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Chapter 9

I sat there for what seemed like hours, just crying, when I had the tears too. Eventually the tears stopped and one of the waiters got the guts to come over. "Is everything alright?" he asked. I wiped my fingertips over my eyes to clear any remaining tears as well as makeup smudges there may have been. "I… I'm fine." I choked out as I looked up at him. "Uh… Is there anything I can get for you?"

"Um… Actually a cup of coffee to go would be nice." I told him as I looked back down at the table. The waiter left and returned a few minutes later with a cup of coffee. I thanked him and paid before getting up and leaving the coffee shop. I wasn't paying much attention as I walked down the streets back towards the school.

My mind was in a whirlwind as many thoughts blew through my thoughts. The freshest and most painful being what I had just experienced with Jacob. What would the rest of them be thinking or doing when I walk into the dorm? Why had none of them gone looking for me?

One thing I knew for sure was that I needed some sort of story. I wasn't going to tell them what had really happened. I couldn't risk any of them confronting Jacob; he could really hurt one of them if he wanted too.

But what was I to tell them. They would know I was out all night, I was still in my Halloween costume, and it would be around noon by the time I walked through the door. I could buy myself a little time by not talking to anyone and locking myself in the bathroom for a while. I had showered back at the motel but I still felt like I needed to shower again, it was like I could still feel him all over my skin.

My body was still sore as well, mainly my hips, and I knew that they would be bruised from the amount of pressure he had used last night while holding my hips.

I looked up at the dorm building as I was now standing in front of it. My mind was still drawing a blank on what to tell the others. I took a deep breath as I felt the fresh tears fill my eyes. I needed to hold them back until I could get inside and into the bathroom. I started to make my way up the stairs to our dorm.

Pausing outside the door, I listened to see if I could hear any voices or even the TV coming from the other side, which might give me any indication as to who might be in the living room. When I didn't hear any voices on the other side, I opened the door slowly, and took a look around. The living room and kitchen were both empty. In fact the whole dorm seemed completely silent.

"Hello" I called out as I closed the door softly behind me. No one answered, which I found a little weird. I would have thought they would have all been home, what with the amount of drinking some of them did last night. A sigh of relief escaped my lips as I walked down the hall towards my room, it too was empty. Thankful that the others seemed to be out of the house at the moment I grabbed my toiletries bag and a towel and headed to the bathroom to shower once more.

It was a few minutes later, after I had the door locked and was under the hot spray of the shower water that I heard the dorm door open. "I don't know where she's at; I've looked everywhere I could think of." I heard a muffled voice, it sounded like Emmett. "I know Emmett, we've all looked everywhere for her." Alice responded sadly. "I should never have allowed her to walk home. I'm so sorry Emmett. I really thought that she would have been alright." I felt so bad listening to Edward thinking this was entirely his fault.

"Have any of you even noticed that the shower is running in our bathroom?" Rosalie asked as she sounded slightly annoyed. It was a moment later that I heard the pounding on the bathroom door. "Bella!? Bella are you in there?" Emmett's voice boomed through the door. For a moment he sounded a lot like Charlie did when he was upset. "Yeah…" I answered weakly. "Where the hell have you been?"

I thought about telling him to go ask Jacob but immediately threw that idea out the window. "I…uh… was at Angela's." I lied. "Don't you lie to me Bella. I talked to Angela already and she hadn't seen you since the Halloween party last night." Well there went that plan as well. "Where were you?" He asked again, and I had to think of something and quickly, unless I wanted him and the rest to end up in here with me.

"Why don't you guys just let her shower? You can hound her for answers later when she's dressed and ready to talk about it." Alice told Emmett. And whoever else seemed to be standing outside the bathroom door with him. Sighing again; I listened to him grumble a little and then walk away from the door. I tried to relax under the warm water, allowing it to relax my muscles from all of the tension I was harboring since last night. But it was nearly impossible, and I soon gave up and finished my shower before turning off the water and stepping out to examine the damage of last night.

Looking at myself in the mirror was hard for me to do. It was one thing to feel where the bruises would form it was another to see them forming. I sighed; the worst of the bruises were on my hips, where Jacob had held me to tightly. I also had smaller bruises on my thighs the looked like bit marks, with matching ones on the side of my chest. Well at least they would be easy to hide, I just couldn't change in our room with Alice there and I'd have to keep from wearing any of Alice's outfits for a while.

