IMPORTANT: Please notice that I changed the rating of this story to M. If you do not feel as though you can handle mature things, I'm sorry but you might want to skip this chapter.

A/N: So I've been working on this chapter for a while, and I'm really excited for you guys to finally get to read it. I'm so happy with the responses I'm getting from this story! You guys are amazing! Someone asked me if I had I twitter, I do in fact have one, but it's more for personal use. But feel free to follow me on tumblr and ask me questions on there or send me a PM, my url is .com . Anyways, back to this story, this chapter was inspired by the song "Let Love In" by the Goo Goo Dolls. ENJOY!

Chapter 10: Let Love In

You wait, wanting this world to let you in
And you stand there, a frozen light in dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind a God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore is all that I need to see

The September night air was finally beginning to become cooler, signaling the end of summer was near. Crickets chirped in the silence of the night. The music they made filled the night air as Toby waited patiently, leaning against the hood of his truck for Spencer to make an appearance. Toby had been nearly pacing with anxiety hours ago. All day he was on edge, waiting for Hanna's plan to play out. All he had to do was show up she had told him, she would make sure Spencer made it there, then he could finally have a chance to talk to her.

Headlights shine bright through the darkness as a dark Mercedes pulls up. Spencer opened her car door, and stepped out into the night.

Confused as first, Spencer headed toward the vehicle only a couple of yards away. It was so dark, she had a hard time making out what type of car it was, all she could tell was that it was a lot bigger than Hanna's Honda. She crossed her arms in annoyance as she realized she was starring at a rusty truck and a boy with piercing aqua eyes standing in front of it.

Suddenly it all made sense why Hanna had asked her to meet on the hill instead of at Spencer's house. Hanna had told her she needed to get out of her house because her mom had a date. She had practically begged Spencer to hang out with her. Reluctant at first, Spencer desperately needed to finish her college applications, but finally she agreed after hours of Hanna's no-stop whining.

"Don't be mad," Toby stated cautiously as Spencer approached him.

"Why would I be mad Toby? You tricked me into seeing you, and used my best friend to do it." Spencer words were harsh and burned like acid.

"No, not quite," Toby shook his head, this would be a lot harder than he thought, "it was Hanna's idea actually."

"And why would this be her idea?" Spencer shook her head in disbelief. Why would Hanna suggest tricking Spencer into seeing Toby? It didn't make any sense. Hanna and Toby weren't even that close of friends. They only reason they ever talked was because Toby pretty tight with Caleb, and it wasn't like them to conspire together. Besides Hanna never went behind Spencer's back like that before.

"We're your best friends Spence, we can tell when you're not happy, and it's miserable not being able to do anything about it."

In truth, Spencer had been miserable ever since her fight with Toby, but it still wasn't their problem. She was a big girl and was perfectly capable of taking care of herself.

"Ok Toby, you wanted to talk, so talk," Spencer challenged, partially annoyed at herself for falling for Hanna and Toby's plan.

Toby ran a hand through his hair, trying to decide where to begin.

You're the only one I ever believed in, the answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin the moment we decided to let love in

"Look, when we kissed last week, it wasn't a mistake we should forget. I know we said it was, but we both know it meant something. And it wasn't an excuse for me to break up with Mona," Toby started slowly, looking deep into Spencer's eyes as he spoke each word with meaning. "You mean so much more to me than that. The only reason why Mona and I broke up was because I couldn't stand being with her anymore. It wasn't fair to either of us when my heart just wasn't in it –especially when I was distracted by someone else," as he continued, Toby slowly took careful steps toward Spencer. She stood there this time, allowing him to come closer –step by step –as she took in his words.

Spencer shook her head, not wanting to believe what Toby had to say, "No, that's not true. It can't be true," her voice trembled, not confident with her answer.

But Toby responds by taking another step toward her, "Why not?"

"It can't be," she repeats. She worked so hard to not feel the things Toby had just admitted to, she built up walls surrounding her heart and if what he had just said was true, it had the potential to demolish it all.

"Why is it so hard to believe that I can't stop thinking about you? It's the truth I swear. I've tried to distract myself, but it doesn't work. God I've tried everything, but for some reason my every thought comes back to you. Seeing you hurt this like this, it kills me. I hate seeing you depressed, but what makes it worse is that I know it's me that makes you hurt."

