Chapter 10

Adrianna POV

When I woke up in the morning Bri was still in my bed beside me, I reached over and grabbed my phone noticing a few missed calls and unread messages some of them were from Damon and Josh checking up on me while the rest were from Spence trying to apologise for keeping it from me, I was surprised he didn't try and reach me in my dreams.

"How are you feeling this morning?" Bri finally woke up and realised I was already awake, I didn't feel like getting out of bed yet, it was Sunday and that normally meant a lazy day filled with homework.

"My hands are really sore" I lifted them up and had a look at them, they weren't sore last night but they were killing me now. I wonder if I could get dad to heal them or if he would say it was my own fault, he had heard the lecture I've had from Rose and Dimitri in the past.

"Who cleaned them?" Bri spoke while looking at my hands.

"Anastas, he found me in the gym and got me to stop before I made them worse, he then cleaned them up and asked me to tell him what happened"

"Awe how sweet" Bri teased and I gave her shove causing her to end up on the floor, she sat up and glared at me but I just laughed at her.

"It's not a big deal, I have a feeling any other Guardian would have done the same thing. Hasn't Tanner cleaned up your hands before?"

"Yeah after I got the biggest speech in the world about not taping my hands"

"I've had the same speech from Rose and Dimitri"

"Doesn't surprise me, have you spoken to Spencer?" I shook my head. "He was really worried after you left but we convinced him to leave you alone for the time being" Bri stood up and climbed back in beside me

"I just can't believe he didn't tell me himself, the rumour affects him as well"

"Look I know I can't commend him for keeping this from you but I remember exactly what you were like the last time rumours were floating around about you. You shut both Damon and I out and threw yourself into training"

I looked away from Bri remembering what happened last time, it was just before Christmas break sophomore year. I can't remember what set it all off to begin with but it ended up with me passing out from exhaustion and ended up with me going home to Court a few days earlier to rest for longer.

It was a combination of things that I was worried about that caused me to panic at the time, I'm not sure if Spence was the one that set it off but it was around the same time I met him and realised he was a Spirit user. He began calling me goldie and I was worried, it wasn't until he told me about the golden halo I apparently had I ended up dragging him to see dad.

After that I was worried about what was going to happen, we hadn't had anyone openly say anything to me about what was present in my aura mainly because dad hadn't come across another Spirit user that could see auras like he did.

There was also rumours floating around that I was stripping and putting on shows for the senior Moroi at the time, it was something I could have passed off now but at the time I was actually worried about how it was going to affect me.

It was also a combination of worry about my life, my grades and my education. I threw myself into training ignoring my friends attempts to draw me out of my own bubble that I was stuck in, I only came out once I woke up in the hospital and Alberta sent me home for a couple of days.

That period of time when I threw myself into my training was how I jumped ahead of the rest of the novices.

"Dri please don't spiral back into your bubble" I shook my head at her, I wasn't spiralling back and I wasn't going to let myself.

"I'm not Bri, I just don't know how to deal with this. This is probably the worst kind of rumour any dhampir could have"

"I know Dri and I understand but you can't shut Spencer out because he didn't tell you, you need to talk to him"

I didn't say anything to Bri, I just climbed out of my bed and grabbed my stuff before heading down the hall to the bathroom to shower.

I was surprised when I made it back to my room and found Bri still in the same spot I left her, I assumed she would have gone and gotten changed and showered like I did.

"You honestly think I'm going to leave you alone today? You're insane and I'm hurt that you don't know me that well" I shrugged at her before putting my stuff away and climbing back in beside her ready to spend the day watching T.V

Hours and who knows how many episodes later my dorm room door opened and Spence stuck his head in. "I'll talk to you later" Bri gave me an encouraging smile as she got out of my bed and left me alone with Spence.

Spence didn't say anything at first, I just sat up and he took a seat at the end of the bed and watched the T.V.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I finally spoke after I turned the T.V off grabbing his attention.

"Because I didn't want to freak you out"

"So what you just hoped I wouldn't hear the rumour at all? I had to hear it from some junior"

"I didn't want you to spiral out of control again…"

"Oh god will everyone stop with that, it's not going to happen again. I lost control once and it won't happen again"

"Dri I'm sorry alright, I just worry about you and I don't want you to lose it again"

"What do you think would have happened once I found out?" Spence shifted on the bed so he was facing me properly.

