Lost chapter 10

"Ok where do I even start with this story." Emma said shaking her head trying to find the words to explain her son's descent into madness. "You had already left and I called the wedding off. You were right all along, I didn't love Neil anymore. I was marring him just to make my parents happy. If you would have stuck around I could have told you that a long time ago."

"You could have come and found me at any time." Regina said griping the steering wheel.

"Anyway, I was still trying to figure my life out after you left. I made a few questionable decisions." Emma said while fidgeting nervously in her seat.

"What did you do?" Regina said Turing her head to look at Emma, an eyebrow raised.

"Ok so you left and I called everything off with Neil. Things were hard for me I was confused."

"You keep repeating yourself."

"My parent couldn't figure out why I didn't want to be with Neil. It's not like I had anyone to talk to, I sure as hell wasn't going to Archie. Henry was mad at me because I destroyed his image of a perfect family. Everything was spiraling out of control. I couldn't make my parents happy, I couldn't make our son happy. Neil hated me for rejecting him, and you were gone. I felt so alone, so one night I got drunk and had a one-night stand with Killian. It didn't mean anything. "

"Really how is this even important Emma, or are you just trying to hurt me. All you have just proven is you're a slut." Regina said with a clenched jaw, unable to look Emma in the eye.

"I have only had sex with 2 guys in 6 years; I am far from a slut."

"Really Hook, that's just…" Regina grimaced "Not right." The brunet said shaking her head at the revolting idea of her Emma with Captain Eye liner.

"He had a sensual smolder; he was sexy in a pretty metro sexual pirate sort of way. He talks dirty and isn't afraid to…"

"That is disturbing and disgusting, please no more details." Regina said interrupting the story gaging at Emma's description of the Captain.

"He wasn't disgusting, Hook was an evil jerk but I wasn't looking for happily ever after with him. I just wanted sex. Sometimes people just want a hard dirty fuck. He was more than willing, unlike some people who will remain nameless." Emma said looking over to Regina.

"Gross, I really could have done without hearing about your vulgar sexcapdes. Why couldn't you have done that with Henry's father?"

"I told you I just wanted sex. With Neil, it would have been like reopening old wounds. Anyway, Hook of all people, wanted more than sex. One night of drunken debauchery wasn't enough. I only bedded him in the first place because I didn't think there would be any strings attached, I was wrong. "

"Imagine that, another man wanting you to settle down with them. I really don't see how rehashing your sex life with me is explaining anything about our son." Regina said rolling her eyes.

"I am getting to it. Hook started to go crazy and confronted Neil. Hook was convinced Neil was the reason I did not want to be with him. Apparently the Captain couldn't handle rejection."

"So they were both fighting over you and you…."

"I didn't want ether of them, and by the way running off to go find you when Hook was a volatile love sick mess wasn't going to happen. Last thing I needed was him going after you too.

Hook ended up getting really drunk one night and followed Neil. They got in a fistfight in front of Henry. Neil punched Hook first and they wrestled around on the ground. Killian was badly beaten but at the last second, he caught Neil just right and sliced his throat with his hook. I didn't get there in time to heal Neil. He died in Henry's arms. Henry was inconsolable, and hook was a drunken mess. When Gold found out that Hook killed his son, he had a nervous brake down and nearly destroyed the whole town. Gold went after Hook but apparently, Hook found the Dark One's dagger and somehow killed Gold. So... Hook became the Dark One. Henry became obsessed with stoping him. My parents and I were just trying to keep everything from falling apart. Hook was out of control with power. He killed all of the fairies. We tried building something to contain him but nothing worked. I spent so much time trying keep everyone else safe. I did not notice Henry slipping away. He found one of your old magic books, the one with the heart. Henry secretly started using magic. It was slowly poisoning him."

'You should have found me sooner."

"So Hook could kill you too."

"You told Mack everyone was happy I left. It sounds like the town went completely to hell."

"The whole town was happy you left. They thought they were going to get there happily ever after. I was miserable because you left. I wasn't going to tell your kid that though. It was all my fault, everything went to hell. I pushed you out of my life. Then I thought I could fuck the pain away. I was wrong, I didn't think one night could trigger everything. It made Hook go crazy, then Gold, and finally Henry was the last victim. Some savior I made."

"You had no idea that would be the fall out," Regina added quietly.

"Henry somehow managed the get ahold of the dagger when he was 15. Hook was still in love with me so he would never hurt him. In the end, Henry ended up literally stabbing him in the back. He was the only person Hook would not attack on site besides me. Not even my parents thought our son was capable of killing someone. We were all wrong. After that the power that consumed Hook, also took Henry. At first we all thought Henry would be able to fight the dark magic, but he didn't. It consumed him and there was no stopping his rage. He wanted to make everyone pay. He wanted the town and my parents to suffer for what they did to you. Hook was bad but Henry made him look like a saint. I could at least talk to Hook. I can't even tell you all of the horrible things he has done. He hates me, because he blames me for Neil's death."

"I should never have left. I thought I was doing the right thing. He was finally going to have the life he always wanted. He had his real Mom and Dad. I didn't think he needed me. It was just so hard watching everything. Watching the life I wanted being lived by someone else. Emma, as much as I hate to admit it you had no idea Hook would turn our son into a lost boy."