Digimon: Summer Vacation

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Chapter Ten: "I Don't Love You"

When Kari woke it was still dark. She looked at the person beside her, and for a moment, she expected to see someone else. It was Davis. She was slightly disappointed, but then relieved that she was able to move on from TK. Despite her infatuation with Davis, Kari couldn't lie to herself. She still had feelings for TK. "I wonder if he still has feelings for me...", she thought.

Kari tried to go back to sleep but, she just couldn't get there. She found herself getting out of bed. Kari then got dressed and left the room. In the living room she saw Racheal on the couch, but TK was not with her. Kari decided to walk out onto the balcony, she needed a place like that to clear her head. When Kari looked out of the balcony window, she saw TK looking down at the street beneth him.

Kari opened the door and joined TK on the balcony. "What are you doing up?", Kari asked.

A bit startled, TK turned to Kari, "I...I had a dream...the kind that just wake you up".

Kari stood beside him and watched cars go by. "What did you dream about?", she asked with her eyes on the cars.

For a moment TK was silent. "We were kids...we were in the digital world...it was sometime before we fought Piedmon".

"The digital world?", Kari asked, quite interested. TK now had her full attention.

"Me, you, Patomon, and Gatomon; we were all...you know. Well things were simpler back then. Know what I mean?", TK asked, looking over at Kari.

Kari nodded, "I know exactly what you mean. TK, when was it that you and I stopped being just friends and became more?"

"I can't say. All that stuff just happened", TK answered.

"Why didn't you just stay on the couch...with Racheal?", Kari asked.

TK, again, was silent. Then he answered, "Well...to be honest...when I woke up and noticed that it wasn't you beside me...I got this feeling in my throat...like you get when you're about to cry. Kari, I don't know what I was doing when I cheated on you, but I know that it wasn't worth it".

"TK-", Kari started, only to be interrupted.

"No, just let me talk. Kari, I thought that I could get over you. I talked to Racheal, and at first, I felt something, but she's not you. To me, she's just another girl, but you...Kari you're everything that I still adore. When I...cheated on you, I forgot how much you meant to me, and I realized that no other girl could ever take the place that was your's. Now...now it's too late, but sometimes I feel that you might forgive me...and take me back...but you have Davis now. I don't have a chance...but...I still love you...I love you Kari...just as I always have...", there were tears in TK's eyes by the end of his speech. There were tears in Kari's eyes too.

"I'm sorry TK...I do miss you from time to time...there were things about you that I loved...but...there are things about Davis that I love too", Kari said looking down at the cars. She was, at this point, unsure what she wanted, "Part of me wants you back, wants to forgive you and take you back, want's to be with you again. Part of me want's to be with Davis, part of me is in love with him, part is in love with you...I...I can't be with either of you right now...I...I need time to think". Kari turned and went back inside.

She went into her bedroom to see Davis still sleeping. "Could this ever last?", she asked herself silently. As much as she thought she could get no reply. She loved the way that Davis made her feel, but it wasn't the same way that TK made her feel. What Davis made her feel was in no way less in greatness than TK, but the memories and feelings that TK had instilled in her were greater in number. She had grown up with him and to see him beckon to her the way he did out on the balcony mad her so desperately want to be with him, but how could she do that to Davis? How could she take all that they've had recently and throw it away. She watched Davis sleep and adored his child-like slumber. "How could I hurt you?", she thought. "How could I...break your heart?". Nothing was simple right now. A spontaneous memory crossed her mind. She remembered a time when she and TK had gone to New York. How happy they were taking pictures together. The warm feeling that this memory brought her was like a sample of the way he made her feel. But could he love her like that again? Or had their love truely become disenchanted? Tears filled her deep eyes, "Why do I have to choose?". Her frustration now owned her. It was like a bitter force that made her work against her will. She buried her face in her hands. There was nothing she could do. Stay with Davis and break TK's heart or take her old lover back and break the heart of her new one. This was something that her parents would never really understand. They'd tell her to follow her heart or do what she thinks is right, but advice like that only works in movies and love stories. Why did this responsiblity have to fall into her lap? "Why does it hurt so much?", she asked. "Why...", her tears began to flow again and that choking feeling came into her throat, "Why does it have to hurt so much?". Kari fell to her knees in her anguish.

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Upon waking up Davis yawned. He rubbed his eyes and then looked for his lover. "Hey babe? You in here?", he asked as he looked around. He got out of the bed and walked to the door when he saw her. She was leaning against her side of the bed. Kari must have felt Davis' presence or heard his walking as she slowly opened her raw eyes. She looked up at him with a pleading and bloodshot gaze. The look in her eyes screamed, "I'm sorry...". Davis kneeled down over her. He put his hands on each side of her face and looked her straight in the eyes, "What's wrong, babe? What happened?"

"I can't do it, Davis?", tears began to fill her eyes, "I'm sorry, but I can't do it anymore".

"What are you talking about?", he asked her as if he couldn't tell by the remorse in her voice and the regret in her tears. "What is it, babe? What is it?"

Kari hugged him. He held tightly as if Davis may fly away or something. She kissed him and ran her hand through his hair, "I can't do this anymore". She looked at the floor. "I still have feelings for him..."

Davis sighed. "I knew it was too good to be true. You're going to go back to him aren't you?". Davis' face showed a sense of impatience mixed with urgency.

Kari shook her head, "I don't know. I need some time to think about it".

Davis stood up. "You know what? I've been waiting for this for a long time. I've wasted so much time wishing that I could be with you. It finally happened. It was what dreams are made of and now you're taking it away from me?"

"No...it...it's not like that. I just-", Kari started.

"Shut up! If you loved me at all you wouldn't even consider doing what you're doing now", Davis interrupted. "The least you could do is have the guts to say that you don't love me. Tell me the truth, but most importantly be honest with yourself; you don't love me".

"But Davis, I do. I love-", she began only to be interrupted again.

"NO!", Davis put his hands on each side of her head as to postion her eyes directly on his, "YOU. DON'T. LOVE. ME."

She began bawling. Kari was beginning to believe it. How could she still love TK if she loved Davis? Frustrated she caved in, "I...I don't love you...".

"That's all I wanted to hear", Davis said. He kissed her forehead quickly and without affection. He let her go and left the room.

Kari wanted to get up and follow him. She also wanted to take back what she said. The pain she felt before had increased ten fold. "What did I just do?", Kari asked herself. Her head collapsed into her hands and she continued her cry.

End of Chapter 10.