Sooo… I've practicly finished this story already. I just have to update a couple of more times! There will be 13 chapters in total. Enjoy this one!
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For the heart I once had
Chapter 10
Heaven today is but a way Once my heart beat to the rhythm of the falling snow For the heart I`ll never have Living today without a way For the child, for the light For the heart I`ll never have Time will not heal a Dead Boy`s scars For the heart I`ll never have
To a place I once called home
Heart of a child, one final sigh
As another love goes cold
Blackened below, the river now flows
A stream of molten virgin snow
For the child forever gone
The music flows, because it longs
For the heart I once had
To understand the weight of the world
Faded and torn, old and forlorn
My weak and hoping heart
For the heart I once had
I`ll believe and foresee
Everything I could ever be
For the child forever gone
The music flows, because it longs
For the heart I once had
Time will kill
For the child forever gone
The music flows, because it longs
For the heart I once had
Aalia looked up at Trowa with a smile when he entered the apartment. The smile disappeared when she saw the look on his face. "Trowa?"
"Hey," he said softly.
He shrugged of his jacked and hung it up, before slowly making his way into the living room. He dreaded telling her. He didn't want to shatter her happiness. He wanted to wrap her up in his arms and never let her go. With a sigh he sat down on the couch next to her.
"What's the matter? Why are you home so early?" Aalia reached out to touch his arm.
"Afzal has send another assassin after you."
"We're going to leave again?"
"No…" he swallowed. "I'm in no condition to protect you and I don't want to put you and the baby in any danger."
"But staying here…"
"Une has arranged for you to get into the witness protection program."
She stared at him dumbfounded. "What?"
"I… I don't have any other choice." He hid his face in his hands.
"You mean…" She had to swallow herself, "You mean that I have to leave?"
"I'm sorry, Aalia."
"B-but…"
"I swear… If there had been another option I'd taken it." He grasped her hands. "I don't want you to go."
She cupped his cheek. "How long… how long does it take?"
"I don't know." He sighed. "Une is in charge of this. She won't even tell me where you'll be going."
"So… It could be what… months, years… and…" Tears rolled down her cheeks. "Oh God…"
He pulled her into his arms and held her. She cried onto his shoulder as she came to realize that there was a possibility that she might not see him again. Her child might never know its father.
"I love you," she sobbed brokenly.
"I love you too." He kissed her temple. "Never forget that."
"How long do we have until I have to leave?" She pulled back and wiped her cheeks.
"Until tomorrow morning." Trowa took a deep breath.
She bit down on her lip and more tears rolled down her cheeks. She sobbed and buried her face in his shoulder. "I hate him!"
He stroked her hair. He hated this feeling of helplessness. "I swear… I'll make him pay for this."
She tightened her arms around him. "Don't go getting yourself in trouble. It's not worth it."
But what was life worth without her?
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The next morning Aalia woke up early. She turned around in Trowa's arms to look at him. Even in sleep his face showed the anguish they both felt. The night before had been a mixture of tears and passion. She didn't want to leave. Trowa was everything to her.
But she had no other choice. She didn't want anyone to risk their life for her again. The witness protection program was the only choice she had. She sighed and snuggled closer to him. She'd make the best of the last moments she would have with the man she loved.
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Trowa sighed and handed the last bag with Aalia's stuff to one of the men who would make sure Aalia got to safety. Aalia stood next to him. She was trying to be strong, but he could see she was at the verge of breaking.
She turned towards him. He pulled her close and held her. He breathed in the scent of her hair deeply, branding it in his memory. "I love you," he said.
She held onto him tightly. "I love you too. Always."
He sighed, fighting the raging emotions inside him.
"Aalia, are you ready?" Lady Une stepped into the apartment, followed by Duo.
Aalia sighed. "I'll never be ready for this."
She pulled back to look at him. Her eyes shone with unshed tears. Trowa cupped her cheek and kissed her. He could feel the wetness of her tears against his fingers as he deepened the kiss, tasting her for the last time.
When she pulled back the could barely keep himself in check. She turned away from him. He could hear her sobbing quietly. "Aalia…"
She shook her head and stepped towards Une, who gently led her out of the apartment.
"Aalia!"
Duo was quick to stop him from going after her by grabbing his arms. The door fell closed. Trowa struggled in Duo's hold. "AALIA!"
"Trowa," Duo spoke gently, "Calm down."
He was consumed by sadness and went limp.
"Come on…" Duo led him into the living room and made him sit down on the couch.
Already the apartment felt so empty. He looked around. It seemed so cold… His eye fell on something that lay on the dining table. He stood up and made his way over.
On the table lay one of the green baby socks. He reached out and took it into his hand, clutching the soft fabric in a tight grip. He would never know his own child.
Duo jumped up startled as Trowa suddenly let out a roar and dashed into the bedroom, throwing the door shut behind him. He was worried. He had never seen Trowa like this. He took his cell phone out of his pocket and dialed Hilde's number. After two rings it got picked up. "I think you need to come over here. I don't think I can handle it…"
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Months passed and Trowa felt like he was slowly loosing his sanity. He missed her terribly. It was like living without a purpose. Une had told him Aalia was safe, but that was all. He couldn't get any more information about Aalia's whereabouts. Not even after a year of being without her. The baby had to be born and he wanted to know so badly if he had a son or a daughter.
He sighed when the doorbell rang and went to open it. Duo and Heero were standing in the door opening. "What?"
"We need to talk to you," Heero said calmly, "Wufei is going to be here soon too."
"Leave me alone." Trowa went to close the door.
Heero stopped him. "Trowa, we want to help you."
"With what?" He glared at them.
Heero pushed him aside and stepped inside the apartment. Duo followed him. Trowa was about to close the door when he saw Wufei coming down the walkway, followed by Quatre. He sighed. He didn't feel like talking to anyone. Didn't they understand he wanted to be left alone?
He let Wufei and Quatre in too and then closed the door. He walked into the living room and sat down on the couch.
"What do you all want?"
"We had to wait a while before we could tell you this. If Une finds out we'll probably all lose our job and go to prison," Heero said with a shrug. "We have a plan."
Trowa frowned. "A plan?"
"Yeah," Duo said, "We're going to kill Afzal Kadeem…"
Technically the plan was not so difficult. Quatre would pay Afzal Kadeem's bail and set him free. Then they would kill him. It had to be done in such a way that it looked like an accident. The problem was that once Afzal Kadeem was dead, Trowa would probably be the first one the preventers would question. Not to mention Quatre.
"The best way would be for him to die in such a way that it would look like natural death," Duo said.
Heero nodded in agreement. "How do we do that?"
Wufei smirked. "A special type of poison."
"You know something?" Quatre asked.
Wufei nodded. "I'll take care of it. Now what's left is the when and where."
They discussed all the options they had. Trowa felt better afterwards. He had a purpose again. When Afzal was dead he could go and find Aalia. If they didn't find out who were behind Afzal's death, that is…
- End chapter 10 -
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