Sorry for the delay in updating I do a lot of volunteer work with kids in the Army Cadets and I have been away for a few days with no time to write but back now. A little bit of bad language in this chapter but not to much. Enjoy
Chapter 9
Olivia, Casey and Melinda all climbed into the cab in silence. Casey looked at Melinda smirking.
"So Olivia…?" Casey said to Olivia who was staring out the cab window in a daze. "Olivia!"
"Hmm….Yeah" she said turning her head. Casey and Melinda both laughed,
"Wow" Melinda said "You have it bad girl".
Olivia smiled and nodded "you have no idea" she sighed, thinking about Elliot's lips on hers making her stomach flutter, god she loved him so much. She can't believe she just walked away from him, telling him they have to wait before they take things further, when all she had wanted to do was drag him into the bedroom.
"I must be crazy" she said. Casey and Melinda looked at her. "I have just left in a cab to go home with you two, when the person I love and want more than anything is in the other direction….I need to go back"
"Olivia, don't" said Melinda "it's obvious how much you both love each other but you need to stick to what you said, you know you do" she told her. "Don't rush it, he has just split with Kathy and so much is going on in his head"
"Yeah I know but… I have waited so long and have loved him from a distance, so why should I wait even longer, I know what I want, and I want him"
"Hun we know that, but he has to make sure it's what he wants, we know he loves you that is obvious but…"
"You think he will go back to Kathy don't you" she snapped.
"Well he did last time" said Casey.
"Yeah but only cause she lied to him about Eli"
"But Liv even if she did lie about who got her pregnant it still means he….he slept with her after they split up, and they had been apart for over a year when he must of slept with her." Said Casey. Olivia glared at Casey "I just don't want you getting hurt Liv".
"He knows he made a mistake sleeping with her, he told me. He admitted he was weak and he shouldn't have done it. He also told me he only went back to her cause he felt like he had to. He is a good man he loves his kids that's the only reason he went back" she told them defending Elliot.
"And what if he goes back again for his kids?" asked Casey.
"He won't his kids have left with him, they want to be with him"
"I hope your right Olivia, cause I would hate to see you hurt by him"
"I won't Casey, I know he loves me as much as I do him" tears fell from Liv's eyes as she told them. Melinda reached aver and put her arm around Olivia's shoulder.
"Well if he loves you as much as you say he won't mind waiting will he" she smiled at her. Olivia smiled back.
"I guess not….it's just so hard cause I want him so much"
"Believe me Honey after that display in the kitchen we get how much you want him" she laughed.
"Yeah and who can blame you he is fuckin hot" laughed Casey.
"Oh Yeah" said Melinda.
Olivia turned and looked at both her friends laughing "Excuse me" she said.
"Oh come on Liv, do you think you're the only one who thinks that" laughed Melinda.
"So your serious about Liv then?" asked Fin passing Elliot another beer.
Elliot nodded "Yeah Man" he said taking a drink and looking down to the kitchen floor. "And before you ask she isn't a rebound thing….I have felt something for years I just kept screwing up and screwing my wife"
Fin looked at Elliot "You screw up this time my man and you have me to answer to, I ain't havin Liv hurt"
Elliot looked up at Fin "I won't and I know people will talk and say I only told her cause of what happened with Kathy, and you know what maybe I did, maybe finding out my Wife fucked up my life was just what I needed to finally tell her" Fin just stood watching and listening to Elliot. "I should of told her how I felt years ago instead of being scared by what she would say, if I had told her she might never had left me and gone to oregan. If I told her I would never have spent one fucking night with Kathy which ruined everything. If I had told her how much she meant to me I wouldn't have spent the last year miserable every time she had a date, I hated it." Elliot drank the rest of the beer and went to the fridge to get another one. Fin walked up to Elliot and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Just make sure you don't fuck this up"
Elliot smiled at him "I don't intend to "he picked his beer up "I'm off to bed, see you in morning"
Elliot walked into his room and stripped down to his boxers before lying on top of the bed, thoughts of Olivia going through his head, the kiss, her touch, the taste of her. He groaned and looked down at the tent appearing in his shorts. He sat up and grabbed a towel before heading into the shower. After yet another cold shower he lay on the bed in just a towel and picked up his phone and pressed speed dial 1.
"Hey" she answered.
"Hey, I'm just checking you got home okay"
"Yeah I just climbed straight into bed think I had a bit to much to drink" she laughed.