"So you feel guilty then?!" Spencer justified quickly. She just couldn't bring herself to believe that Toby really felt this way about her. It couldn't be true. She couldn't let it be. Toby was the one person who hadn't hurt her, and if she let him in like this, he could be the one to destroy her.

"No, that's not what I said," Toby couldn't believe out of all he had just confessed, that was what Spencer picked up on. "Do you know what Spencer, I keep on telling you things and it's like you refuse to hear them, I'm not sure what you want anymore," Toby was becoming tired fast. Tired of fighting, tired of waiting, but what's more, he was becoming tired of trying for something obviously not there. For a minute he considered giving up completely.

I wish, wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need that's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while you take your time with this game you play
But I can't control your soul you need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay?

"You want to know what I want Toby?" Spencer exhaled.

"Yes, I do, maybe then I can get you to hear me," he exasperated.

"Do you really want to know?" She narrowed her eyes.

"Try me," Toby challenged.

And then it was as though all at once Spencer had let go of it all. Like a hurricane finally reaching the shore she finally got up enough courage to declare what she really wanted, "I want freedom Toby. I want Freedom to make my own choices, to go where I want to go next year, to decide what I want to be and who I want to be with!" she practically screamed, "I want to make those choices, not you, not my parents, me!"

Toby stood there in silence for a moment. He had not been expecting that. He knew her parents put a lot of pressure on her, but he hadn't realized how much it had affected her. All she asked for in life was the ability to live how she wanted, yet everyone always made her decisions for her. Here stood the most beautiful girl, and nobody ever gave her a chance. Once again she proved to Toby that she was so much more than what the rest of the world saw her to be. For that one moment, Toby could see the sincerity and passion she offered to the world.

It was as though gravity was pulling him toward her as he took another step toward her. They were so close he could feel her sweet breathe against his skin. She didn't back away though, letting him come nearer as he gently tipped her chin up toward his with his thumb. He was surprised she had let him so close to her, but it was as though her sudden outburst had emptied her hostility toward the world.

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found the moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin the moment we decided to let love in

Her eyes wide and scared as he slowly brought his lips closer to hers, finally they touched. Tenderly, Toby moves his mouth against her, Spencer molding her lips to fit his perfectly. After only a brief moment, Toby pulls back slightly, resting his forehead against her, their noses brushing against each other.

"…so make your choice," Toby breathes against her lips.

Spencer pauses for a second before announcing her answer. She brings her hand up against his neck, pulling him back in. She lets her lips do the talking as she tangles her hands in his hair. Toby puts his hand on the small of her back, brushing the skin where her shirt rids up as he pulls her in closer. Spencer skin feels like it's on fire. Toby slowly traces the outside of her lips with his tongue when Spencer begins to pull away. She steps out of his grasp and turns away from him suddenly, "I'm sorry," is all she can manage to say.

"Hey, Spencer wait!" Toby calls after her as she starts to run away, back toward her car. This time he doesn't let her go so easily. He races toward her, practically sprinting to keep up with her. She's almost to her Mercedes, fumbling with her keys when Toby grabs her arm and spins her toward him. Sorrow is hidden in her eyes behind her fear as Toby brushes a strand of hair behind her ear; she doesn't fight him, but doesn't give in either. She just stands there, not wanting to go, yet not willing to let go.

"Look, I know your scared Spencer, I am too." Toby admits, "But there's something here. I know you feel it. It's something I can't explain but we can't ignore… we've tried, and it doesn't work. Just let me in Spencer."

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

Spencer slowly brings her hands up to cup his face, bringing it closer to hers once more. Every cell in her body was warning her against it, but her veins were pulsing with desire. Finally she gave in, and let go, crashing her lips against his once more.

