Just a reminder...I don't own Vampire Academy! I know things are a little slow but I promise things will be better! I just have to get a few things out of the way first!

Before I knew what happened, I was showing everyone, including the nurses, the ring I had picked out for when I finally grew some fucking balls and asked Rose to be my wife. Abe threatened me and Janine gave me an accompanying look, but both wished me luck on asking her.

Chapter 10

RPOV

I could not find the strength to open my eyes. In the background, the only sound I could hear is a fucking annoying ass beeping noise. Where the fuck am I? Last I knew, I was at Dimitri's and we had just gotten done having some amazing bathtub sex, moaning at the thought. I closed my eyes to relax a bit before he was going to take me out to dinner. Everything was starting to look up for me after all this time. So why was it that I ended up here?

I tried again to open my eyes, this time succeeding. Taking in the oh-so-familiar scenery thus far from looking ahead at the ceiling, I am brought further into confusion. Why am I in the hospital? Looking around even more, I notice Dimitri sitting in a chair next to me, asleep. I attempted to speak, but it came out as a broken whisper. "Hey, Comrade." Instantly, he opened his eyes and brought his chair closer to me.

"Oh, Roza. What happened?" I gave him a questioning look as he took my hand in his. "What are you talking about? I was just about to ask you the same question. Why am I here?" I looked around the room and noticed everyone else who was there…stopping to look at Lissa for the answer. She walked over to the other side of the bed and took my other hand in hers.

"Rose, you cut yourself again. This time, it was really bad and we all thought we lost you. When we found you, you were still in the bathtub. Your wrists were slit and the water was completely red. God, Rose. What made you do it this time? I thought you were happy, since you were free and had Dimitri back and all." She had such concern in here eyes and through the bond, I felt several emotions at once: concern, relief, anger, and sadness. We both had tears running down our cheeks now. I reached up and brushed hers away. "Lissa, I honestly don't know. I know it sounds like a bunch of bullshit, but the last thing I remember was being fucking ecstatic that everything was going right for once. I'm out of jail and have Dimitri back…" I looked at him for confirmation, not knowing if after this he really wanted to be with me still. He nodded and brought the hand he was holding to his lips and gently kissed every knuckle before placing my palm on his cheek.

I looked back at Lissa and then looked around the room. "I am so sorry everyone. I don't know what happened, really I don't. I wish I could figure it out myself. I know I let you all down…maybe I should just get out of here and take off again so that I don't hurt any of you any more." I looked down in shame. How could I hurt so many people? They are all here because they care about me and yet I hurt them so badly. I can't even stand to look at any of them in the eye. The tears started pouring down my cheeks. So badly, I just wanted to run away from it all. They have their own lives to live and here I am ruining everything. Before long, the quiet tears became loud sobs that clogged my throat.

"Roza, please don't do that. We love you and just want to help you through whatever it is that is hurting you. Are you sure you want to hurt us even more by leaving? We aren't mad at you. We love you. If you were to leave, we would all be devastated. After so long, we finally got you back. We can work through this. Please don't go." I closed my eyes even harder. He was right. Then again, Dimitri is always right. His speech only made me feel even more like shit. "Can I just be alone right now? There is apparently a lot that I have to think about right now and I am still tired."

Everyone nodded and they started leaving the room. Dimitri was the last one still there. As soon as he kissed me and started to move away, I grabbed his hand. "Don't go. Please stay with me." He smiled and went to sit back down in the chair. "No." I shook my head at him and scooted over in the bed, patting the side next to me for him to lie down next to me.

He lay down next to me and I put my head on his chest as he cradled me in his arms. There we stayed for hours, just talking things out. I told him everything that happened since that dreaded day in the church…all that I could remember anyways. I knew there was more to it all, but couldn't remember a lot. He also told me what it was like for him, how he felt every day after he told me that lie. It was nice to get everything in the open, though it was all very emotionally painful. The nurse came in a few more times to take my vitals. They ended up needing to give me more blood and they never once made a fuss about Dimitri being in the bed with me. Dimitri ran his hand gently over my back and with his other hand, played with my hair. I was so relaxed; I fell asleep in his arms. I had missed this so much and I never wanted it to end.

I woke up to Dimitri getting up off the bed, and I looked at him with panicked eyes. "The doctor is here, Roza. She wants to check you out herself." I nodded and sat up. She checked the usual. "Since you are stable, we want to get an ultrasound to check on the baby. Is that alright with you, Rose?" The baby….the baby…..Oh yea! How could I possibly forget that I was pregnant? I hope I didn't kill our precious little one with my stupidity. Before long, I was carted off with a farewell kiss from Dimitri. For some reason, they wouldn't let him go with me. It broke my heart that he couldn't see our baby, alive or otherwise, but I understood their reasoning. Dhampirs weren't supposed to be able to have children together, so they didn't understand that it wasn't a Moroi's. They probably suspected that I slept around on him and didn't want him to be upset around me while they were trying to do the tests.

To my amazement and relief, the baby was doing just fine. It was a miracle on so many different levels. To know that the tiny living child inside me was also Dimitri's was amazing in and of itself. I made sure that the technician printed out about 10 copies of the picture for me…just to make sure that everyone got one. Before long, I was brought back to my room, where I was bombarded with my loved ones greeting me since I was well enough to have visitors now. I handed out all the pictures to everyone, with a few left over. I wanted to make sure everyone got one and that I had at least one for a scrapbook that I wanted to start. I had nothing better to do since I obviously wouldn't be guarding anyone any time soon….well, at least for another few months.

Ok, sorry this chapter isn't quite so exciting...but I promise...massive lemon to come! Just hang in there loves! Read and review!