It wasn't until I had wrapped my body in the towel after looking myself over that I realized I had forgotten to grab a change of clothes. Leaning my forehead against the bathroom door, I listened for anyone who might be in the hall. Slowly I cracked open the bathroom door and peeped into the hall. Everything seemed clear enough for me to slip into my room and dress myself before I was bombarded with questions. So I quietly slipped out of the bathroom and headed a little ways down the hall and into my room, quickly closing the door behind me.

My room was empty, which was a relief as I felt I'd rather talk to all of them at once then had to repeat myself if Alice had been sitting in our room waiting for me. I grabbed a pair of sweatpants, some underwear, a bra, and one of the school sweatshirts, and dressed myself, covering as much of my skin and bruises as possible. I didn't want the others to see them and start asking questions about those as well.

I was still a little sore from the bruises still forming as well as that being a usual after effect of Jacob raping me, so my movements were a little slower than usual. Once I was dressed I knew I couldn't put off talking to Emmett or the others any longer. I took a deep breath and opened the bedroom door and walked down the hall to meet my fate, still unsure of what exactly I was going to tell them.

As I walked into the room everyone looked up from whatever they were doing while waiting for me. Rose, Emmett, and Jasper had been sitting in the dining room around the table, while Edward and Alice were on the couch. I walked over and sat in the chair next to the couch nearest to Alice.

I was in no way comfortable being anywhere near Edward or any male at the moment, nor would I really be anytime soon. Just when I thought I was putting all of this behind me, Jacob has to go and mess it all up again.

"Well?" Emmett asked as he stood from the table and walked into the living room. "Well what?" I responded as I looked up at him. "Don't play this game with me Bella. Where were you all might?" He demanded. "What does it matter, I'm nineteen, and you're not Charlie, I don't have to answer to you." I told him as I crossed my arms over my chest.

Yes I was acting childish but I hated myself for what had happened the night before and I really didn't want to lie to him. "I may not be dad, but you scared the shit out of me and everyone else when we got home last night and you weren't here! It only got worse when we woke up this morning and you still weren't here!" He yelled turning from me.

I looked around the room at the faces of our friends; they all held a look of concern on them. Edward's face looked a little more like guilt laced with concern, seeing as he had offered to drive me home last night and I had refused him, he must have blamed himself for my disappearance.

I sighed as I looked up at Emmet again. I really didn't want to say what I was about to but I couldn't think of anything else to tell them. "I was with Jacob." I said softly. Emmett slowly turned to look at me, while Alice and Edward's looks of concern became looks of confusion. Likely from the fact that Alice knew I didn't like Jacob, and Edward had witnessed, and been part of the bar thing after the first football game. Edward wasn't only confused though, his eyes also held anger for some reason.

"What were you doing with Jake?" Emmett asked. "Nothing! I was walking home when he must have been heading home as well. When he saw me he pulled over and offered me a ride. I was so tired I just agreed. But I must have fallen asleep while in the car, because when I woke up I was on his couch. I left before he woke up and came home." I blurted out though I was lying it sounded convincing enough that even I believed it.

"Why didn't he just bring you up to the dorm?" Edward asked through clenched teeth. "I don't know, maybe because the doors were locked and he didn't feel like looking through me purse for my keys." I said as I looked over at him.

"It still doesn't make much sense, but its better that I know you were safe with Jake then out being raped by some stranger." Emmett said as he walked over to hug me. I just bit my lip and smiled sardonically as I nodded, "Yeah."

He had his arms around my waist and I winced a little as he applied pressure to my bruises, but I don't think any of them notice. "Um… if you're done interrogating me now I'd like to get a little more sleep I'm still rather tired." I stifled a yawn as I spoke.

While they thought I had slept most of the night I really hadn't had much sleep other than passing out when I tripped trying to back away from Jacob. Even then I was only out for like an hour or so. "Sure Bells, you get some rest we have finals in a few weeks and I know how you get. "Emmett said as he released his hold on me.

I tried to smile a little as I left them all in the living room and returned to my room. Once there I climbed into my bed and covered myself with the blankets, burying myself in the dark. As I fell asleep I could feel tears sliding down my cheeks as I was haunted by nightmares of last night and other nights were similar things had occurred with Jacob or Charlie.