but, trying to keep it from benny was just too much for me and him to take. I didn't want to end it with him but I figured it was best this was if we just split up. I wouldn't have to keep my secret anymore and benny wouldn't have to worry about me all the time" I said wiping my tears again.
"How did benny feel about all this?" Dad asked.
"I don't wanna talk about that, but he seemed perfectly fine with it, as am I" I said starting to cry again.
"So benzin now lives with benny all alone and the girls are with you now" Cierra cleared up. I nodded.
"So you won't be seeing him again?" Eloise asked.
"No even though me and benny can't stand each other right now, we agreed we'd meet up every now and then, for the kids sake. In fact I'm going to met with him the day after tommorow" I tell them.
"Well you could talk this out with him" Mum said.
"There's nothing to talk about" I said stubbornly.
"I have a feeling there is" She said back.
"Mum dad could me and the girls just stay here for a few days, I just can't go back home right now" I said starting to cry again.
"You can stay as long as you want' Dad said kissing my forehead and clearing the room of the others.
"I'll come back later to check on you" Mum said taking bennie from my arms and walking away.
I sat in my bed looking at the ceilig as I did earlierbac home. I didn't want to admit it but I really missed benny badly, I still had a lot of anger for him but underneath all that I still felt a tiny little spark of affection for him, but I wasn't just going to come out and tell him that, he made it perfectly clear that he didn't need me and I made it clear I didn't need him, but what was I to do with all these feeling I was keeping inside. Perhaps when I see him in a few days I'll be able to talk to him, I knew there was no good chance we would get back together, but only time could tell for sure.
Benny pov
All day long for the pat weeks since jazmin and I had split up the only thing that ran through my mind was questons. Why did I leave her? why didn't I stop her? Why didn't I see what I'd done sooner? I still liked jazmin, a lot and I wasn't sure if it would ever go away, but it didn't matter anyway because jazmin was never going to take me back, not after what I said to her, all those things the night we had that fight I wish I could turn back time and stop myself from ever saying it, but it was done and I screweed it all up for both me, jazmin, and our kids.
"Daddy?" I heard benzin say as I looked to the floor where he was. "You ok?"
"I guess" I sighed.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked.
"No" I said. I would've talked about it but how would I expain what I was feeling to a 5 yr old?
A little while later gnomeo juliet and violet came inside. "Hey benny, benzin" Gnomeo greeted.
"Hey uncle gnome, hi auntie juliet" Benzin said hugging them both.
"hey guys what's up?" I said looking to them.
"I was just about to take violet for a walk and she was hopping that" Juliet started but violet finsihed before her.
"Can benzin come with us uncle benny?" Violet said with her big blue eyes.
"Of course he can" I said happily.
"Thanks daddy" Benzin said grabing violets arm and running out with juliet. When they were gone I went back to lying down thinking about jazmin.
Gnomeo pov (first in the story)
Benny looked really upset, ever since he abd jazmin split up all he did was lie around sighing and moarning He also developed a sour attitude sometimes. I knew that he was only acting this was because he missed jazmin, but knowing benny for as long as I have he'd never admit that. He was looking at the ceiling sad and depressed, he looked like he could use a friends and fast.
"Everything alright?" I said to him.
"Sure why wouldn't it be?" He said with a smile, but I knew he was faking it
"I was just wondering how you were, you know with jazmin and all" I started.
"You can stop right there, I know you're worried but i'm doing perfectly fine without her" he snapped back.
"You sure?" I asked.
He nods yes. "Totally, me and jazmin broke and it's clear to me that she's happy without me"
"Really cause that's not how she acted when you guys got divorced"
"Really how did she act?" He asked anxiously.
"Sad and hurt, almost as if she didn't want to do it in the first place" I said.
"Really?" He leaned closer.
"She even said she'd miss you being by her side at night" I said quoting what she had said that day.
"Well I admit I kinda miss her too" He finally admits.
"What about her do you miss"
"Not that much, nothing that would be interesting?" He tells me
"So nothing about her interested you" I wondered.
