Author Notes: Again, woo-hoo for all the reviews!
For phaz...Yes it be her! -tosses cookie-
For Xhanthia...Here be your update my queen
For Random (becauseIshallcallyouthatfromnowon), suck up al you like, I love the attention xP As for plot, it just seems to go everywhere, then I get an idea and follow that, then go, eh? You really should finish the game, there's a fancy part where Sora does all this cool Matrix stuff and runs up a building AND you also get to fight as Riku to save his precious Sora from Xemnas' evil clutches!
But yessums, Port Royal is MEGA HARD! The mega you-can't-kill-me-because-I-have-the-coins Heartless is the most annoying boss ever invented (besides the Ice Titan and that shadow thinger in Neverland in KH). I would gladly fight Kurt Zisa again than fight that Heartless, and he was HARD!
Disclaimer: I don't own KH/KH2/CoM/FF for I'm poor. If I did, Irvine and his cute butt would feature in the games and he and Leon would make-out in an alleyway and it would be a secret scene you would have to find.
Story Notes: This story is AU with slash pairings, swearing, total and utter ramblings and mature content. I'm a sucker. And you will love me for it! We also reach a great number in the world of FF!!!!
Nobodies Loveletter
Watching him leave hurt deeper than any knife could reach, twisting and turning within his chest just to cut open a wound in which a bony hand would reach inside, those slender digits curling around his beating hard and crushing it until there was nothing but dust left within his chest. He knew he shouldn't feel that way, he had no true, deep reason to feel that way. But he did.
It was a lonely and depressing feeling.
It made him feel sick.
Standing in the doorway, he gave one last longing look to the road where the car had sped off with a certain redhead in the passenger seat. The car was no longer in sight and it was beginning to rain. There was a shout from within the house, for him to close the door and stepping away, a hand drifting over the door handle, he pulled it shut and walked away, feet shuffling over the soft fabric of the carpet
Zell had turned up an hour early, and Axel still decided he was going to go after the four of them had settled down to eat, then went into the lounge to watch some television. It was only nine, but Sora had managed to fall asleep on the floor. Elra had tucked a pillow under his head and changed the channel to something she preferred, then settled into the couch to watch. She'd said her goodbyes to the redhead before he left, and suggested that Axel not be too late if he was planning on coming back to spend the night.
Roxas hadn't wanted him to leave at all.
But he had, and now it felt like a part of himself was missing. He desperately wanted it back, but didn't know how to bring it back. He couldn't compare to Zell, despite knowing little about the older male. It just felt like they were two very, very different people and no matter what Roxas tried, he would never be able to measure up to what the other was in Axel's eyes.
After all, Zell was Axel's first ever boyfriend. That was a bond that he could never have with the red haired smoker.
It was depressing to think about, but here he was, dwelling on those thoughts as he moved to stand in the entranceway to the lounge, blue gaze drifting towards the television set, then over to his aunt.
With a deep intake of breath which he held for a few moments, then let out, Roxas headed over to the woman and curled up with her. She smiled at the company and wrapped her arms around him to pull the teen into a warm, comforting embrace. There was no other kind of embrace like that a mother had. She may have been his aunt, but she was a wonderful mother and Roxas was glad to have her.
Even if he missed his own from time to time, Elra's smell was amazingly similar to his own mother's, and soothed him whenever he missed her.
"You alright there sweetheart?" she asked, smoothing her hands over Roxas' head as he snuggled closer. "You seem upset."
Roxas murmured softly, snuggling into the woman's comforting warmth. "Just lonely," he said once he was settled.
Elra smiled softly. "Must be hard for you. Loosing your parents and having to deal with a new family, that's still dealing with being a new family. I miss your mother too."
Bright blue eyes looked to her comforting face and he smiled back. "I miss her loads. You may only be my aunt, but your the greatest mom anyone could ask for."
There was a chuckle and she shook her head. "Don't say that. You'll make her jealous. But its nice to hear you say that Roxas. I rarely get compliments like that from that lump on the floor"
That lump on the floor let out a loud snore and rolled over onto his stomach, nuzzling into the pillow. He then muttered something about pink sheep in his sleep before going quiet once more.
"I heard you two talking earlier," she said, informing Roxas that she'd caught the conversation the cousins had shared. This caused Roxas to blush slightly. "I suppose getting first hand advice from someone in the same boat as you is better than from someone outside"
He nodded mutely. They hadn't talked about it in depth or detail, but just seeing that Sora was still Sora even thought he was gay allowed Roxas to see that he could still be himself, even if he found himself leaning more towards guys.
One guy in particular.
One guy with the most beautiful green eyes he'd ever seen and vibrant red hair.
