A/N: Alright I'm gonna try to upload more frequently so here ya go! Thank you for the reviews on the last chapters. You guys are the best for still reading this.

Tegan's POV

What the fuck. I cannot form any words right now. I'm just standing there at the door gaping like a fish at Emy while there's broken glass at my feet. She looks nervous and she's shifting her eyes back and forth. I remember faintly hearing Sara in the background asking me what was wrong before she said Emy's name. Oh shit. Sara. Emy. In my apartment. Sara's ex-girlfriend and the woman whom she still loves is at my door while her twin sister who is madly in love with her stand no more than 3 feet in front of said ex-girlfriend. Why cant I catch a break? When did my life decide to turn to shit. Emy finally fixes her gaze at me.

"Uhh…can I, uhh, come in?", she looks desperate as if her very life depends on whether or not I let her inside. Should I? I mean, do I really want to? I could just say no, that we're busy. But no, I cant do that to Sara. What if this is her chance, her chance to be happy? Who am I to deny Sara happiness even if it isn't with me? I answer her by opening the door more and moving to the left. She side steps the glass and sends me a thankful smile. I shut the door, not caring about the glass scattered across the floor. Maybe this stupid glass mug is a metaphor for my heart. I was totally fine, about to give it to Sara when Emy shows up and it breaks. Then she just steps over it, not even caring and moves her way to the woman of my dreams. I sense a new song coming up.

I turn back to look at Emy and Sara. Emy still has the nervous shakes and Sara is wide-eyed, having not moved at all. The silence is suffocating, but thankfully Emy decides to speak first.

"I'm sorry for turning up so…so sudden, but, Sara, I need to talk to you", she turns back to me and gives me an apologetic smile then returns back to Sara, "alone." Oh, god. I know what's going to happen. Please, Sara, please say no. Please. Sara's eyes still haven't shut to a normal size as she shifts her feet around and fumbles with her hands.

"Yeah o-okay. S-sure."

I didn't even know I was crying until I felt something wet on my face. I looked all over the living room, anywhere except Sara. Finally, I landed on the broken glass, my broken heart. I quickly walked to the kitchen to get a dust pan and a small handheld broom. The tears were starting to cloud my vision, but I did the best I could to clean my heart up off the floor and dump it in the trash before I stormed off to my room looking anywhere, but Sara.

Sara's POV

I was still in fight or flight mode staring at Emy. I could see Tegan cleaning up the glass in my peripheral vision and then walk off to her room. She looks upset and I can only imagine why. I told her I cut myself over Emy and then she shows up unannounced. It must have set Tegan's big sister mode on overdrive. It's very cute of her, but Emy is a bigger…issure right now. I'll worry about Tegan later.

"What do you want, Emy?"

"I just wanted to talk."

"About?", she flinched at my voice. I admit it was harsh, but I seriously want to know why she showed up. We haven't spoken in months and I don't want to be reminded of my repressed feelings for Tegan while she and I dated.

"I want you back.", she mumbled.

"Excuse me, I don't think I heard you correctly. Did you say you want me back?" I don't think my eyes could get any wider and my voice any higher than they are now.

"Yes." She's staring me straight in the eye with confidence. Her whole demeanor has changed to one of commitment. This is when I panic and me panicking is not a good thing.

"EMY, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? We broke up. YOU said I was isolating myself from you and I, and I quote, "need to fix my fucking issues before I can be good girlfriend material". Do you not remember that?" I admit, I have trust issues and such in relationships, but that's because they're not Tegan. I cant trust them like I can her and they can never deal with it so they end it, but Emy was very harsh with me when we broke up and I cant forget that.

"I know! I know what I said, but that doesn't mean I meant it!"

"Oh so now you lied to me? You called me fucked up and did it for shit and giggles? What the fuck, Emy!"

"No, that's not why I said it! I just, I just needed space from you and I don't know why I said that stuff. I really don't, but I take all of it back, Sara. Just hear me out." Tegan probably heard most of this stuff and is probably wondering why I'm not taking Emy back. I mean, I did tell her I still loved Emy. She'll wonder why I didn't take her back. She'll wonder why I really cut myself. This is fucked and I keep digging myself deeper and deeper.

"Emy…"

"I know I fucked up, Sara, but please think about it. Think about us. Please give me another chance. I wont let you down this time. I'll always be there for you. I'm 100% committed to you." But I'm not to you.

"I need some time to think. Could you please leave?" I really needed her out of here.

"Yes, of course. Call me, Sara. And tell Tegan I'm sorry. I'll buy her a new mug." Then she walked out the door and I fell to the floor cradling my head trying to figure out a way to fix this mess I've created.

No One's POV

Tegan heard Sara yelling. She didn't hear most of everything else, but she got the jist of what was said. Emy wanted Sara back and Sara freaked. But why? Sara just told Tegan not even an hour earlier that she still loved Emy. Was she lying or did Emy just fuck up too much? Sara never told her all of those thing Emy said to her when they broke up. If Tegan would have known…

Tegan decided to walk out and check on Sara. She saw her sitting on the floor, her body shaking from crying. She rushed to Sara's side.

"Sara, are you okay?", her voice laced in nothing but concern.

"She wants me back, Tegan."

"I know. I thought you'd be happy, but after knowing what she said to you-"

"Tegan, it's in the past."

"I don't care, Sara. She hurt you. I heard you. How can you still love her?"

Sara Quin did not know what to do. Tell Tegan the truth or pretend to love and be with Emy to mask her feelings for Tegan.

She chose the latter.

"I just do, Tegan. You know it's hard to get over people no matter what they say to you." Sara hoped she was lying well enough to fool Tegan and it seemed to have worked. Sara was biting her lip in thought when she finally turned to face Tegan, whose face looked as if it were to crumble at any second. She kept breaking Tegan and didn't know how to fix it.

"Tee, what's wrong?"

Tegan put on her best game face and came up with a reasonable lie.

"Nothing, I'm fine. I just want what's best for you and I want you to be happy," Tegan scratched the back of her neck, a nervous habit she's never been able to quit, "And I thought it was kind of cool for us to both be single at the same time. That doesn't happen very often." Tegan chuckled.

Sara's heart swelled in both happiness and sadness. She thought it was so sweet that Tegan just wanted what was best for her (even though Tegan was what was best for her), but yet she was hoping Tegan would somehow confess more than just sisterly feelings towards her, but she should have known.

Sara giggled, "thank you, Tee. Hey! What about that girl you fell for? The one you..uhh…left Lindsey for?" Sara was nervous about bringing this up because Tegan still hasn't talked about it and she knew it was probably some beautiful, perfect girl that wasn't her.

"Oh, she uhh, she wouldn't go out with me." Tegan was shaking her head and chuckling nervously.

"And why is that? You're a catch!"

"She loves someone else and I'm pretty sure they're going to start dating." Tegan's face fell so Sara automatically pulled her in for a hug. They sat there on the floor hugging for what seemed liked hours, but was only a few minutes.

Sara whispered, "I'm so sorry, Tee."

Tegan sniffled, "It's okay, Sasa. It's not your fault."

Sara didn't say anything, but merely nodded. It remained silent for a few minutes, both girls lost in deep thought, yearning for the other that was no more than a foot away from them, and wondering how their lives got so complicated.

Finally Sara spoke up.

"Some love life we got huh, Tee?"

Tegan chuckled.

"Yeah."

She couldn't help but think how right Sara was.