"No, not really. I mean sure she had a beautiful face and nice hair and she was so sweet and caring, not to mention she had the most angelic voice that sounded like the purest angels in perfet harmony and..." He stopped his babbling when he saw me smirking to him. He cleared his voice and spoke again. "Not that I noticed all those things until now"
"Sounds to me like you still love her" I said with a smirk.
"What are you talking about" He said like I was crazy.
"C'mon benny don't hide it you know you do" I bumped his arm
"Gnomeo you know me I don't fall in love with girls" He states.
"I aslo know when you feel attraction to girls and thats what you felt with jazmin" I said.
"Yeah I felt attracted to her, I didn't love her" He said.
"If you didn't love her why'd you marry her then"
"Because I...loved her" He mumbled as I giggled. "B-But we split up, which proves I didn't really love her"
"So why'd you break up for?" I wanted to know.
"I told you, she was keeping secrets from me and I was really annoyed with it so I just broke it off" He said crossing his arm.
"So just because she wouldn't tell you her personal buissness you decided to end your relatioship with her" I said looking at him weirdly.
"If she can't be open with me then what's the point of being with her" He crossed her arms.
"Benny love is being with someone no matter what. Even if jazmin had a secret, if was your job to stand by her whether she told you or not" I explain to him.
"Yeah but still, she could've just told me"
"If you had a secret that jazmin kept bugging you about would you tell her"
"No, it's only personal to me" He said back.
"Just like jazmins was to her" I tell him. He goes silent after that with an obvious look on his face.
"Benny you can deny loving jazmin all you want, but you know it's there and until you admit that you're gonna be feeling confused your whole life" I said to him before walking away.
"Gnomeo wait!" I turn back to see what benny had to say. "You're right" He sighed.
"Right about..." I said wanting him to be clear. even thoguh I knew what he was going to say.
"About everything, I still love jazmin a lot and I don't think I'll ever stop loving her" He started getting depressed I walked back and put an arm on his shoulder.
"I messed up with her I know I did, but I really just want to go back to the way things were, with her and me and our kids, I want her back" He admits.
"Well just tell her that"
"I can't, I made it clear that I never wanted to see her again and she was just as clear about it. Even if I did tell her she hates me, it's just over and I can't fix it"
"You still can" I tell him
"How?"
"You and jazmin are meeting up in a few days right? just tell her then"
"But what if she still hates me after what I said she'll never listen to me" he said depressed.
"You never know until you try" I said to him before running off.
benny pov
I didn't know what gnomeo was trying to get at with this but I knew for one thing that It wasn't going to work. Even if I did tell jazmin I was sorry she was never in a million years ever going to take me back. But none the less I needed to tell her this and I needed to tell her soon.
I started to sing a song that I had always dreamed of singing to jazmin one day It was my favorite song of all time and I imagined jazmin was right by my side singing with me with that heavenly voice of hers.
I love the way you lie- eminem/rihanna
jazmin
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
benny
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off a love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"
No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.
Here we go again
It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who's that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
jazmin
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
benny
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you're with 'em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em
You swore you'd never hit 'em; never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em
So lost in the moments when you're in them
It's the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you're best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know you 'cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window "pain"
jazmin
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
benny
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll lay my fist at the drywall
Next time? There will be no next time!
I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I'm just gonna
jazmin
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
After the last part I laid back on my pillow and looked up into the sky. I know jazmin and I spilt up and all but I just really wanted to see her again, I didn't know why I should after what we both put the other through, but if I could just tell her my thoughs and make her see I still cared for her, she might take me back. But then I remembered how angry and upset she made me, all that anger she took out on me and what I took out on her. Forget it, jazmin made me to upset to every see her again, if she doesn't want to be around me then I don't need her. I don't need her anymore and it's only a matter of time before she realizes that she was so wrong to leave me and want to come crawling back to me.
But in my mind I knew that wasn't entirely true, if anything I was probably gonna be the one running back to her.
What do u think will everything work out or will things get worse. Stay tuned and find out.?