There was a bright smile on Elra's face as she looked down at her nephew. A sly smile that showed that there was a special surprise involved somewhere. "Since Sora is asleep, how about we dig into that chocolate ice cream I hid in the freezer?"
This significantly brightened Roxas' mood, and slipping from the couch, he quickly headed to the kitchen in search of the elusive tub of ice cream. It was a well known fact in the household that Sora's favourite ice cream was chocolate, and if he found out there was a tub in the house it was rare that anyone had the chance to sample any of it. Even the boy's beloved Riku wasn't allowed to share the frozen cream.
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The drive was relatively uneventful, and unnervingly quiet. Zell was merrily singing away with one of his punk CDs, and so Axel took to staring out of the window. Rikku had been left at the apartment, and was there to greet them both when Zell opened the door.
"Rammu!" she announced, standing in the small hallway in a t-shirt that looked like it had swallowed her, and a pair of green shorts. Her hair was still up in the braids and pony though, but seemed a little damp to the eye. Spreading her arms, she latched onto her brother's waist. "Rammu!" she repeated.
Zell chuckled, patting her on the head. "Hello to you too," he said cheerily.
Axel stared at the brother-sister combo. "You understand her?"
"Of course. I did say I'd teach you. She said hello. Rammu means 'hello'. Its not too hard to figure out once you've learned the basics" explained the brother, disentangling his sister, then handed her a paper bag that he'd bought on the way home. He'd taken Axel through a random burger giant drive-through because food was lacking in his home and Rikku needed feeding. He'd bought himself a few hot dogs too.
She accepted the bag and rushed off through the hall and into the room on the left. Axel had only been to Zell's apartment a few times, and from what he could remember, the room Rikku had gone into was where Zell kept his games consoles, computer and various other home entertainments.
The whole place was simply decorated, but very lived in. The faded blue carpet was worn, there was a surf board propped up against the wall, and as he moved into the lounge, the furniture was mismatched. Although the sofa looked relatively knew. So new that Axel didn't recognise it. His last visit, it had been an old navy two seater with one of the arms broken. Now it was a plush burgundy three seater with dark blue pillows tossed onto it.
"How come your sister is here? You only have one bedroom."
Zell shrugged, flopping onto his couch and propping his feet up onto the old coffee table. "Parents are on holiday and they've got decorators in so I've got her for three weeks. She's sleeping in my computer room"
Axel decided to sit in the comfy grey armchair that was to Zell's left. "Sleeping on what?"
"Camp bed. Come sit here," With a welcoming smile, the blond patted the space beside him. "Enough about Rikku. More about you"
Doing as he was told, Axel slinked over and sat beside the other male. Close enough to seem friendly, but not too close. At the question about how he was, he shrugged. "Not a lot to tell. Still hiding from my mother though," He grinned up at the other, as if trying to make light of the situation.
Zell was having none of it, nor was he waiting. Once the redhead had stopped speaking, he closed the gap and pushed the other down. Leaning over him dominantly, lips found the other's and Zell devoured the younger male's mouth hungrily.
Axel could do nothing against the other's superior strength, and with the sudden attack, he melted into the cushions and kissed back with fire. Zell tasted of hot dogs and familiarity. At the sweep of the tongue over his lips, Axel obediently opened and allowed the searching muscle enter his warm mouth, before closing lips around it and sucking, his own tongue stroking over the now captive muscle.
It had been so long since Axel had been kissed like this.
So every moment was treasured; because with Zell, Axel never knew if he was going to get another chance.
But he couldn't hold onto this dream. It wasn't truly his to be held. There was something that felt faintly like that pang of guilt in the back of his mind. Despite the heightened state of arousal and how wonderful it felt to have a gorgeous blond looming over him, hot wet mouth attached to his own, powerful tongue held captive within Axel's lips, that guilt loomed like a threatening grey cloud prophesying a great thunder storm.
Pulling their mouths apart and drinking deep upon the fresh air, Axel's emerald eyes found a pair of blue that were clouded over with a powerful sense of lust and desire. And the fact that he was not pleased about having the kiss broken, even if he too was panting for breath.
Eyes darted away to focus on the faded carpet that spanned most of the apartment floor. "Zell...Look..." he began, although not quite sure where to go with his words, or even if he wanted to say them at all. Part of him was screaming to shut up and allow the older male to just take the reins and steer this mad stallion of a relationship wherever he wished. "I'm not sure about this,"
A hand reached out to bring Axel's face towards their own, heads so close together they were almost nose to nose. "Axel, you were the best thing to ever come into my life. I was a fool for leaving you for Larenne, and I'm truly sorry. Forgive me, please...?" His words were so solemn, so true in their way, they could do nothing but melt the redhead's heart.
He smiled, leaning up to give the other male a gentle kiss to the lips. "Then lets try again. Like it was, right back from the beginning. But..."
