A/N: This chapter may include, but is not limited to; Frequent quadrant flipping; tentabulges; abuse; fluff; and sexy times.
Read at your own risk.
I was nice and wrote sexy times for you guys! ;D ~Imoto out
P.S Sorry if there are mistakes, I had to type this out on the Ipad my school gave us, and use copy and paste on a friends laptop because Fanfiction is blocked for some reason, they call this site "adult" PFFT! But I really do apologize!
Awaking with a frantic start from the nightmare that was plaguing my mind, pain shot through my body in waves as it stemmed from my shoulder, still throbbing from Jane resetting it back into its socket last night after ingot back. Though I pushed that from my mind, trying to think of calming things as I laid still, trying to let the pain subside while trying to slow my racing heart as the fear left from my nightmare faded.
Jumping at the sudden blaring of my nearby alarm, my pain flared back up, but this time I had to push through it as I used my good arm to lift myself up to a sitting position so smack the alarm, silencing its screaming. With the prospect of school before me, I groaned and rubbed my bare shoulder, even with only the light of the rising sun, I could see a nice bruise around my swollen skin.
"John," Looking over quickly, Jane stood in the doorway, her hair a mess and her night clothes crumpled from her night, yet in her tired blue eyes, I could see evident worry. "how do you feel?" Shifting my legs to disentangle myself from the blankets that has wound themselves around my legs making moving difficult, but even doing this sort of moving sent sparks of pain through my nerves.
"It hurts to move..." She nodded with a small sigh, glancing back as the sound of the front door closing echoed softly through the halls, letting us know that dad had left for work, giving Jane the opportunity she needed.
"Alright, go on back to sleep, I'll call in for you." Nodding, I waited till my door closed again before carefully climbing to my feet and making my way over to my computer, where I quickly opened a chat box to message Gamzee, knowing he'd be worried if I didn't show up without telling him.
ectoBiologist [EB] began pestering terminallyCapricious [TC]
EB: hey gam, i just wanted to warn you that i won't be in today.
TC: WhY? yOu OkAy BrO? :o(
EB: yeah, i just hurt my shoulder.
EB: so it's painful to move most of the time.
EB: i should be back tomorrow though, don't worry.
It was odd that he wasn't replying all of a sudden, but I guessed it was because he would be getting ready for school, it didn't matter anyway I guess... I'd just message him later, so straining to get myself up, I slowly made my way back to my bed, carefully laying down, trying to ignore the flaring pain as I pulled my blankets up, trying to slip into a peaceful sleep.
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Hours later, the house was mostly silently, except for the clocks that ticked on endlessly, driving me into a slow madness as I found myself craving for someone to talk to. Yet I couldn't bring myself to get back up and go to my computer and hope that Karkat had his chat log up, the idea of the pain that would follow from my stiff limb was enough to keep me still.
So when a sudden tapping on my window broke the silence of the house, I jumped, causing a groan of pain to leave my lips as I pushed myself up to my feet, grabbing my glasses as I tried to figure out why the shadow looked so familiar. Drawing back the curtain, I was shocked to find Gamzee standing on the other side of the glass, leaning down to smile up a me slightly, confused I lifted up the pane, stepping aside to let him crawl in.
"Gam? What are you doing here?" He smiled again, but for some reason, this one seemed forced as he closed the window behind, his eyes never staying on me for long. He sure was acting odd... "Hey, are you okay?" Stepping forward to put my hand on his arm, I was taken aback when he roughly pulled his arm away, still keeping all his attention on the floor.
"When were you going to tell me?" What? What was he talking about? "next month? Next year? Or never?" He wasn't making and sense, and I had no clue what he was even talking about, had he started eating soper again? After months of being sober had he really gone back? "Or where you just going to let me find out when you got yourself killed?"
Oh Gog, my bruises weren't hidden... He could see them right now, and sure they didn't look like handprints anymore but still, these aren't marks you got from an allergic reaction to food... You didn't have to be human to know that, you just had to have some common sense and history of science and biology classes...
"Gamzee, seriously, what are you talking about?" His gaze snapped up to me as his eyes narrowed, his voice raising and turning into a vicious growl as his hands clenched into fists, forcing me to back away as he took a threatening step toward me.
"When were you going to tell me you were Cyclone?!" Oh shit... He knows...? How did he know, this wasn't possible, what was going on here? Was I in another nightmare? Did I slip up at some point? How could I fuck up so badly?! I was so careful not to have my identity found out...
That's when it hit me like a ton of bricks.
My gaze shifted to his hand, not only was his wrist slightly swollen and a darker shade of grey, but on the skin between his thumb and pointer finger was the healing shape of a bite mark... The same place I had bitten...
"You are Voodoo..." His nod was curt, his eyes almost murderous as they glared at me, just daring for me to do something to give him a reason to attack without throwing the first punch. I wasn't going to though, actually, instead my eyes filled up with tears as I stumbled back against the wall, biting back my pain as my eyes overflowed, the hot tears streaming down my cheeks as I shook my head. "Of course you are... Why...?"
