UNCERTAIN – OUTTAKE

A/N: Well, here it is….hopefully, it's what you all were expecting. For someone reason this character flew out of my fingertips rather easily, LOL. That's scary to me…but good for ya'll;)

Didn't have a chance to have it beta'd but Edward's Eternal was gracious enough to look it over for me. THANK YOU, my friend. And, if you aren't reading her 'Out of the mouths of babes' you really should be….another Daddyward/Doctorward fic

ENJOY!

IRINA POV

I knew that I'd made a mistake. But, I would never admit that to Edward.

I was tired of the relentless obligations that came from upholding his family duties, the duties of being a doctor's wife and simply being a wife in general.

I simply thought that Edward and I would get married, I would shop while he worked then we could continue on our party lifestyle.

Going to the hottest clubs with our friends.

Taking lavish trips as a couple.

Spending time showing off our life to our friends and his colleagues.

But, I soon learned that was not going to be a reality. It pissed me off because somehow someway I was going to take a lot of shit over this mistake.

I just knew that my father would never let me live this one down. Especially since I'd always been his greatest source of disappointment with how I chose to live my life and spend my time.

When Edward hadn't returned my calls or even texted back, I knew that something was going on at the hospital. Something at the hospital was always going on, that was nothing new.

I'd had it this time though. We had plans with my sister, Tanya and her boyfriend, Demitri at a new Art Gallery that had just opened up. I felt stupid and awkward being a third wheel.

I was beyond pissed at Edward.

I flipped back and forth between thoughts of demanding a divorce or for him to quit his job. Hell, with his inheritance sitting in the bank neither of us would ever have to work a day in our lives. But, no, he had to work and prove that he was his 'own man' as he'd repeatedly told me.

Well, I say fuck that. If he wanted me to act more like a wife then by golly he was going to be a regular husband. I wasn't going to give him an option this time.

Felix had been begging me to get rid of my leash and strike up a fling with him again. And, I'll admit, it had been a tempting thought. However, the pre-nuptial agreement we had would be completely void if Edward were to ever find out.

So, I kept fighting him off.

But, that didn't stop me from keeping Felix hanging time and time again.

I was scared of the reality of the situation though. My dad wouldn't support my lifestyle now that much I knew for sure. He would make me get a job, preferably within his company, so that I could learn the ropes and become a 'productive member of society' as he like to throw at me often.

When Edward finally came home, I was beyond pissed and he knew it.

However, I could tell just by the defeat in his eyes that something serious was about to happen.

Then he told me about a son born to him from that bimbo that he'd gone on and on about to his brother and friends. Hell, I knew about her. I also made damn sure that he never got in contact with her, too. I paid that bitch's roommate a thousand dollars to destroy the note and make sure that it never reached its intended target.

What I hadn't counted on was a baby and a son no less. There was no way that Edward Masen would walk away from a male heir … hell, even if it had been a girl, he still wouldn't have walked away. That's just not who he is. He's got too much of his damn mother in him for his own good with that bleeding heart shit.

I knew it was over, like for reals over and fuck me if it didn't hurt.

He was in love with her.

He was in love with his son.

And, I needed to walk the fuck away with some kind of dignity.

But, at least I could hold my head high around my dad because Edward did this, not me. It would fall on his shoulders as the failure and not mine. That shouldn't have made me happy but it did because it would help me in the long run.

While I can't say that I wasn't jealous of this girl … Bella as he'd called her, I sure as hell didn't want to be saddled with a child, even if it was Edwards.

I was still young and nowhere near ready for that type of responsibility.

He was truly letting me go for good this time. I felt it in the way he hugged me and the look in his eyes when he talked about 'them'.

So, I did what I do best, I put on my best poker face and high-tailed out of there. I called Tanya on the way to her condo.

"What's up, sis?" she said as she answered the phone.

I sighed.

"I need to crash at your house for a few days," my voice sounded weak and that bothered me. I don't want to let this affect me, but, I really do love Edward and losing him hurts.

I'm woman enough to at least admit that much.

"What the fuck, Irina?" Tanya barked at me through the phone.

"We're splitting up." I confirmed and fought to hold in the tears that rimmed my eyes.

"For reals this time?" my sister's voice got sadly quiet.

"Yes, it's really over." I said and swiped a tear from my cheek.

"Come on over, I'll have the vodka ready." She said before she hung up.

I pulled a cigarette out of my console and lit it up as I rolled down the window. The cool night air hit my face and I felt the wetness on my skin from the tears that rolled down my cheeks.

What a fucking mess I'd made of things.

But, I don't know how I could have fixed this. I don't know why I thought this time would be any different when we got back together. I had really thought that getting married was the right answer for us.

We had been together for so long it just felt like the natural thing for us to do. We'd both been brought up in the mindset that you chose someone from your social circle; you dated them, got engaged and then married them.

That's how my mother and father did it and it sure as hell was how Elizabeth and Ed were raised. We were born into money and class; we had obligations at birth that would last throughout our entire lifetimes. That's what came with being wealthy; restrictions, duties and responsibilities.

I loved the carefree life that Edward and I enjoyed together while we were away at College, overseas on a trip or just when we could be us, out of the family spotlight so to speak.

He was relaxed, aloof and completely free-spirited. He would laugh and get drunk while singing bad karaoke in some dive bar we'd discovered. He would make out with me in alley ways before taking me on the hood of his car.

We were young kids in love.

And, then I pushed too far by getting our mothers involved. Elizabeth was reluctant at first until I had convinced her that I had changed my ways; giving up the parties and college lifestyle that she didn't approve of. I had agreed to become a member of the various charities that she belonged to and become the 'proper' wife that Edward needed and deserved. It hadn't been easy for me or my mother to get Elizabeth on board with our plan.

However, she knew that I loved Edward and that her son loved me, in return.

She would most likely never speak to me after this as we'd had a huge falling out about an important charity function that I'd missed a few weeks ago. It was an awful mess and had caused an even messier fight between Edward and me.

But the makeup sex had been fantastic.

I sighed and felt another round of tears coming on.

I would definitely miss Edward's delicious cock. The man definitely knew how to fuck and what exactly to do with my body to render me loosely resembling Jell-O.

I pulled into the security gates at Tanya's condo, punched in the code and took a deep breath.

I would go in and let her console me. I would grieve for tonight. I would shed all of my tears.

Tomorrow was another day and I had to move on with my life without my husband.

What's done is done.

A/N: Cannot WAIT to hear your thoughts about this one….so lay it on me;)

See ya Tuesday,

Kyla