Spencer brings her hands back around to his back, skimming underneath his shirt, tracing his muscles lightly with her fingertips. Toby tangles his hands in her hair. This time Spencer presses the tip of her tongue against his lips, before slowly forcing his mouth open. Toby moves one arm slowly down her spine, tracing her neck before moving his way down to the small of her back. Spencer's back arches at his touch and she moves her knee up along his leg, following his leg like a path, her inner thigh skimming his outer. As if he can't be close enough to her, Toby brings his hand down farther, cupping her butt and lifting her up, her legs wrapping around his waist as if by instinct. Gently, Toby bites down on her tongue, causing a quiet moan to escape Spencer' mouth. A spark of electricity ignites in Spencer and suddenly all she can think about is how badly she wants him. Her movements become more rushed as she pulls him closer, eliminating any space that was left between them, which wasn't much, as she pushes herself against him.

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in

Desire is painted in Spencer's eyes as she begins to trace Toby's jaw line with her lips before moving on to his ear. "I want you," she whispers. Suddenly Toby's pants feel about three-sizes too tight and he begins to walk slowing toward his truck, Spencer still wrapped around him, nibbling on his ear.

Once he finally reaches it, he gently puts Spencer down on the edge of the truck bed. He kisses her tenderly, her legs still wrapped around him with her hands on his neck, not willing to let go. At last, he pulls away slightly, "Hold on," he breathes, untangling her from him. Reluctantly, she lets him go. He grabs a blanket he keeps in the back of his truck for bonfires with their friends, quickly unfolds it, and lays it down on the ground.

He makes his way back to Spencer whose feet are now dangling off the edge of his truck, awaiting his return. As he approaches her, her eyes are softly yearning, staring down at his soft lips. She gently runs her hand through his hair. As he looks deep into her eyes, questioning to make sure this is what she wants. Reassuringly, she nods once before bringing her hands down to the hem of his shirt, slowing pulling it over his head and dropping it to the ground.

She traces the lines on his stomach with her fingertips, and he shudders at her touch. Pulling her back against him once more, they tangle together again as he carries her to the blanket on the ground. Slowly he lays her down, bringing his lips to hers. Toby holds himself up above her, trying his best not to crush her with his weight. Cautiously, he brings one hand down, toying with the hem of her shirt. As if giving permission, Spencer raises her hands above her head. Slowly, Toby begins to remove it, leaving a tender kiss at each newly exposed portion of skin. Moving from her stomach, up to her boobs, to her collarbone, finally Toby makes his way to her lips once more. Spencer moves her hands down his chest, resting them on the edge of his jeans, searching blindly for the button to undo them as her lips move against his. But Toby captures both of her hands in one of his, before breaking their kiss. Looking deep into her eyes, searching for any sign of regret "Are you sure?" he questions.

"I've never been more sure," Spencer replies simply.

And with that Toby releases her hands and allows her to undo his jeans. He helps her push them off of him altogether, before moving on to hers. Slowly and cautiously at first he moves on top of her until she calls out his name. He picks up the pace until they both meet ecstasy. Finally, he collapses beside her, trying to catch his breath. Pulling her close to him, he wraps them both in the blanket.

Spencer can't help but smile, leaving a quick kiss against his chest as she nuzzles her head against him. They lay there in silence, both experiencing the most happiness they had ever known, laying simply in each other's arms.

After a while, Spencer finally breaks the quiet, "Do you want to know something?" she whispers against him.

"…hmmmm?" Toby replies in contentment.

"…that was my first time," she admits shyly.

Toby looks down at her shocked, "…what about Andrew?" he asks.

"He always wanted to, but it just never felt like the right time to me," she explains simply.

"Spencer…if I had known…I would have made it more special...not on a dirty old blanket…."guilt fills Toby's voice. Spencer deserved the very best experience for her first time, and while that had been special in its own way, they were still laying on a dirty old blanket.

"No, no. It was perfect," she reassured him, reaching up to kiss his lips lazily to prove her point. In truth, it had been perfect for Spencer. There were no expectations, no pressure. It was her choice and she loved every second of it.

They fell asleep in each other's arms, their bodies twisted together. But for the first time in both of their lives, they felt as though they could let go, and be at peace. No parents to please, no significant others to worry about, just each other.

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

I'm really nervous/ excited for what you guys think of this chapter! Please help me out by critiquing my writing, anyway I can improve? Please let me know if you think of something!

Also...

How will Spencer's parents react to this? Will Spencer freak out on Toby again?

Lemme know your predictions too, they're so much fun to read!

Much love,

Katelyn.