"Because Cyclone took you away from me! You, Karkat, Nepeta, and I used to have fun conversations before you started playing fucking hero! Then Cyclone was the only thing you motherfuckin talked about! I hated the shit head for that!" So in the end... All of this was my fault... While trying to help, I really did make everything worse, all I had wanted to do was make the city safe for my friends...
"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I just wanted you guys to be safe... Because if anything we to happen to one of you guys, I don't know what I'd do..." His glare didn't falter as I raised my gaze to his, wishing more than anything to see a smile replace his anger, but of course I wasn't that lucky.
"I almost fucking killed you John! Twice! Did you even think how I would have felt once I found out it was you!? What if I wasn't Voodoo, and you had been killed?! What then!? You are the only one who cares about us! You are the only one I care about!" His fist made a loud thud as it slammed against the wall near my head as his face got closer to mine, hatred swimming in his glare, the same eyes I had gotten so used to when fighting against Voodoo. I guess I had no choice...
A sudden burst of air shoved him back away from me, but he must have been expecting it because he jumped back, letting the air move him but he still landed on his feet, a terrifying smirk taking ahold of his lips. I really tried to avoid his punch, but just when I thought I had avoided his fist, a blow to my chest from his elbow knocked me hard against the wall, tearing a loud pain filled cry from my throat as my shoulder slammed against the hard material.
Even at my best I couldn't beat him, so how could I even hope to defeat him with an injury, and knowing it was Gamzee? I could never hurt him now... Ripped from my thoughts when a heavy blow to my side sent me stumbling to the side, I yelped as my legs fell out from under me, my back pressing against the comforter as I landed on my bed. Scrambling away from the troll, I realized my plan wasn't well thought out when it was another wall that was pressing up against my back.
Without hesitation Gamzee leapt at me, quickly pinning my legs to the bed with his lap as he roughly grabbed my chin forcing me to lock gazes with his, and in that moment, I noticed something behind the anger, a feeling that was slowly swelling in my chest. As his hand yanked my head closer to him, I grabbed the front of his shirt, pulling him against me as quickly as I could, our lips mashing together roughly.
Feeling his lips open against mine as we pressed closer together, I returned with the same movement allowing his tongue to slip into my mouth as I ran my hands up to his hair, tugging on the unruly mess as his tongue coaxed mine into action.
The heat that was racing south brought me to the harsh realization that not only did I have no clue what I was doing, I didn't even know what quadrant we were qualified as right now... Either could greatly impact the ending of this... Pulling away the best I could, he didn't seem willing to let me go, so I did my best to speak between the violent kisses.
"G-Gamzee... Wh-wha-AH! ...Ah... q-quadrant...?" He shifted higher up onto my lap, his hips pressing against mine hard, only to smirk at the tent that was raising in the front of my sweats, then before I could try to speak again, he clamped his hand over my mouth.
"Bro just shut up. Who fucking cares, just do the shit you want. Fuck the quadrants." As his hand moved, his lips roughly captured mine again to which I replied eagerly now that my concerns were out of the way, my attention now grabbed by the fact that Gamzee had moved off of me, only to pull me up onto his lap instead, his hips rolling up against mine.
Yanking his shirt up and over his head, I let it fall to the ground as my hands found his the base of his horns where my thumbs rubbed the smooth service carefully, drawing moans from the trolls lips. The sound was addicting, so just to see what his reaction would be, I sat up on my knees, bringing my mouth to replace my fingers on his horns. He grabbed onto my hips with a grip strong enough to leave bruises, but the sound he made sent a shiver down my spine that landed straight in my groin.
"John... St-stop that shit... I-I can't take much more of that..." Pulling away with a smirk, his lips trailed down my stomach just barely touching my skin as his fingers slid under the waistband of my sweats, pulling them down as his lips travelled lower. Closing my eyes in anticipation, a groan escaping my throat as he stopped short, his claw like nails digging into my skin as he did. "Gog, I just don't know what to fucking do with you... I love you, but I also hate you... I want to hurt you, but at the same time I don't..." Lowering myself till I was sitting on his lap once more, his eyes locked with mine, the anguish and confusion staring back. "Why did you have to go and fucking do this to me... "
Bringing his lips back to mine, I didn't try to bring him back to the violence of actions past, I let this kiss stay gentle, trying to console him. We both had different ideas of romance, due to our species, and because of being Cyclone, I had completely screwed his up... So I had to do what I could to make it right.
"Hurt me if you want, scar me if you wish... Let me make it up to you... Do whatever you want and I'll comply. Just this once, but I'll do it." The look on Gamzee's face was pure shock but after a moment it faded to a smile, his lips softly capturing mine as he pushed forward, forcing me back against the bed.
Flinching at the pain flaring in my shoulder, I was able to avoid crying out until he pressed down on the wound with excessive force, tears pooled in my eyes instantly. Whimpering at the pain, his lips left mine and trailed down my neck before moving to my uninjured shoulder, drawing a cry of surprise and pain as his dull teeth sunk into my skin beads of blood forming at the wound quickly before rolling down to the blankets below me.