"Yeah" he groaned images of Olivia lying in her bed flashing through his head.
"Yeah, what you up to?"
"Just had a shower….a cold one" he laughed.
Olivia sighed at the thought of Elliot in the shower.
"You there Liv?" he asked as she went quiet.
"Sorry yeah….I didn't want to leave you tonight El, I tried to come back but Casey and Melinda stopped me"
"Might have been for the best" he sighed.
Olivia's heart dropped when he said that "Why is it for the best? Are you having second thoughts?"
"God no Liv, but I want to do this right and if you came back I wouldn't have been able to keep my hands off you, I want you to know that when we….when we…."
"Have sex" she added.
"No Liv not sex, I won't just be having sex with you, you mean more to me than that" Olivia smiled at his words.
"Oh right so when we do what we are goin to do what do you want me to know?"
"I want you to know that you are the only person in my life I want to be with. I want you to know for certain I won't feel guilty and run back to my soon to be ex-wife. I want you to know how much I love and need you"
Olivia felt tears brimming in her eyes "That's a lot of wants" she tried to laugh. He laughed back.
"I know Liv but I don't want you to have any doubts after we spend the night together about how I feel for you, and if that means I have to wait then I will."
"Okay" she said
"Okay" he lay down on the bed and pulled the blanket over him still in just a towel.
"I miss you" she told him " I know its daft cause you only spent two nights here and one of those was on the couch, but I do miss you"
"I know what you mean I think its cause so much has happened in such a short time, it's like a sensory overload"
"I think your right" she yawned. Elliot smiled to himself when he heard her yawn.
"Go to sleep Liv" he told her "I will see you tomorrow after I have been to see Kathy okay"
"Yeah" Olivia said her voice worried.
"Liv don't worry" he said hearing the worry in her voice "I'm only going to see her to try and sped things up, I want to let her know what my plans are see if we can come to some arrangement"
"Of course I'm goin to worry, your goin to see the woman you have spent the last 20 years with"
" Baby you have nothing to worry about"
"Thank you" she said trying not to yawn.
"Okay, well goodnight" he said.
"Goodnight El…..I love you to" she said before closing the phone and closing her eyes.
Elliot put his phone down and stared at the ceiling he wasn't looking forward to tomorrow but he had to try and sort things with Kathy to speed things up.
Elliot knocked on the door and stepped back, when he heard her footsteps on the other side of the door and took a deep breath to calm the nerves he felt, as the door opened.
"We need to talk" he said to Kathy when the door opened.
"You don't need to knock Elliot this is still your house" she told him as she walked away from him into the house.
"Yeah well I didn't know if you would have company" he said "I wouldn't want to interrupt anything"
She turned around and glared at Elliot "He hasn't been back since the other night, I think between you and Kat he didn't feel safe" Elliot shrugged his shoulders.
"What, do you think I care?"
Kathy walked into the kitchen "What do you want Elliot?"
"I'm going to see a lawyer tomorrow about a divorce" he waited for her to say something but she just folded her arms and stared at him. "I'm hoping we could talk and try and sort things between us before it goes to family court"
"What you think I'm just going to hand over my son to you, just like that?"
"Our son Kathy"
"No Elliot, my son…..remember" she smirked.
Elliot glared at her "I'm not here to argue Kathy"
"No you just want to take my whole family away from me"
"Jesus Kathy I never broke this family apart you did, when you slept with that kid"
"What and you fucking your partner is ok" she snapped. Elliot clenched his fists and walked towards her standing right in front of her.
"I never …..Slept with Liv"
"What you expect me to believe that"
"I really don't care what you believe it's the truth, I never once slept with Liv, and I stayed true to our vows unlike you no matter what I may have felt towards her"
Kathy glared at him knowing deep down he was telling the truth. She turned away from Elliot and flicked the switch to boil the kettle.
"So what is it your going to tell your lawyer you want? I mean apart from joint custody of Eli" she asked turning back to him. Elliot took a deep breath.
"I want the house"
"What!"
"I want the house, the twins want to come and live with me, and I don't see why they should have to move out the family home. You will only have Eli here so you won't need a house this size" he said.
"You really are out to destroy me aren't you" she said tears starting to form in her eyes. Elliot looked at her and put a hand on her shoulder.
"No Kathy I'm not, I just want what is best for everyone. I will help you with a new place to live, and I'm sure the twins will come round everyone is angry and upset with all the deceit and lies, it will take time" Kathy looked at him tears falling from her eyes.
