Disclaimer: I do not own anything that you recognize from Sons of Anarchy, or any other thing or person you recognize. I do not profit from this story. This story is a product of my imagination and nothing in it should be taken as a fact. The story is written as entertainment and nothing else.

Warning/ Disclaimer 2:I know nothing about terrorists and what I write in this chapter is gathered from news articles in papers and movies (and we all know how true those are, lol ) and from my imagination. I have no knowledge of what is true or not. I don't want to say that there are some people more likely to be terrorists than others with this chapter, what I write in this chapter is only how MELINDA reasons. If you easily get offended by how terrorists often are pictured in movies, please stop read now. If something sounds a bit harsh it's probably because English isn't my first language and I have to look some words up in a dictionary and aren't always sure if I choose the right word.

Author's note: I know I promised you all to post this chapter sooner, but I was really worried about some aspects of this chapter and therefor wanted to read through it more times than usual. Hopefully you have read the Warning/Disclaimer 2 and are well aware that some people might get offended by this chapter.

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True Feelings

Written by Cupcake81

Chapter 10: Am I going crazy?

After leaving her car at a parking lot in downtown Charming, Melinda had walked around the center of the town and she had to admit that this was a nice town. There were no honking car horns, the air was clean and not filled with exhaust from cars as in many bigger towns and the people seemed to be friendly as well.

She had found a couple of nice boutiques and she had actually bought some new clothes. Now she was on her way back to the car to put her bags in the trunk before looking for a store to buy food in. She had already seen a store that looked kind of promising. She was going back to check if she could find everything she needed there.

As she was rounding a corner of a building and coming up on Main Street she sees something in the corner of her eyes that makes her turn and take a closer look. First she isn't even sure of what it was that had caught her attention, a second later she sees a man getting into a car.

She didn't know what it was with that man that made her look again, first she only got a quick look at his profile and then mostly his back as he got in to the car but it had been something, maybe not familiar but… something about him made her look at him again. She cursed silently, if she hadn't been pre-occupied with wondering if she would find what she needed in that little store to make dinner tonight, she might had seen more of that man, maybe enough to understand why she had spotted him in the first place.

The man was kind of muscular and maybe about Kozik's height. He had no distinctive features as far as she could see. His hair was cut short, really short in a way that made her think about militaries. That made her ponder on the thought that maybe he once might have been in the military.

The car was grey and not old, but not the latest model either, it was a sedan. There had been nothing special about neither the car nor the man but she was certain that it was him that had caught her eyes when she first came around the corner.

She tried to come up with a reason for someone she knew to be in Charming. There was none, she hadn't even heard about the town before Kozik moved here. She briefly thought about all known terrorists that she had memorized the looks of, and then she laughs at herself, yeah, a known terrorist was very likely to hide out in Charming, California.

The man had looked American, most of the terrorists and persons of interests she had memorized were from the Middle Eastern, Afghanistan, and Pakistan and from those areas of the world, because those were the areas she had been working in. In fact, she wasn't sure that it was the list of known terrorists she recognized him from. Maybe it was from FBI's list of most wanted criminals, which would make more sense. It might be someone here to talk business with the club. She should ask Kozik if they have some business associates in town. Or maybe it was someone that had followed her to Charming, maybe one of her enemies had found out that she was sick and had sent someone here to spy on her, maybe even kill her. She put her hand down in her bag, just to be certain that her gun was still there.

She was clearly getting paranoid being here, away from her work, and now her mind was trying to find a mystery where none existed. Or… maybe the chemotherapy or the other medications were making her brain go crazy. Her thoughts were clearly crazy; there were no criminals in Charming. Or wait a minute, there was a whole club of criminals in Charming, but they kept every other criminal out of there.

Maybe she was right that the man was a former military, and that he was someone she had met while she still was working for the government? If he was sent here to kill her he would have had the chance last night when she was sleeping in her car.

If she told Kozik about this he was going to laugh his ass off. Melinda didn't know what to do. If she didn't told him about this man that she thought she recognize she was going to wonder about who he was forever. And if she did told Kozik about him, she was never going to hear the end of it. Terrorists in Charming, the bare thought of it felt ridiculous.

Quickly she grabs her phone and snaps a photo of the car and one zooming in on the license plate as the car drives of the parking lot. She even manages to get a photo of the driver even if it only shows his profile. Thinking that she could show them to Kozik sometime just to prove to herself that this was a totally innocent man she had thought being a terrorist or something, she puts the phone down in her purse again and continue looking for a shop to do her grocery shopping in.

When Melinda finds a store that looks to have everything she needs she enters and quickly gathers some things to eat for lunch and some things to be able to make breakfast to Kozik and her in the morning. Then she starts gathering the things she needs to make dinner. She gets lucky and the store has everything she needs.

She starts to feel a bit tired and she considers that she may have over done herself today. After paying for her supplies she puts the bags of food in the trunk of her car and drives back to Kozik's apartment.

After eating a sandwich as lunch she decides to take a nap and takes of her pants before lying down at the bed and pulling a soft blanket over her. It really felt good, she was tired and this was what she needed. Melinda quickly drifts of to sleep.

Later that afternoon she is woken up by Kozik slipping under the blanket next to her. As she tries to turn towards him, he pulls her close and whispers "Sleep, honey. I think you need it and I'll still be here when you wake up."

As she really feels tired she relaxes in to his embrace and feels the heat from his body seeping in to her as she drifts of back into sleep again. Her last thought before she falls into sleep again was that she really needed to tell Kozik about what she saw earlier that day and that he hopefully would know who she was describing. After all, Charming was a small town and everyone probably knew who everyone else was. And she needed proof that she wasn't losing her mind.

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