Note: This may be the last chapter but idk. Comment and tell me if you all want this continued or not.

Joy rushed into the hospital with Kai and Shawn following quickly behind her looking a bit more calm than her but not by much.

"Where is David Rossi's room?!" Joy asked the second she got to the desk "he's my father. Is he okay?! What's going on?!" she asked one after the other.

"Miss-" the nurse was cut off by Emily who had run up to them.

"Joy, Dave is this way" She lead her best friend's daughter to his room and stopped everyone out side of it. "It's bad, I'm going to tell you now. He was tortured and they don't think he'll make it through the night" Emily informed them in a mournful voice as her eyes darted to the floor.

"How bad?" Joy asked hesitantly, tears having already stained her face.

"I don't think there is honestly anything I can say to prepare you for it" Emily almost whispered to the young woman before her.

Joy didn't say a word, walked to the door and slowly turned the handle to reveal her father on the other side. Shawn grabbed her the second she opened the door and collapsed upon seeing him.

"Kai come with me and give your mommy and moment, okay?" Emily lead the little boy away from his grandfather and mom and dad.

"Is grandpa gonna be okay?" he asked looking up at Emily with large fearful eyes. Emily picked him up without a word and brought him into the waiting room with the rest of the team.

Everyone was there now, Aaron was sitting to the side with Jack explaining what happened to Uncle Dave, and Henry was with Will and J.J. who were also explaining in the gentlest way what was going on. Savanna was rubbing Morgan's back as he held Hank in his arms a sad smile across his lips. Reid and Pen sat together talking in hushed tones with hugs occasionally being exchanged between the two. Luke and Matt stood silently by each other, coffee in hand and an almost angry expression on their faces. Emily sat with Kai quietly by Pen and Reid who both hugged the little boy softly before returning to their conversation.

Hayden walked in then, her eyes blood shot from crying and went straight for Kai, picking him up and hugging him to her tightly. Emily could understand the need to hug the little boy, a small part of Dave was a part of him and at this point Kai also needed his family to help him understand.

"Joy is in his room with Shawn, if you want to take Kai back to see Dave" Emily whispered to Hayden so as not to disturb the others.

"Thank you. What room?" she asked, her British accent more prominent than ever.

"Room 913" Emily told her and watched as the two disappeared down the hall.

Joy sat at her father's bed side, her hand gently around his with Shawn silently at her side providing support as he watched his father-in-law. She felt like she couldn't breath, like the whole world was collapsing around her. She had just gotten to meet him three years ago, Kai loved his grandpa and she loved her dad. Why did the world see fit to take that from her? What had she done to deserve this? No. She mentally corrected herself, he's not dead yet, he could still pull through.

"Do you know what the saddest word in the English dictionary is?" Hayden asked as she walked in with Kai in tow.

Joy thought it was rather random but sighed and asked "What is the saddest word in the English dictionary mom?"

"Almost."

"Why?" it was Shawn's turn to be confused.

"They almost made it. He almost lived. We almost got our second chance. I almost let him love me again."

Joy was silent for a long moment before she spoke again "Why didn't you?"

"I loved him more than life itself" Hayden said quietly as she walked to the other side of his bed and brushed his graying hair out of his eyes. "I was afraid" she sighed as she looked at Joy with Kai resting against her chest and Shawn at her side. Hayden gave her daughter a sad and tearful smile "I was afraid something like this would happen and I would loose him and now I'm going to loose him and it too late for that second chance."

Shawn without a word, sensing the need for mother and daughter to be alone, picked up his son and left the room.

Joy walked over to Hayden and hugged her mother, the two of them crying because they knew, they knew this was more than likely the end.

"But get this, I would do it all again, without hesitation. Because you see, we almost made it. We almost fucking made it. And I'd go through it all, for a chance to see you again" ~ K.A.

Notes: Room 913 is a reference to Joe Mantegna's first episode directing on the show which was Season 9 episode 13.