"But?" Zell repeated, sighing in defeat "Why does there always have to be a but about things?"
There was a dreamy grin on Axel's lips. "There's another guy I really like. I don't know if he likes me too though. He's been showing signs, but he's new to it all and extremely unsure."
There was a sceptical look shot in the redheads direction. "And what do you want me to do?"
Axel was practically grinning from ear to ear. "Make him jealous."
Had there been a comedy moment, Zell would of fell off the couch. Since there was, he rolled over onto his back, forcing down his laughter and looked up at the body on his couch with glittery eyes. "So I get to date you so you can leave me for this guy?"
Tongue slipped out between his lips and leaning over the edge, he reached down to give an affectionate poke to the older male's stomach. "I'll find a replacement for me. I know I'm a rebound after what you said earlier about being ditched. I just want to give us both something we can keep"
Zell thought about this proposal for a while. Not only would he be able to date Axel once again, but the boy was going to find a replacement. Maybe if he played his cards right, he would end up with at least one of them; if he was lucky he'd get both.
"Well?" Axel asked after the other had been quiet for some time.
"So I can date other people and you?" he asked.
"If that will help. Once you find one that you think is worthy, I'll judge them"
Zell still seemed undecided. "But what if your guy likes you first?"
Axel merely shrugged. "Knowing him, it will be a while. So? Yes or no?"
Again, a few moments of silence while Zell thought about it. "Yes, alright. Seems fair, but if your guy decides he doesn't want you, I want you all to myself"
He smiled brightly, a fire burning within his emerald eyes. "Your amazing Zell. Now, can you drop me back off at Roxas' place?"
- - -
It was midnight when Zell finally gave in and drove Axel home. He'd called ahead just to check if anyone was awake. Elra had said she was just about to go, but would stay up just long enough for him to get there. Once he was there she'd set the couch up for him then retired to bed. Axel's head barely touched the pillows and he was fast asleep.
He was rudely awoken early in the morning by someone poking him in the ribs. Slowly opening one eye to glare sleepily at his attacker, a blurry form of something with spiky brown hair and blue eyes appeared before him.
"Go away Gumdrop," he murmured before rolling over so that Sora was behind him.
"Why are you on my couch? I want to watch my cartoon!" announced the male.
"Why are you awake? Shouldn't you be sleeping?"
"I always watch Hyper Teenager Werewolf With Super Powers In Space before going to school" Usually Sora had just enough time to get ready and watch said cartoon, but since he'd fallen asleep early that night, he still had an hour of cartoons before his favourite came on.
Groaning, Axel rolled over again and curled up his legs to allow Sora to plop down on the vacated spot and promptly turn on the television and watch whatever cartoons that he wanted.
"Ah, your awake!" came Elra's cheerful morning voice. "You better hurry and get ready or you'll be late for school Axel. Roxas is using the shower, I'm sure he'll let you use it when your finished"
Smiling, Axel slowly sat up, stretching up his arms. He didn't have much to sleep in, so went without a shirt that night. As the blanket slipped down, his sickly thin torso was revealed, covered with blotchy patches where the bruises were starting to face. He heard Elra gasp as she caught sight of just how thin he was.
"Your so thin!" she announced. "Right, I'm making you extra for breakfast!" and made a move to head for her kitchen, but paused in her steps. "Oh, I also went down to your house and had a chat with your mother. There are three bags in the hallway with some of your things. She practically threw them at me." Sighing sadly, Elra simply couldn't understand how a mother could hate her own son that way Axel's mother did. It was almost as if she was glad she may be getting rid of him.
When she had gone, Axel stood up and went to grab the clothes he'd discarded last night, only to notice that they were already gone. Elra must of already bundled them off to wash.
Making his way in nothing but a pair of jeans, he rummaged through the bags to find something worth wearing, then headed up to Roxas' room. With a light knock to the door, he pushed it open to reveal the teens room in a whole new light.
Light was a word to be used.
The curtains were open. Roxas was standing before his mirror and applying the daily amounts of hair gel. What amazed Axel the most was that he was wearing nothing more than a white cotton towel.
"R-Roxas?"
It took a vast amount of effort to stay rooted to his spot and not pounce on the boy. There was a body that he wanted. In more ways than one.
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Author's Notes: Little shorter than the other chapters, but I hope you all don't mind (:
More plot twisties!!!
Axel: -is drowning in a puddle of his own drool- Roxas... nn
Roxas: -poses in his towel- I'm too sexy for my towel, too sexy for my towel
Sora: Yay for more Sora!
I'm addicted to things being from 'Space' I seriously doubt that there is a cartoon called 'Hyper Teenage Werewolf With Super Powers In Space' x3
I hope your all enjoying this!