I looked at Bas.
"What did you say?" I asked, shook that he picked up on it.
"You said you 'knew that feeling' aka you were pregnant," Bas said.
I sighed.
"Can we go our bedroom?" I asked.
"Will you tell me?"
"Yes."
Bas nodded, but before I could walk Bas picked me up bridal style and walked us to our room. Bas then gently put me down on the bed.
"You know I'm not going to brake if I walked to the bedroom right?" I asked Bas as he crawled on the the bed and wrapped his arms around me.
"I know I just wanted to show you that I love you," Bas whispered in my ear.
"So you want to know about my last pregnancy," I said louder than Bas.
"Was it a miscarriage?" Bas asked.
"You can said that," I said.
"What Do you mean?"
"It was my second year of college and Blaine's first. I got pregnant. We wanted to keep it, but we were too young. It pained us to know that we couldn't have gave our baby the best future. We had a couple that was going to adopted our baby. I didn't tell my dad yet, I was going to wait till I was at least four months and that we knew that this couple was 100 percent happy and ready. I was four months along. After this one doctors appointment I was going to tell Dad about the baby. But I got in the car accident. I lost the baby," I stopped talking as I started to sob.
Bas held on to be tighter.
"The doctor told us all together. Once he did the couple started to cry. Blaine and I said we were sorry, and after a while they left. But once they closed the door Blaine and I just started to sob. I couldn't believe that I just killed my baby. Blaine got in the bed with me and we just held another crying. I know that I wasn't going to have a baby in the end, but I was still going to be able to see her or him. It was going to be an open adoption. But then there was no baby. I no longer had a baby in my stomach," I said with tears running down my face.
"Kurt you did not kill your baby. It's called accidents for a reason," Bas said wiping my tears off of my face.
"Bas, I know I said that you can talk to Blaine about this, but just be careful with what you say" I said.
"What do you mean?" Bas asked me.
"After that we both got messed up. I got scared that if I ever got pregnant the same thing would happen. That not only I lose my baby, I lose the person I love. For a while Blaine could only think was the baby dying. I mean he got a lot better, he still sees a therapist every week though."
"Okay, I will. How about you? You know that you didn't kill your baby right? You know that I will never leave you even if that does happen right?"
"Yes Bas. I know you will never leave me."
"What about the baby?"
"I'm still working on that Bas."
"That's okay Kurt," Bas said, kissing my cheek.
We stayed in another's arms for a while.
"You think you can call the doctor and make an appointment?" Bas asked with excitement shining on his face.
I smiled kissed his cheek and took out my phone.
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