"Too be honest I hoped you didn't find out"

"Seriously? How the hell could I not find out, at least someone had the guts to tell me. You just kept it from me as if I was some precious doll that would be break at any sign of bad news but guess what I found out and I'm still sitting here perfectly fine"

"Except for your hands" Spence muttered and I shot him a look. "Sorry"

"Really? I swear this year we've had more problems than previously" Spence moved up on the bed so he was hovering above me and his face was directly in front of mine.

"I know and I'm sorry babe, I have no explanation as to why we have but as for what happened I truly thought I was doing the best thing for you. I didn't want you to freak out and spiral out of control, I was planning on telling you once the term was over and you were heading home. I hoped you being at Court for a couple of weeks will help you get over the rumour and hopefully everyone else would have forgotten it."

I shook my head, I didn't like that he had kept this from me and I meant it when I said we've had more problems this year and I didn't know how much we could handle until we broke, I was really worried.

"Dri please say something" Spence spoke softly before leaning closer to me, his face was incredibly close to mine and I almost suspected him to kiss me.

"I'm just sick of fighting with you, I'm sick of worrying that this is going to be the last time" I spoke and he softly laughed causing me to frown at him.

"I'm fighting for you, not with you. I'm fighting to keep you safe and keep you by my side, losing you is the last thing that I want and I hate…" He took in a breath obviously trying to find the right words and I just watched him. "I hate that I'm doing it wrong and what I'm trying to do backfires on me"

"You were really going to tell me before I leave on Wednesday?" I spoke softly and he nodded. "I want us to go back to normal Spence, no more secrets" I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck

"I promise babe" he gave me a soft smile before leaning down to kiss me.

"Wait…" I spoke before he pressed his lips against mine. "Is that why we haven't had sex, the rumour?"

"No, to begin with I was just enjoying the moments with you without us having sex. After a while we went back to how we were before we started having sex, it was refreshing and I was enjoying it"

"But now?" I leaned up and softly kissed his neck but he groaned and pulled away. "Why don't you want to have sex?"

"Because right now I would rather enjoy this moment" I pouted at him but all he did was shake his head before wrapping an arm around my shoulder and pulling me closer to him. I quickly grabbed the remote and turned the T.V back

At some point I must have fallen asleep and I was taking in the comfort Spence was giving me having not left yet, I didn't want to let him know I was awake yet but for all I knew he was asleep as well.

I heard the door opened, I didn't know who would have come back since Bri would have waited for me to message her and Damon was most likely off with Josh. He and Josh didn't even try to sneak up to our rooms, we didn't see the point in it.

"I'm assuming you two made up?" It was Bri's voice, I wondered why she was in here.

"Yeah, I just hope it's the last. I really don't want to lose her"

"Keeping things from her won't help though Spencer"

"I know, I was planning on telling her Bri just not yesterday. I only found out yesterday morning, Bas heard it from one of the girls and he came straight to me"

"Alright, you should head back to your dorm it's almost curfew." They were silent for a few moments and I didn't feel Spence move. "I'm not going anywhere, I will stay here and make sure she doesn't spiral"

Spence softly kissed my head and shifted me so I wasn't leaning against him and he left room, "Dri I know when you're awake" Bri spoke and I opened my eyes to see her smirking at me

"How?"

"We've been friends long enough and done many sleep overs that I know when you are and aren't asleep"

"I'm not going to Spiral Bri"

"I know that but Spencer doesn't know that, he's honestly worried. When I walked in here he was watching you not the T.V, he looked absolutely worried Dri"

"I'm not going to spiral Bri, it can't happen and I won't let it" I spoke bitterly and Bri came over and sat down beside me and I rested my head on her shoulder.

"I know and as long as you don't shut us out it won't happen" was all Bri said and after that we went into a comfortable silence watching the T.V

A/N: Thank you to who everyone who has read, followed and reviewed my story

ShannonDorf123 thank you for reviewing, it means a lot to me. I'm glad you are having so much fun reading this and thank you for thinking I'm an amazing writing, it means a lot to hear that.

Ilovesos9467 thank you for reviewing, it means a lot to me. It seemed pretty obvious for the rumours to be like that when it comes to a dhampir doesn't it?

BunnyYouRockXOX thank you for reviewing, it means a lot to me. Yes what Bri did was pretty damn cute, I've had my best friend do the same thing. I've come home and found her in my bed waiting for me and I figured why not make Bri do the same thing.