"But I still love you" she sobbed. "And I know you still love me"
"No Kathy I don't" he said "I haven't loved you like a husband should for years"
"Because of her" she spat pulling away from him.
"No not just cause of Liv but because I fell out of love with you, I'm sorry but I don't love you. I only ever came back for Eli, if I had known the truth I would never have gave us another chance….. The day you told me you were pregnant I was going to tell you I wasn't coming home. I had made my choice, I wanted to be with Liv, I'm so sorry if it hurts you to hear this but I want to be truthful. If you had asked me to come home without being pregnant I would of said no."
Kathy turned away from him and looked out the window into the garden trying to hide her tears from him.
"Does she know how you feel about her now?"
"Yes, I told her when she came looking for me the night I found out about Eli"
"I bet she couldn't wait to drag you to bed"
Elliot sighed as he started to become fed up with Kathy trying to turn this round to being about him and Olivia.
"As much as you would love that to be the way so you could use it against me and Liv your wrong, we still haven't slept together"
"Yeah right, your trying to tell me your staying at her place and sleeping on the couch after you both admit to being madly in love…..I'm not stupid Elliot" she said angrily.
"Yeah well you are this time" he snapped finally losing his temper with herself pity and blame. "The first night I stayed at hers I slept in her room with door open you can ask our kids, as Dickie, Lizzie and Maureen all slept in the living room. The second night it took all my strength and will power to sleep on the couch and not to go into her room and be with her. I realised I couldn't be around her at night so I moved in with Fin, that's who I'm staying with. So unless you now want to accuse me of fucking Fin!" he yelled at her.
Kathy glared back at him and laughed "What your telling me after all these years she won't put out for you" she sneered.
"No Kathy after all these years she wants to do this right, she wants to wait until I sort everything out with you and the kids, she loves me so much she is putting her happiness last yet again for me, cause she knows if we slept together you would use it against me." he turned to walk away got to the door and stopped turning back around. "I'm going to see Eli I take it he is upstairs sleeping" Kathy nodded and Elliot walked up the stairs.
He picked Eli up out of his crib and hugged him to his chest "How's my big boy doin huh, you being a good boy" he kissed the top of the little boys head "Daddy misses you so much" Eli's hand grabbed hold of Elliot's nose and the little boy smiled up at him, a tear fell from Elliot's eye and rolled down his cheek. "Daddy has to go now but hopefully I will see you soon okay, I love you son" he said as he put him back in the crib. He turned round and seen Kathy stood just outside the door. He wiped the tears away and walked out the room and past her.
"I will be in touch after I speak to my lawyer tomorrow I suggest you get one as well" he said as he walked towards the stairs.
"Elliot wait" said Kathy. He stopped and looked at her. "I won't fight you, I will give you what you want, and I don't want to go to court"
Elliot nodded "Okay what's the catch?"
"Nothing…I don't want my kids to hate me anymore than they already do. I know I did wrong and I can't take that back, but I can try and make amends with my kids. If giving you the house and custody of the kids will do that then…..that's what I will do" she sighed. Elliot nodded
"And Eli?" he asked "What about him"
"We will work something out, I know you love him, I won't do anything to stop you from seeing him. We will arrange a time to get together with the lawyers and iron everything out okay"
Elliot nodded "I'll be in touch" he said walking down the stairs and out the door taking a deep breath.
He sat in his car and took out his phone and dialled he listened as it rang so he left message.
"Hi Cap its Elliot I want to take you up on the job offer, I will call in to see you tomorrow after I have seen my lawyer….and thank you" he rang off and called Olivia.
"Hey"
"Hi" she answered "how did it go"
Elliot told her everything that happened "So" he said as he finished "How do you fancy going out for a meal later or a drink"
"That would be great El but I cant" she sighed "I just got called in on a case"
"Oh" he said trying to hide his disappointment.
"I'm really sorry, believe me I would rather spend my night with you"
"I should hope so" he laughed. "Ring me when you get done and home no matter what time okay"
"I will do what you gonna do now?"
"I will get in touch with the girls and see if they want to meet up, and I have also been thinking about going up to see the twins for the day on Tuesday and explain in person to them what is happening"
"Sounds like a good idea" Elliot could hear someone shouting her name "I need to El"
"Okay, I love you"
"Love you too" she said hanging up.
Elliot hated not being there with her, watching out for her as she worked. He knew Fin always looked out for her but it wasn't the same. He smiled knowing all that would change again soon.