Closing my eyes as his hands moved back down to my sweats, my heart started racing when my mind finally wrapped around what was happening, but by then it was to late, I had already given him my offer, and I couldn't just take it back... So as my sweats disappeared from my legs, I swallowed my fear and opened my eyes, only to jump when I realized his lips were by my ear now.
"Don't be scared bro... Please... I can stop, I'm not a motherfucker who'll force you..." Sliding my arms around his waist, I buried my face in the nape of his neck as he softly petted my head, how had things turned out like this...? Running my hands up his sides lightly, he squirmed under my touch, chuckling slightly as he did so. "Are you okay John?" Nodding slightly, my lips pressed against the start of his jaw bone, trailing it until they got close enough to his mouth to capture his lips with my own.
Through all that had already happened, it started out innocent, it really did, I don't know what it was, maybe it was the soft whispers between kisses, it might have been the way his attitude changed, or even the way he had his arms cradling me now, but I nervously parted my lips against his. Gamzee on the other hand, wasted no time in slipping his tongue back into my mouth now that I was giving him an all good sign.
Feeling his chest press flush against mine as we both pulled each other closer, heat swarmed my cheeks as his hips rolled against mine, the moan that snuck out was thankfully muffled by his lips. Now the pressure building up was beginning to be to much for me, so with a quick movement I untied the sweats around his waist, and slid them down past his hips.
Gamzee quickly kicked the article of clothing off of his legs, his hands moving to my boxers giving me a brief glance before starting to pull them down, pausing every now and then to make sure I wasn't freaking out. When my boxers were out of the way, he sat the for a second, then looked up at me with a smirk.
"I'll never get past how fucking different we are." Shit, that was something else I hadn't considered until now... Human and troll anatomy was roughly similar and worked in pretty much the same ways, but it was always told how difficult the first few times could be for troll and human couples... With a shaky breath, I sat up slowly, tugging at the waist of his boxers, his smirk grew into a grin as he sat up on his knees, pulling down the last article of his clothing himself.
The blush on my cheeks must have darkened and spread to my ears cause my entire face felt like it was on fire at the moment, I only glanced for a short second, but his bulge wriggled and twitched on its own accord, the appendage being rather large for his age. Though I guess everything about him was big, so it would kinda make sense...
"Gam, I-I don't really know how too... You know..." A soft smile took hold of his lips as he lean forward, planting a light kiss on my head while pulling my body closer, his hands settling on my hips, thumbs lightly stroking my skin to calm me.
"Don't worry, I gotcha, you just gotta trust me..." He paused a moment, his gaze slinking away for a few moments before coming back to me to stay. "That shit might be hard to do, I get that, but, I was wrong... I don't want to hurt you..." Nodding, I laid back down as his hand pushed on my chest softly while guiding my legs around his waist at the same time, giving me an encouraging smile. Lifting my hips as he shifted, a firm grip held them there as I could feel his bulge slowly pressing up into my body.
I had to say it was a strange feeling, but not exactly uncomfortable per say, just odd, it didn't even start to feel bad until the thickness actually started to be greater than my body could handle without adjusting. The moment I groaned in pain, he stopped, waiting until I gave him a nod before continuing, pausing at any sign I wasn't okay, all the while he rubbed my hips soothingly, speaking in soft tones to relax me. Once his hips were pressed against my skin, I bit my lip, staring up at the ceiling as I got used to the sensation. "You know this isn't gonna be like two humans right? Even two human guys."
"Y-yeah..." Startled by the feeling of movement inside of me, I gasped, clamping my eyes closed to calm myself, knowing I needed to relax, trying to help, Gamzee leaned closer and pressed his lips to mine, tongue asking for entrance, which I granted willingly. Either way he would have gotten it, because as something was pressed against inside of me, I gasped, a wave of pleasure coursed through my body, turning the gasp into a soft moan. "O-oh Gog..." Seeing the grin on Gamzee's lips as he pulled away, another press against whatever it was pulled a louder moan from my mouth and as he rolled his hips against mine, I heard a moan from him as well.
Pulling his head back to mine, our lips mashing just in time to muffle my next moan, my bark arching automatically at the pleasure and pushing my hips back against the other, causing another moan to sound from him. The building pressure was becoming painful, and thankfully before I even had the chance to whine, Gam's hand wrapped around my member, stroking it. To return the favor, I reached up to his horns, rubbing the base of them. As the pleasure grew, he started pumping faster, distracting me from his horns as I clamped my eyes shut now, grabbing onto his arms.
"S-stop fighting it..." Arching my back further than before, I cried out as the growing pressure finally released, after a second to regain myself, I turned my attention back to his horns, stroking them and trying to finish him, and it didn't take long. His hands moved on either side of my head, gripping the blankets right as he moaned, slowly he pulled back, then laid down to the right of me, wrapping his arm around my waist as I turned to face him.
We were both silent, I was sure he was thinking the same things, but I knew for a fact that my mind was on what was to come. I knew I'd been in love with him for months, but now with knowing he was Voodoo... I felt conflicted. I really did love him, but he was dangerous... There was only one thing I could do to make a redrom relationship between us work...
I'd have to give up being Cyclone, and pray he'd abandon Voodoo...